Monday, December 31, 2007

Crossing Over

This is a special post as it spans 2 years..... 2007 to 2008.....

well i dunno wat the hype about new years is about... i feel the significance but i do not get the urge to party and usher the new year wit a bang.... is it another excuse for us to escape our pathetic lives and pretend for that one glorious moment taht we are carefree and oh so glamorous?

maybe....

to me the crossing of a new year is always bittersweet. memories of people and experiences of the year gone past. never to be re-lived again. but also the curiosity that is inherent in all of us of wat is to come for the new year. ah 2008 wat will u hav in store for me? love? perhaps? that i wish more than anything else. but i fear if i wished for something to hard and too much. i might not get it. well another year of wishful thinking it seems.

Resolutions

i thought hard and well about my resolutions for the new year. i hav a few in mind but i fear i might not be able to fulfil them, as with the resolutions of many years gone past. still i shall write them down. its tradition after all. as i was explaining to B.Bunee..... It is tradition for us to write New Years Resolutions and then we keep them for a year and never fulfil them. isn't that the fun and point of it all?

So this New Years Resolution for Year 2008 goes as follows.

  • To have all those superficial and shallow people fall for me and grovel at my feet. well how i do it? well that shall be a suprise.....
  • To get a degree. i must work on this. if my melancholia persists than i fear i might not be able too.
  • To return back to Singapore a new and improved person. World weary and hopefully wiser.
  • Seek Love. Haiz.......

Well that is enuff i guess. to keep me occupied for the next year. hopefully i'll survive and hopefully i'll be the same person although i highly doubt it. oh well we all grow and change.

Happy Fucking New Year 2008!!

To A Worse Year Yet!!!

Sunday, December 30, 2007

RetroSpect 2007

Well my frens it is time for my RetroSpect 2007... time to reflect wat i hav done for the past freaking year... as i sit here listening to my Arab Pop Songs.... i shall think back on 2007...

oh btw i have not achieved any of my new years resolution that i set for myself for this year.. hahaha. well i think i haven't but i can't judge my self can i?

So anyway to summarize 2007 has been a year of change and new experiences but then again which year isn't?

January to March: Lets see. can't remember much actually about the beginning part of the year except that it was in preperation for Taiwan coz we had ATEC. my life is still very much immersed in army at this point of time.

April To June: CAme back from Taiwan which was an experience.. althugh couldn't give a damn coz i was gonna ORD soon in June. So came back and bum here and there did this and that... Made new CLOSE frens. And den i ORD-ed!!! W00ts!! i made the decision to join MAAD

July to September: SERIOUS BUMMING TIME. for me that is.... went on holidays.... and bummed for like 3 moths. WTF rite? i finally started back work at good old Kumon in August and also my first time @ MAAD.. which begins my love affair wit MAAD. also the start of my melancholia on my birthday.

October to December: Somewhere here i feel in love or at least i wished it to be.. but then it wasn't mutual. ah thats life eh? so we move on wit the heartache. and no i won't kill myself and i'm fine. the last 3 months hav been like blah. besides working and doing MAAD nothing much has been happening. things stagnating and preparing for my move to AUSTRALIA.

So it brings me here to the end of 2007... the time wen the world gets MORE FUCKED UP. people PRETENDING TO BE ENVIRONMENTAL AND GREEN juz coz its THE IN THING. oh well to me 2007 is full of melancholia nd sadness... to the world and to my life in general... hopefully 2008 will be better... although i don't think it will....

Lost Love... Changes.... We All Must Grin and Bear It....



Britney Spears - YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY

Everytime I look at you
My heart is jumpin, what can I do?....
.....You drive me crazy
I just can't sleep.....

Ah don't we just love Miss Britney Spears.....

Sidenote: if u haven't caught on by now..... all the songs i post on my blog are connected to my life. the lyrics often sings the song of my life.... hee hee.... mysterious eh? blah...

Next post new years Resolutions!!!!!

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Gift Exchange!!!!

Today i met up wit my poly mates and we had a christmas gift exchange! and i got chocolates.....
that is a good thing coz CHOCOLATES ARE BETTER THAN SEX!!!!!.... ok fine that remains to be proven but its freaking chocolates and not any ordinary chocolates.... its Ferrero Roche (is that how u spell it?) and Belgium Seashell Chocolates... Gosh I HEARTS HEARTS Seashell Chocs!!

So Happy.... as of this point of time i already finished the box of seashell chocs... whoops!

also i have been listening to alot of Britney Spears.... Oh my who does not like Britney? if u Don't like her u must be crazy.... She is an icon! and heer songs rocks.... so wat if she has gone all bonkers .... she still rocks! big time! Britney, KookyPlum Hearts You... Wahahahahahaha.... So Here is her song OVERPROTECTED.... I loves this song... i decided not to post a sappy song coz my fren says its bad karma... hah so here is an empowerment song! BooYaaa....

btw its the DarkChild Remix!!



What am I to do with my life(You will find it out don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right(You just got to do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Christmas

well christmas means nothing me coz i don't celebrate it. hah. nuff said.

been feeling my old fren melancholia alot lately.... maybe its the festive season and that why the reason for depression...maybe its the cheer in the air or happiness that is festering around... and people hav been asking me wat they can do to make me feel better....sigh if only it were that simple...

for wat i want is something u cannot give me.

and we all know wat that is...don't we? and if u dunno don't ask so much...

and also since i'm in the mood for italic/thoughts type of writing....

I got tired of waiting.
i give up.
i also read the little subtle signs.
and now i know wat i must do.
i must break my heart into a million pieces.
and from those pieces rebuild a heart of stone and ice.
but somehow my heart wishes not to be broken.
which makes it even more painful to bear.
i cling on to a thing called hope.
wishing it to be true.
yet knowing it is not.
sighs.

So DRAMA rite....

anyways today is christmas and in a week or so...2007 will end... ahhh i must write my retrospect! shall think of it now...in the meantime enjoy ur holidays...

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Fair As the Moon

Today as i was sitting in the lrt, i noticed something when i happened to glance down at my hands. i noticed that my hands were soooo freaking fair. they were glowingly fair like luminescsent, like the moon. i was like wow!

yes i know i am very fair most ppl mistake me as chinese. hah! i didn't realise that i was that fair until i looked at my hands today. maybe it was a trick of light but it did glow like Nicole Kidman's skin. i was mightly amused.

also more happenings in the lrt....

i was randomly scrolling my mp3 player and found a song that i haven't listened to in a long long time... its Siti Nurhaliza and M Nasir with their song Bagaikan Sakti... i love this song... its just beautiful..



HAVE A LISTEN!
and for those of you who do not know any malay here is a translation of the chorus part... i am really to lazy to translate for you everything but it gives you the gist of the song... so beautiful la the song....

Jika ini hakikatnya / If This The Reality
Aku serahkan jiwa dan ragaku / I Will Surrender My Body and Soul
Menantimu walau sengsara / Even If I Suffer Waiting For You
Jika ini ketentuannya / If This Is the Certainty
Jika ini hakikatnya / If This Is The Reality
Aku serahkan jiwa dan raga / I Surrender My Body And Soul
Jika ini ketentuannya / If This is The Result
Kaukan jadi milikku jua / U Will Be Mine Forever

ok my malay is not that perfect but u get the idea of the song... farking sad romantic song of waiting and waiting endlessly for the one u love....

this of course is from the movie PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG.... i could like explain the whole damn legend about it but its very very long and i should just give you a link for you to read on ur own if you so wish...

Legend Of Puteri Gunung Ledang----> Click La

the movie changes the story abit but wat movies doesn't? hahahha ok enjoy the song...might blog to night if i so incline to do so.. or if feel really bored.. either or...



Friday, December 21, 2007

Can't Think Of Any......

can't think of any title to put for this Friday... Its Friday again... another day, another day closer to my departure from this sunny island called Singapore.... 12th Feb people...12th Feb....

Anyways guess wat this is? the picture of this strange reddish gold liquid? Looks like honey eh? It taste like honey but not really..... its.....
CHILLI SYRUP...... oh yeah chilli syrup... made from sugar and water boiled together wit chillies... it was meant to be eaten with ice cream.. vanilla ice cream... i did this today coz iwas watching Nigella on Discovery Travel and Living.... and i was reminded of this recipe of hers.... so i decided to chop some chillies and boil them wit sugar and water and voila....

Nigella Lawson.... Domestic Goddess... I bow down to you... she makes cooking fun for me... i love her and her orgasmic eating ways... she does moan and groan quite alot wen she eats no?

Anyways this is wat its supposed to look like wen u serve it. it looks soooo pretty and sooochristmas-ish doesn't it? and some of you might think... ok heck all of you might think that chillies? and ice cream? wat a weird combo... but i tell you the contrast is AMAZING! its like smooth creamy sweet icecream and then u get a hit of heat from the chillies... its not like searing spicy hot u know.. its sort of a gentle warm sensation at the back of ur throat.. nice and strange sensation... positively lovely! gotta try it.... trust me it will grow on you....

i realise that i'm blogging about food alot... which is weird... but oh wells nvm mind... enjoy

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Miracles


As you can see the above pic is a pic of an egg. a fried egg. but its not any normal egg. its a freaking DEEP FRIED EGG!!!!!
POSSIBLY THE MOST FREAKING DELICIOUS THING IN THE WHOLE FRIGGING UNIVERSE.
ok here comes the miracles part. i have been gorging myself on deep fried eggs like for a few days and coupled wit today's Hari Raya Haji spread of Lamb Briyani and Ayam Masak Merah (literally translated as Red Cooked Chicken) but...... but......
i went to weigh myself and i like lost a kilo! LOST A KILO! how can rite? so i weighed myself again. and yes indeed by some miracle i did lose a kilo even after all that eating.
i consider it a Christmas Miracle.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Breathless - Corinne Bailey Rae

i didn't post yesterday for the simple reason of i didn't feel like it... hey its not as if your world would end if i didn't post hahaha....

ok so a quick post before i go to work. or rather here's a song... by the gorgeous... Corinne Bailey Rae... Don't u just love her...She sooo sweet and her songs are not bad also...

Its her song BREATHLESS.... she doesn't hav a vid of it so this is just the song... let it load give it a listen... it will touch you heart i'm sure..coz i'm sure everybody felt this way before.. i sure am...



Tell Me Do You Know?..... I Get So Breathless Wen U Call My Name.... I've Often Wondered Do You Feel The Same....

Monday, December 17, 2007

Tired

Monday is here again... i spent most of it sleeping :)

u know afternoon naps are such a luxury... i realised that as i feel asleep in the afternoon amid the not very soft pitter patter of the rain against the window. how wonderful. the weather was perfect and i was tired. Glorious combination. i guess its one of the perks of being a bumm.

oh well.

basically thats it. nothing special to blog about. i dunno 1001 things are whizzing in my head at the moment. some things i really don't want to think about but i can't help it. i think too much. kinda stressed actually. from thinking too much. hah.

other than that the usual depressive moods.

Time. Something i don't have much of. Blah!
OH MY GOD! HADY MIRZA IS THE ASIAN IDOL!!!
CAN U FREAKING BELIEVE IT!!!????
I'M SO PROUD.
YES YES YES.
SINGAPORE ROCKS!!

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Sunday

well i finally reached sunday.. wat a week eh? so many exciting things happening thru out the week!.....NOT.... Super Fucking Boring week i tell you.... but den again.. wat week isn't....

well anyways today is sunday... well... as usual woke up late....ya everyday wake up late...every freaking day.. i'm getting tired of it... oh wells....

den Parental Units came back JB and brought food back... Mutton Soup... i loves mutton...

aiyah i shall keep this sunday post really really short coz i'm having a slight mood moment so i don't really have the mood to blog....

i'm anticipating a really boring week ahead coz well i'm working for most of the week... for one... and u know everyone's not free and stuff... which makes me wonder how it will be like on 12th feb? it breaks my heart to think about it but i sorta know. maybe i could be wrong. maybe.

i'm really itching to go out and i could... but alone? where's the fun in that. ok la ok la.

good night.

i'm really wondering how many, if any, of you are actually enjoying my day to day happenings.... just wondering....

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Fuck.. i'm eating bloody oily mutton burger in the middle of the night.... with fried onions and egg... yum yum.. ok its not burger coz well i have no burger bun so its a mutton sandwich... soooo sinful....
i feel so fat now.... but who the fark cares!!!!!! EAT EAT yum yum....

Saturday is Gloomy and Windy Thus....

i get the sniffles... bloody nose is dripping like a leaky faucet... seriously.. its like dripping mucus.... drop after drop.. i had to roll up some tissue and plug my nose man.... sheesh....

anyways today went to Grans house after like weeks and did the usual usual... eat alot, drink bandung, watch tv.... den went home.... umm... yeah....

came back and was bored silly sia...Farking BORED...

So... i went to sew abit... den i was bored of that.... i tell u today is a seriously boring day... so i went to watch abit of tv.... bah!

was lurking around the kitchen and i spied wit my little eyes a bag of nuts that i bought a few weeks back! yes nuts... wat u might ask am i to do wit Nuts?


Oh yeah... These nuts need to be BASHED.....
So i went about bashing my nuts... no not MY nuts, thats just crazy.... the nuts above la....

Weapon of choice.....

The meagre bowl of bashed nuts....

ok i guess the reason for the small amount of nuts is well... i bashed some of them to dust... its good therapy u know.... BASH! BASH! BASH!..... i feels much better....WHACK WHACK WHACK!!! i love nuts...Hazelnuts are the best... when u whack them the crack wit an explosive and satisfying pop!... sometimes they fly...Brazilnuts are so hard to BASH... and Almonds are soft...
ah ok.. tired of blogging maybe coz i'm too distracted by ASIAN IDOL!!!! its a matter of National Pride ok.. even if Hady cannot hold a candle to the others i still must support my Singapore Idol.... Go HAdy.....


Friday....

WEll i got home after midnight so i guess its not Friday anymore but i have to post about Friday... why? just coz i got nothing better to do....

Fri i went to work! Weeeeeee..... Kids!! i love them kids.... it seems funny that i am soo happy just to go to work... even though i earn peanuts compared to all my frens.... i'm still happy to go to work....

i sat in the train jsut now thinking... thinking about wether i went about my life the wrong way. i see all my frens earning 1000+ dollars and here i am earning less than a sweatshop worker... its not that i don't want to work... it just there is no point for me to work becoz i'm going to study really soon... and another thing, by not working full time i am able to indulge in my artistic side, to set up a stall at MAAD and do want i really wanna do, in this short span of time that i have.

i dunno. i have no regrets with the choices i made. but really having no spending power kinda sucks. if only people knew how much i've poured into my lil stall..... sighs....

so anyways after work i rushed to meet up wit my BMT mates... yes my BMT mates! i haven't seen them in ages... but i finished work late and by the time i got there they finished eating dinner and well were kinda in the mood to go off.... oh well i least i got a short updates on their lives... these guys with whom i began my NS life with... it was nice to see them again...

ok thats it for Friday... ok its Sat now... sheesh....

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Thursday's Child Has Far To Go.....

Or.... Thursday's child works hard for a living..... oh come on... its mocking me!!! can't u see!!!! yes i'm not working again today... coz i'm being replaced.. so today i don't get to see my fav twins at work..... sadz....

Anyways ya so i'm not working thus i bum to the MAX... i woke up at 2pm... can u beleive it 2 FREAKING pm... i didn't intend to wake up soo late... i just didn't set my alarm coz i was doing nothing and had no need to wake up at anytime... but i was suprised that i woke up soooooo late... like i didn't do anything strenous the day before.. only sewing and reading.... and eating and shitting...

So out of sheer boredom i'm re-reading one of fav books.....Mistress Of Spices.... i love that book... makes me want to be a Mistress Of Spice.. the book is very poetic and magically in the way the author seamlessly weaves words together to form magical images and stirring the senses..... loves....

i could re-read another fav book.... Practical Magic .... but then i already read that one like 5 times.. u know certain books have that magical allure that just keeps u coming back for more... the magic of books.. i hearts books... i double hearts books....

another thing... i've been dreaming alot... like for the past few days i've been dreaming alot and wen i wake up i feel much more refreshed... i feel much better for the past 2 days that i felt the last week.. last week was horrid with me feeling so lethargic.... bleargh!

Dreaming is ur minds way of subconciously sorting out ur problems thru dreams......so i guess my mind is helping sort out my mind.... which is good i guess.... now all that needs sorting is my heart....

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Wednesday's Child is Loving and Giving

Or.... Wednesdays Child Is Full Of Woe.... again depends on which version u happen to stumble upon.... ok i will try to be loving and giving.... i said i will try... coincidentally Wednesday the child from Addams Family is named after the aforementioned line... she is full of woe....

So today is Wednesday i WAS working on Wednesday... but den i'm being replaced coz i'm going off to study so i'm semi fired... so today i will laze at home... sighs.... and i cooked (or rather fried) French Toast today... yumyum.... other than that nothing... people are working so i don't really wanna bother them...

Had this song stuck in my head for the past hour or so... and so i decided to share it with you...
Its from the movie 54... back in 1998! Damn disco retro la... and besides u get to see Ryan Phillippe (is that how u spell it?) dance around shirtless... oh yeah ladies ... and some guys....haha... Perfect DragQueen song i tells you....



and its still raining.. damned monsoon.... its supposed to end next week.. on Dec 15th but seeing how fucked up the world is now i think we are gonna see a few more weeks of rainy weather... and soggy shoes and damp hair....

was just randomly reading blogs and watching and reading the news and i was just wondering how much of a Carbon FootPrint did ZoukOut 2007 leave? like come one 23000 drunk party revellers and so much lighting and sound equipment couldn't have been Environmentally frendly can it? and somemore i saw a pic in the papers taht they had a huge troop of cleaners come onto the beach to clean up the aftermath of ZoukOut... I find it silly that Zouk organised a Green Themed party named "I Smell Green Spirit" and den a week or so after that had ZoukOut. Contradicting much? Come on la. Just coz its the IN THING now to be green. sheesh. If u are not then please don't pretend to be. My 2cents.

Hah ok now i'm sitting here thinking of wat to blog coz i'll try to make this the longest blog post ever in the history of the universe! yeah rite. Oh i know.

Yesterday night i really had nothing to to do. So i took out my Piggybank and counted my coins. i'm not gonna tell how much there is but.......

Have u ever realised the longer u look or stare and some thing the stranger it becomes. i was counting coins and looking at them i realised that they looked kinda weird. like seriously its like they were not really coins. but they were. u know they are coins but somehow it doesn' register in ur head (or in this case, my head)

Same goes for words.... if u keep reading and saying and having the word in ur head it seems strange after awhile. TRY IT!!!! pick a random word and keep repeating it over and over again. i'm sure they is some scientific explanation that includes detachments from the neurons governing the psychosis of the left brain that in turn affect the language center in the frontal lobe that makes the hypothalamus glands secrete some X hormone that makes u involuntarily jerk your knee and cluck like a chicken. i'm sure but i'm lazy to research. or may be i would since i'm bumming today. hahahha.

So anyways i ran out of happy things to blog this afternoon. So i dedicate this YouTube video to all those employed people out there. HAPPY WORKING SONG! from the movie Enchanted. i hearts the movie Enchanted... sighs. makes me believe in love.... laaa deee daaaa...

So for those people who are working. Enjoy the HAPPY WORKING SONG!!!! and HAPPY WORKING!



Till laterz.....

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Tuesday's Child Is Full Of Woe.

Or full of Grace.... depends on which version u happen to chance upon. me, i rather prefer the woe-full Tuesday child. blah.

Yesterday was Melancholia Monday. So yesterday's post was super uber melancholy and dark. so this being tuesday....... is no different! hah! ok fine i will try to be more cheerful....

hmmm let see nothing much today.... still mulling over yesterday....

other than taht nothing la... i apologize if wat u read kinda hurt you in anyway.. but tahts just how i feel.. ok.. thats all for tuesday....
ok fine. i blame myself i'm a lousy fren.

Monday, December 10, 2007

Monday Blues

Today is Monday... or rather if by the time this post is done it would be tuesday.... i didn't really like this monday coz i realised a few things about life taht is....well.... not so pretty....

i think too much... i really do.. i try to figure out the meaning of life and more often than not, its not very pretty... life really is sucky and i really do not understand how people can be sooo optimistic about it... i really don't there isn't much to be optimistic about...

i mean not everything about life is bad but i guess we can't be happy all the time...

i guess the Buddhist teachings that the world is full of suffering is true... the world is really full of suffering and pain... people just don't want to face the true fact of it... instead choosing to live in the World of Maya, the world of illusion, and pretend to be happy wen more pften than not, they are not really happy...

The first thing i realised today is....

if u want to know how much u are worth to ur frens, just wait till ur birthday. i mean its true. if nobody bothers or remembers about it then u hav a problem.... coz if people take the extra time and effort to organize a birthday bash or go out of their way to get u something special den u know u are loved and cared for... if not den u know ur worth... i should know.... yeah it hurts...

Second thing i realised today....

how much u are liked very much depends on how u look. it doesn't matter if u are super kind and caring or freaking genius.... if u don't look good ppl won't really remember you or just remember you as being nice or funny... oh yeah some of you might disagree and this point might not really be 100% true but this is how i see it... thru my eyes.... freaks or popular ones? i'm sure most of u habour the secret desire of being the popular ones....

yes yes... i'm still bitter about my 22nd birthday... i mean the people who i tot were close to me didn't even remember my birthday... ur amazed at where you stand wen u get experience such things..

oh wells.... people hurt others without even knowing it... i'm guilty of that too... karma i guess...too much rain bogging my head.... and slowly my heart turns to stone.....

onto happier things....


Kool book... LOVES LOVES!!!!!



Eaten By Bugs... How fitting Of a Botany Text...

Went to second hand bookstore at Bras Basah... i loves that shop.. so many treasures taht you can find there if ur willing to look.... and see wat i found!!! an old Botany text.... and the reason i loves it so is that it was eaten by bugs! So kool la! w00t w00t! i loved it so wen i first saw it had to buy it... cost me 6 bucks wor! steal hor!

Anyways Monday was spent walking in the rain and getting toes wet... didn't really enjoy it for some reasons that shall not be mentioned here but oh wells...

Another gloomy wet tuesday awaits....

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Lazy Sunday

Well i achieved my 2 goals i set out for myself this sunday. which was to wake up really late and to clean my room. ok maybe achieved one goal and half of the other ;P

I really did wake up late today like 1pm. oh how i love to wake up late. only downside is that there was noone to wake up to. sadz. and i somehow had a really really sad drem that i couldn't remember wat it was but it was really sad. and i woke up crying. silly innit? and i woke up with my right eye closed shut. like coz of eye gunk. and wen i managed to pry it open my right eye was like BLOODSHOT and SWOLLEN. how sad.

i ate a gigantic bowl of spaghetti (more on that later) and proceeded to carry out my next goal. which was to clean my room. my room is UBER dusty. no matter many times it is swept, there will always be a fine layer of dust. so anyhoo.... i cleaned up half of the mess. and i got bored and stared at the ceiling for abit then i decided to come online. w00t! so maybe after dinner i shall continue on my quest.

The mess! Considering how small my room is. This mess has taken over my floor space.

Sorry for the blurness, me hands shaky.


Virgin Fashion Show.

Oh my oh me! Yesterday i went to my very first ever posh fashion show. oh yeah. My very first. I'm no longer a virgin (to fashions shows that is. sheesh).

it was the Autumn/Winter collection for Studio Prive. And my old classmate is one of the designers! w00t! and i got dragged to go. but it was such an eye opener and i felt very underdressed. Pics! ok lousy pics coz i didn't bring a camera but aiyah i just felt like putting them.


The Design Collective that put it together.


My fren's label iamwhoiam. and the glowstick bracelet which i got.


umm it was fun la this fashion thing. oh exciting. and such eye candy. hahahaha. ok more blogging later. Gilmore Girls is starting.

Coz I'm A Sucker of These Quizzes

Your Birthdate: August 27

You are a spiritual soul - a person who tries to find meaning in everything.
You spend a good amount of time meditating, trying to figure out life.
Helping others is also important to you. You enjoy social activities with that goal.
You are very generous and giving. Yet you expect very little in return.

Your strength: Getting along with anyone and everyone

Your weakness: Needing a good amount of downtime to recharge

Your power color: Cobalt blue

Your power symbol: Dove

Your power month: September


Oh really? Or rather O Rly? Ya maybe.. i do think alot....

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Epiphany

I just realised that... i can't win.. i can't compete...
if being myself doesn't cut it den well....i dunno wat to do...
i have no time left... maybe this is driving me to desperation... i dunno...

oh gosh... i really am trying to go wit the flow but its frustrating... very...
but den i realised i cannot compete wit others who are better than me... i am who i am...
and thats the way it is....
its always a 2 way thing, nvr one way....

No chance at happiness or least feel wat its like....
sighs....

i can't be who you or anybody expect me to be... i just can't...
so i guess i'm destined to be by myself....
Never knowing wat its like, Always expecting and wish....

Friday, December 07, 2007

I Shall Blog Of Many Things....

Of Cabbages and Kings....

Phew! its been awhile eh since i posted eh... well i have been very busy.... with MAAD and random baking....

MAAD was a blast as usual... Loves It... I sold 2 plushies yay! and some other random stuff.... which is good aye?

Other than that i made Cuppy Cakes again... A whole batch of them... Chocolate Chip CuppyCakes and Apple wit CreamCheese Frosting....Yum Yum...

Ok i realised that this post about MAAD and baking was abit overdue but hey dee hoo....

So anyways the baking was done mainly for Appletoe's Birthday... Ur old now... and so made a batch means u have lotsa left over soooooo... i brought them to MAAD and fed all the people there....I love baking but then i don't bake that often... so if you received my baked goodies means ur one of the important people in my life.. and there hav been a few....

Other than that the week has been crazy coz i had to sew 2 more plush toys for PageOne... which i shall talk about later... but anyways i had to go shop for cloth on monday... and sew one that night and then i had to work and weds i was a crazy sewing MAAD person... i spent the whole day sewing. like seriously sewing the whole day... and i couldn't finish it and i had to give it to MAAD mamasan on thurs... and was even sewing on thurs morning...

So anyways Thurs morning was spend crazily sewing... and its not machine stitching mind you... it was all hand stitched... so i had a very sore middle finger coz of the poking of needles... but anyways i managed to finish it and pass it to MAAD mamasan so that they could be exhibited at.......

PageOne Bookstore!!!! Yes my plush toys will be at VivoCity... at PageOne bookstore!!! yay! In conjunction with MAAD Are You Soft Ver2 Exhibition... I'm So Excited!!!! the exhibition will be on going till the end of december.... so u guys have chance to see them... although highly unlikely but anyways if ur in Vivo u can POP down to see them...

So anyways Thurs was spent wit Person whose Toes Resemble Apples.... We went to watch Enchanted... Which was an alright movie... but it was SUPER UBER ROMANTIC... made me wanna sing to the birds and be all cheerful and sweet... but alas life is not a fairy tale.. but i'm still waiting for My True Love's Kiss... Sighs....



Anyways the above vid is my favourite scene from the movie... The ballroom scene... where the song is So Close......

So Close... And Still So Far.... Sighs.... Uber Sighs...

So anyways another announcement to make... everything is settled and i'm going to leave for Australia on...

12th Feb.... My flight is @ 9.05pm.... so countdown starts already.... i hope people come to send me off...

So anyways enjoy the song... and hope you find ur True Love's Kiss soon....

Monday, December 03, 2007

The Color OF Your Eyes

i love this song by arab singer Nancy Ajram....
And i recently found one wit english subtitles... so please enjoy this uber romantic song....
but they got the trnslation to the later part of the song wrong leh... ho ho... nvm here's the full translation here....

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Untitled.

Forgive my last post. i'm prone to ranting on my blog. i'm actually a very angry person. hee hee.

Well the past week has been rife with regards to the Cambodian Tragedy.

Although i do not know them, i feel sad that these guys were taken at the prime of their lives. And to their family and frens. My heart goes out to them. Yesterday i read a tribute blog to one of the guys. and Sarah McLachlan's Angel was playing. I was reading a particular post about how he and his fren were supposed to do alot of things but now they cannot.

At that moment i lost it. I started crying and singing along to Sarah. Yeah ok i know it sounds silly and stupid but it was so touching and i was sad about it too. i am but only human.

i guess this tragedy has made alot of people, especially youths, really think about life and wat are the important things in life. In other words wake up their idea. these men taken in the prime of their lives. sighs. how fragile is life and so uncertain is the future.

I guess i should appreciate my frens more eh? and my family....

Familia - Loves ya! although i get irritated sometimes. vice versa

Frens - i may be moody and bitchy or abit of an ass... sowwie. And even though u guys always make me wait long long at train stations and wandering around random stores awaiting ur arrival. (oh u know who u are) i not that angry. i guess u guys more than made up for it by all the laughs and bitching we hav afterwards.

But we have to move on.

Theory.... Has Become Law

Just like my Law of Time Dilation, another thoery has officially been proved by me to become a Law of the universe unto itself.

Law Of Ignoring People On Msn.

this Law takes effect wen u want to irritate the hell out of me. U know just get me started on a really nice conversation and den just stop. Just mutha fucking stop. replying on msn.

evolved from Theory of People Ignoring You On Msn. this has the irritation factor of 100 million.

usually a msn conversation revolves around msgs being pased back and forth and only stops wen someones says he/she is logging off or he/she has to do work or his/her com is gonna be blown up. its only polite to say that not gonna reply or that u have work to do.

and pls use ur status properly if ur busy put busy if not den don't. i used to put a fake "busy" status but not anymore coz even if i don't have the status... ppl aren't really interested to talk to me anyways. i wonder why. must be coz i'm irritating.

but i nvr take a fucking half hour to reply on msn. thats just wrong.

if u got attacked by rabid bats while on ur com den i would understand but seriously ppl. ignoring ppl is just irritating....

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Plush For MAAD


Plush For MAAD, originally uploaded by KookyPlum.

I did some Plushies for MAAD.... They are having a plush toy exhibition called Are You Soft ver2... Come down to MAAD @ redDot Traffic at Maxwell on 1st and 2nd December....

Come visit me! 11am-7pm

More of each individual plush see here>>/www.kookyplumstuff.blogspot.com

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Its Your Fault.... Another Music Post......

Well this time Joons is the one to blame....
Got me all melancholy in the middle of the nite... hahahahha....
but nvm thanks Joons for intro-ing this song to me... LOVES LOVES....
here is Ken Hirai or Hirai Ken (whichever) video to the song Even If...
there is english translations so u will get the meaning of the song... see i'm so thoughtful until i go find vid that got subtitles for you to read ok...

so anyways its a farking heart breaking song.. about "i like you but u like someone else and i'm bursting inside but i can't say anything" type of thing...
so story of my life rite? hahahha go listen!! so worth it...


Ken Hirai - Even If

Friday, November 23, 2007

All Ur Fault...... Psychic Fruit....

Well went out with a certain PSYchic fruit yesterday... but before that i had to work, went to Arab Street to get stores and then went to RedDot to send my plush toys and den went to Stevens Rd to settle my uni stuff and then went to kino @ taka to browse and den went to Library@Orchard to read 3 books on poetry... all in the span of 4 hours... yes i too am amazed at myself...

So anyways met up wit PSYchic Fruit (for lack of a better name coz i dunno if he wants to be known or not) to walk walk and to hunt for the SPICE GIRLS BOX SET. so anyway that was a failure coz apprently they don't have the box set... yet in spore...
after that we went to do wat we always do...PEOPLE WATCH... gosh people watching is such a guilty pleasure... all the bitching and criticizing... my past time... had alot of fun yesterday...

saw someone who i didn't expect to see...sighs... i was very unglam you know at that time.. how can!? well things happen at the most unexpected moment...

anyways Spice Girl Fever has rubbed off on me... coz someone kept singing a certain aprt and all taht Spice Girl talk and Spice Girl CD hunting has got this song stuck on me.... so enjoy The Spice Girls new song...hahhahaa.. Headlines...



On a sidenote: Look at Geri Halliwell's abs!!! LOOK AT HER ABS... GOSH... GORGEOUS ABS... i want abs like that...hhahahaa.....

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Really Meh?

Lets101 - http://www.lets101.com">Free Online Dating




OH Come On... Someone loves me rite now? I sure wanna know who the hell that is.....
Kinda True, Kinda Not...
You Decide...
But still Bored...

Saturday, November 17, 2007

All I Do Is Work And Laze Around In Bed...

today is sat. the weekend is here. how fun! NOT!

today i worked till 3pm. went to shop for a prezzie for my nephew and went to GrandAunt's house. well by the time i got there the cake was already cut and all the hoo hah was over and done with. haiz.

so went back home and i decided to clean my room up. coz my room is in a uber mess and i need to clean it up coz apparently thigns get lost in the mess. i lost my gold and silver markers. i know they are in there somewhere but i dunno where. thats why i have to clean up my room.

so i got back how changed and guess wat i did? i lazed around in bed and fell asleep! WOW! and wen i woke up an hour later. i LAZED around somemore and stared at the ceiling and my pillow for 2 freaking hours! i know! i amaze even myself.

so den i got thirsty and went to get myself a drink and ate a few grapes. and..... wait for it........ wait for it..... went back to ROLL around my bed some more. and den that brings me to here.... blogging....

serious i am that pathetic. imagine staring at the ceiling for 2 hrs. how can my life get that pathetic? i have no mood for anything. i've given up asking ppl to go out. coz i know very well wat the answer is. i've given up. on life. there is just no point. (just a side note. No i will not kill myself. thats just stupid.)

my life this past week has centered around my bed. wen i come back from work i laze around on my bed. even wen i do my art i do it on my bed. i like to roll around on my bed and fall asleep out of the sheer boredom. gosh i love my bed. my room is in a mess. who the hey cares. mom nags but thats about it. i can't be bothered. at least i still bathe. i have to observe some amount of public decency.

but then again i might just be lazy to do even that. give me a few more weeks we'll see how it goes.

Lets see the agenda for tomorrow would be wake up at 12noon or later. eat. laze around in bed for a few hours and draw or do wateva in bed. maybe i might jsut take a nap. watch tv. eat dinner and laze around in bed again. go online and talk to nobody. maybe blog and sleep.

wow i love my life alot really i do. AS IF....

Friday, November 16, 2007

The Value Of Money

Ok i feel better about my self today... or rather.... i have resigned myself to my fate...

anyways u know wat i did wen i came back from Chinatown? i went to sleep till dinner. oh yeah such a lazy slob i have become. i have like an unfinished painting and a few more art pieces to do but who the hey cares. just sleep!

next time i mention that i wanna go chinatown please please stop me. everytime i go there i overspend, like seriously overbudget... which brings me to my blog post proper....

I was Q-ing up at my bank to do a transaction/statement thingya few days back... so there i was waiting and waiting... den i noticed this old uncle also Q-ing infront of me.... he was old like 60 plus...ok so here is the thing... he was holding his passbook...

but this is the thing or rather the image that was stuck in my mind for the past few days was wen he was checking his passbook, he opened it and inside were a bunch of $10 notes and $2 notes. i was quite struck by that image. of him holding his passbook and going to deposit wat could be less than $50 dollars into his account...

it affected me quite alot and got me thinking about the value of money... here we are throwing money away at frivolous things while there are people who scrimp and save every bit of money they can...

i not saying that one should live like a beggar but instead live within ur means.... its ok to indulge once in awhile and if u can afford it.. just make sure ur concious of the fact that other ppl are less fortunate than you.

i find it ridiculous to be spending a few hundred dollars on a freaking t shirt no? or a polo T for that matter... call me old fashion hippie but comfort is most important to me... don't come telling that a cotton T worth a hundred bucks is more comfy that a cotton T worth 20 bucks... its damn freaking cotton...

but some things are worth the money like shoes or jeans... or a laptop... somethings are worth the expense that is paid.

but one must understand the value of money.

i still dunno why the image of the old man is stuck in my mind. i dunno wat i just ranted in the above post but i just wanted to tell you the thing thats been in my mind for these few days....

The Old Man and his Passbook wit his $10 notes.....

Thursday, November 15, 2007

I don't even bother to think of a title for my blog post. sighs. maybe wen i'm feeling better bout my self and the situation i'm in. maybe. ppl can enjoy my blog post title. AS IF!

well i shall attempt a post before i go to sleep and wake up to another morning of cursing god about why he/she makes traffics jams to spoil my attempts to reach work on time.

i shall gallavant around chinatown tomolo. not coz i feel like it. its more of work related. so i have to get my lazy no mood ass to Chinatown tomolo. its no fun going shopping by urself. really it isn't but i have to do it. sighs. i wanted to go to arab street too but i'm really lazy and its hot. so only chinatown den. i shall make it fast and chop chop so i can go back home and sleep and not actually do the work that is required of me. work that made me go chinatown in the first place. sheesh.

there are soo many things i wanna do. but hey everyone is working. apparently much harder than me. so ppl are tired. so here's alist of things i really wanna do.

  • Go Singapore Art Museum. Apparently they hav a really good exhibition there. i think its called the Big Picture Show. or sumthing.
  • New National Museum just coz i've been there before.
  • Watch tons of movies. Namely Stardust, Beowulf and Golden Compass and maybe Enchanted
  • Go exploring Arab Street and Haji Lane and Emerald Hill properly.

Some of the things. i really wish ppl would help me at Maad in december oso. but hey wishful thinking.

Off to sleep.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Wats the point really. No mood for anything. Wake up. Another bored to death day. Go work. At least the kids are a distraction. Go home. Log on. All the buddies are busy. Go sleep. Cycle starts all over again.

Nothing Special. Nobody Special. Life like has no meaning all of a sudden. Wat is there to live for? There's nobody special in my life. Or rather the feeling isn't mutual. Sighz.

Bored. and Ignored. And Lonely.

Thursday, November 08, 2007

I Feel Really Ignored.

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Like Seriously

I shall complain about the mundane-ess of life.
Life in general is getting v boring.
Ok i like going to work, the kids are fun.
But i just need to hang out.
Bitch about stuff.
People watch.
U know that kind of thang.
Ya ok. I do go out by myself.
But it isn't much fun.
Its irritating.

Monday, November 05, 2007

Here I Am Again

Once again i turn to you, My Most Boootifulsoup Ever, for comfort. coz once again. i'm bored shitless and hav come here to rant.

Rant like the raving lunatic that i am.

Ok i dunno wat to rant about. should i go into the dreadfully boring details of wat i did today? most probably not. ppl don't love me enuff for me to blog about my daily habits. seriously. except maybe i will say this. My back is freaking sore.

so i know why back is sore? goodness no. its just very sore. like i feel sorta pregnant or growing breasts. i overworked my back. like wat from sleeping? maybe i had some gymnastic dream that that required me to do like sternous excercise or sumthing. like i woke up today feeling really sore.

and actually it has been going on for a few days now. it started from my lower back and now its moving up. i thinks its some imbalance somewhere and that my spine is shifting. oh yes how very holistic hippie approach. but i think thats wat is it. time to eat more veggies and fruits.

in the meantime. shall do some stretching and sit up straight.

Sunday, November 04, 2007

Not Gonna Happen

So it seems i will be blogging alot more these few weeks. for the very reason THERE IS NOTHING TO DO... ok there are things to do. ok today i spent the whole day or rather the whole aftertoon sewing my plush toy. which i must say, i am quite plesed wit the end result.

but other than that was just eating and and watching tv. my version of busy.

like everybody is busy. even on msn.... refer to my theory a few posts down. i dunno why i'm not busy. i work yes. but i don't take my work home. if i did den the police would catch me. so wen i reach home basically i'm free as a bird. also i don't work much so the amount of time i spent not working outweighs the time i spend working.

so u see i much free time. much. oodles and oodles of it. time which i tot would be spent wit my frens. u know before i dissappear from their lives for ONE FREAKING YEAR. but i didn't factor in the part where would work or be super uber tired. of work and of me.

so here i am. a victim of my own mis-planning. its ok. i shall use this time that i have to like. do my other work and create new stuff for my lil' art shoppe. so i shall be busy. in my own way.

how very frustrating.... a seriously pointless post just coz i got nothing to do.

there are many things i wanna do. mainly watch movies. but u know usual la whole busy busy agenda.

like i really really wanna watch Stardust. which almost happened but didn't and now its almost happening again but its pending.
i also really really wanna watch Beowulf. which is based on an epic poem.
and i really really wanna watch the Golden Compass. which is some fantasy shitz.

a very big part of watching a movie is who is sitting next to you. like i wouldn't watch movies wit jsut anyone. strange eh. its jsut as important as the subject of the movie itself. very very important.

i dunno why i jsut said that but who cares. like anybody cares. like seriously. if u did care you would like place a comment. but no ones does. ok one or 2 ppl. they care.

so all this blabbering....
i don't think i will watch the movies anyways. like fate has always a cruel suprise up her sleeve. the thigns i want soooo badly usually do not happen but things i do not want happens all the time.
for example. i wanna watch the abovementioned movies. by some cruel twist of fate. i will not watch these movies. like seriously. and also like tomolo there will soooooo be a traffic jam wen i do not want there to be a traffic jam. but it happens. fate. oh and don't get me started on love.

so anyways enuff ranting. toodles

Saturday, November 03, 2007

Between 2 Worlds

So today 2 very different events were happening. First was Singapore Regatta 07 & secondly was November MaAd. these events were both as different as night and day like seriously u could see and feel the difference. ok u can't really see or feel coz u weren't there but u get wat i mean.

Singapore Regatta 07.
Not gonna blog about it much coz the blogosphere will be rife with ppl blogging about Regatta. how they lost, how they didn't row fast enuff. blah blah. so anyways.....
first of all i had to wake up early early to go and catch my fren whose race was supposed to start at 9.30. but u know things draaaaag and his particular race started at 10 ish. fine by me except for the fact taht it was super duper hot. like seriously the heat was like erm... hot. if he wasn't rowing i wouldn't be there i think.
Also the throngs of bronzed hunks and babes walking around in their tight tight singlets and short shorts didn't help either. i feel so small/inferior and ugly.not a good feeling i tell ya.
but i was amazed at the team spirit and energy of the whole thing. like wow! the energy and discipline of it all. amazed.
but somehow i felt kinda uncomfortable being there. it wasn't just coz of the inferiority complex but also i felt like this atheletic stuff wasn't me. like it felt kinda wrong being there. i didn't belong. i dunno felt weird.

So.... i said my goodbyes to fren... who was to busy (i hate that word) to entertain me... coz gotta concentrate on rowing and team spirit things.... so anyways... i ran to the place where i belonged...

MAAD!

This month i didn't set up a stall there. i decided i need a break. so no stall for KookyPlum. but no stall means more time to chit chat wit my MaaD frens. so i spent the afternoon like talking to ppl. i guess time well spent. made a few more new frens. i heart heart MaaD. Felt like home. hahaha. and got aircon hahaha.

So anyways i guess now i know where i belong. not among the pretty ppl but among the creative ppl.

Ok so i leave you tonight with Alanis Morissette - Ironic
Why? Coz i'm slightly pissed (ok wait i'm like always slightly pissed) but anyways...
i realised this most ironic of ironies. like on the day i DONOT hav a stall at MAAD... everyone of the people i usually hang out wit is not free. Like work la, study la, tired la.... so i was like left alone. wat an irony... enjoy....

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Thinking Out Loud

I've thinking. oh yeah i always do alot of thinking. but soemtiems i like to blog about wat i'm thinking. ok nvm after thinking (hahha) the previous sentence doesn't really make sense. why? well i could explain to you the logic behind why it does not makes sense but then thats not the reason for this post.

the reason for this post is that i have realised and made some self discovery. i see the light. cue organ music and angelic harps.....

i realised... i'm not hot or cute or attractive. i'm jsut average. i'm grateful that i'm not... well lets just say i'm thankful i have all my body parts and they are all in the right place.

The beautiful thing about me. (ahem time to get abit egoistical here) the beauty of me is not my face or my body or my stunning charisma. the beauty of me is my mind. my brain. i dunno currently if that is a good thing or not. but thats wat is beautiful about me. Christina Aguilera and Tyra Banks must be proud. if u don't get it. den nvm.

i know i will nvr get noticed for my looks. come on. i'm sure all of you are like nodding in agreement in ur lil heads. hahaha. but then how will ppl like get to know me. i mean ppl talk to me to like me rite? so based on that assumption, alot of u are missing out on alot. hahaha.

ppl always see. they like a certain person coz of how they look and go after that person rite? so if that is the prevalent status quo den where do i fit in? u have to talk to me to get to know me and like me. but by that time, i'm JUST A FREN to you. rite. so there goes the relationship potential out the window. bye bye.

its all very confusing. i dunno why i blogged this. maybe jsut to show how emotionally unstable and a crackhead i am. actually.... ok nvm... maybe i'm just bored on a weds afternoon, waiting for the time for me to get ready to go to work. just regard this post as thinking out loud.
blah :P

Awesome Song

Rebecca - Maafkan Aku Mencintai Kekasihmu (Forgive Me For Loving Your Lover)




Gosh... i LOVE this song..... the title means "Forgive Me For Loving Your Lover"... its bout a fren asking for forgiveness from her fren for scandal-ing wit her frens bf... watch the video and u kinda get the story...
Did i say that i luv luv this song.....Especially the intro part which is my fav part... toy box/dancing ballerina/twinkly music box type thing... stunning...

Ok apparently its some Indonesian singer... i dunno maybe not so famous... She called Rebecca... ans she's quite hot too.. gives me that Rory Gilmore (Alexis Bledel) look... maybe its her jawline.. i dunno.... but anyways enjoy the song...

Sidenote: I wonder how many of you actually let the song load? maybe none... just wondering....Let it Load For gods sake! its a nice song!

Side Sidenote: For the past one hour i've been listening to song OVER and OVER again... thats how much i love this song... For now at least.. song of the moment... anybody got the mp3?

Monday, October 29, 2007

People Ignoring You On Msn Theory

ok this is has not become a proven scientific law thus its status as a theory.
i'm trying to figure out why people always ignore me on msn. is it just me? or maybe its happening to you too?

like u start a conversation on msn and den just midway thru the conversation just. stop. replying. like stop. so i'm left wondering wat happened to the person on the other side. did they die? or got eaten by a squirrel? like i dunno. no rhyme or reason just not reply.

first of all i'm not expecting a super fast reply but after 10 mins of waiting for a reply. its gets abit irritating and worrysome. i worry alot. and wonder why i do not get a reply back. maybe you computer is "hanged" den one couldn't reply can they and state the reason. maybe.

and also i can't just be talking to myself. like i could be typing sentence after sentence and yet no reply. no point going on msn just to talk to myself.

oh the best thing is sometimes ppl jsut go offline just like that. ur left waiting and waiting and they jsut go offline.

the least one could do is like tell me u have something to do or u can't really talk to me coz ur busy or there is a show going on that u would like to watch or even if u need to go hang urself from the ceiling. i would really understand. i would.

so please do not leave ppl, me in particular, hanging and waiting just like that. its a little bit irritating.

and this is sooooo gonna ruffle a few people's feathers but just stating my opinion. hope u (whoever you are) understand like how i understand ur subconcious need to leave ppl wondering and hanging in msn.

Sunday, October 28, 2007

The Time Dilation Law

I'm back. and i have decided to rise from the muck and mud to blog again. aren't you happy? i'm sure some of you are jumping up and down and planning for a parade. umm yay!?

anyways i have been away for yonk years hor? well there is nothing to blog about. or rather there is nothing that i would want to put on my blog. would you like to read about wat type bread i ate or wether i brush my teeth from right to left. well... one or two of you might but majority wouldn't. remember majority always win hor. well i have been thinking alot about the world and myself. and yes i know i laways think. thats just who i am. maybe i was meant to be a philosopher. but anyways i'm here to intro a new...ok not exactly new.. it has been in existance since the beggining of time so here it is......



THE TIME DILATION LAW

The Time Dialtion Law states: Whenever 2 or more people plan to meet up the very essence of time tends to get stretched or in other words. Dilated.


in laymans terms. people tend to be late wen they want to met up.

this is an interesting phenomenon that occurs everyday. but it occurs more wen there is a leisure meeting of frens compared to a work related one. also wen there is more than 2 people meeting the "time dilation" is worse.

for example; i plan to meet a certain person at 2pm. i will reach at 2pm but the other person will reach at like 4pm. (this is jsut an example. do not take it to heart.)

interesting no? how time get stretched? its fascinating. i should be nominated for a Nobel Prize for Physics.

of course being late is ok. like 10-15 mins late is ok. but making people wait for an hour is abit too much. i'm just saying coz i hate waiting.

so thus the creation of this law. so if u know u are going to be late please invoke this law. and people will know taht u will be super uber late. like for example.


Me: eh wat time u wanna meet?
You: meet at 3 lah. are u invoking the Time Dilation Law?
Me: Umm... ok yes i'm invoking the T.D Law....
You: Ok i'll take my time den.



See? like the other party will know that u are gonna be super uber late. and he/she/they will not be so angry at you wen u come really late. coz u have been fore warned! so feel free to use this law.

Note: the Time Dilation Law can only be used for times wen u are really really late. If ur like 5-10 mins late. just say ur late. Invoking the Time Dilation Law is only for wen u are SUPER UBER LATE! remember.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Hiatus... Still Ongoing

Its been a long time since i blogged. why? cause the spirit of blogging has left me. and there is nothing to blog about. oh well hiatus will continue till such time that i feel like ber-logging again

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

MAAD October

MAAD MAAD
MAaD mAaD
maad maad
MAAD MAAD
Market of Artist And Designers
come and visit MAAD this weekend
6th & 7th Oct 11am-7pm
@
The RedDot Design Museum
@
Tanjong Pagar Near Maxwell

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Ok I Lied....

Seems like there isn't much mood to blog nowadays. maybe wen i get my muse then i'll start blogging. in the meantime here's a song. yes a song. Its a really really good song.

Myriam Fares - I'm Gonna Give u Trouble.



Go Shake Ur Hips Or Sumthing.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Hi All

Haven't been blogging for abit eh?
Well i don't have much to blog about.
Anyways i resolved some "issues" and i am some sort at peace wit myself.
i am still only human. i have feeling too. cue dramatic shakespearean music. If u cut me. Do i not bleed?
aiyah. Maybe tonight i'll blog about why i hate buses and bus rides. that is, after Grey's Anatomy.

Friday, September 07, 2007

Christina Aguilera-Beautiful


Mariah Carey - Can't Take That Away



This post has no title.... Just want to give u 2 not 1 youtube videos today! these are song that i keep thinking in my head so i don't become suicidal... hahaha enjoy....

Monday, September 03, 2007

Maroon 5 - Wake Up Call

Totally Rocking this song... Maroon 5's first single the nonsense airport thign was nonsense.. but this one is rocking!!!!!




Fav Part of the Song:

Would have bled to make you happy
You didn't need to treat me that way

and

Don't you care about me anymore?
Don’t you care about me?
I don't think so

i wish i could just shoot some ppl haha....

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

I dunno How to Feel....

i dunno how to write this... i jsut need to get this off of my chest...

i have so much anger coursing thru my veins... now... i just feel like beating up something or someone... i wish, i really wish that i could hav someone to blame for the way i feel. but the sad thing is there is nobody to blame but me.

is it really anger? i dunno wat i'm feeling.... but i know it hurts so bad... my chest hurts.... ya my chest hurts....

i dunno how to be human.. wen u start caring for ppl it starts to hurt soo bad...

am i selfish? to want things or affection for myself? aren't you selfish too then? i dunno its all very confusing.

i feel like dying everynight. but then i wake up the next to continue my sad existence.

and if u ask me if i'm ok, i'll say i'm fine... ppl don't want to be sucked into ur sadness or depression. so no need to worry... i just wrote this to get it off my chest....

Monday, August 27, 2007

It Was My Birthday... My Fucking Stupid Birthday

Ok my Birthday came and went. see no earthquake or seas parting. Nothing special.
Thanks to those who remembered (the number of which i can count with my two hands. with a few fingers left over.)

This in the "Potential Break Up Song" By Aly and Aj. I just clicked this song randomly from Youtube. And wow i Love It!!!!! So catchy....



My Favourite part of the song.....

"It took too long for you to call back
And normally I would just forget that
Except for the fact it was my birthday
My stupid birthday"
A part of me just died wen my a part of my heart cracked.
Sometimes wat u expect isn't wat u get.
Happy Birthday to Me.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Love Story - Katherine McPhee

Ok... i have to admit Katherine McPhee is GORGEOUS!!! in this video... and i love the song, Love Song... hahaha... No i'm not in Love. I wish. But No.

Enjoy Kat McPhee in all her gorgeousness!!!!!!

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Thai Express!!!!! and poly frens!!!!!

Met up wit the Poly mates for dinner yesterday. Hahaha we've known each other for yonk years. like hmmm.... since 2002? ok maybe not yonk years but quite a long time i must say. and i love thai express. and now since i got an Orange Card. i love it even more hahaha.

Left to Right: Me of course, Baa baa, Ah Teng (who i've seen for the first time in a year), Ah Yi and Rachel.....

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Remember To Breathe From Your Hoo Hoo!!!!!

So i was awake at 2.30 in the morning. Lurking around YouTube and i found this video from Ellen Show.... Its hilarious and it made me smile!!!!!

So please remember to breathe from ur Hoo Hoo!!!! Gotta watch it.....



Longer Version With A Catchy Version at the End

Monday, August 20, 2007

Fashion Rant!!!!!!

Its time again my lovely readers for my Fashion Rant.... i love my rants!!!!!

So first order of the day....

Wat is up with some ladies these days? i cannot tahan the ladies who have their fringe straight and the hair on the back of their head is curly... i don't get it. wats with that? a perm gone wrong? i saw it on tv also today!!!! On i think it was Campus Superstar... they were singing a song about a telephone ringing and this girl in the middle had that half straight and half curly hair.. oh my god its look as though either she didn't have enuff money to fully perm her hair or she's just lazy to straighten her hair. but the singing was good though but not the hair.

ok next is boys.... Do not tie ur jacket or sweater around ur waist. that went out wif the early 90's. and it should stay that way. it seriously looks like a skirt from the back. sad. sad. sad.

ok here some for the boys. Its my top tips for Making UR self Look HOT...
This only works if u are Semi Hot or average looking... like not really skinny nor realt fat... average looking...

  1. Get a TAN. i mean seriously getting a tan makes u instantly hotter. it conjures up images of beaches and being half naked frolicking in the sand and surf. also it helps if ur already playing a sport in the sun. So boys get a tan. The whole havinga tan makes u look sporty is nonsense. having a tan means u like to take off ur clothes. seriously all of you are thinking that in the back of ur minds.
  2. Carry a LONG STICK object. Really carrying a long stick is HOT. its Looong and its a stick. it metaphorical and full of sexual connotations. Best if u carried a Paddle or a FloorBall Stick. If not a black umbrella looks kool too.
  3. Wear BERMS. Show some calves. Doesn't matter if ur smooth or hairy as long as u show some skin down there. automatic HOT. or at least hotter. Its like how women wear plunging necklines to show some skin? yeah Berms do the same thing. Better yet, wear short to look as though u just got back from training at the stadium or paddling. Why do u think those dragonboaters wear their short and tanks after training? wen they could so wear something else. u might think its just to wear to go home but nah where got. How often u see them on the way home. usually its to go eat or to walk walk in vivo. i rest my case.
  4. POSTURE. this is very important. ur teachers told u it s important. ur parents told u its important. and now I AM telling you its important. Stand up straight!!!! Chest slighty out. if u have a tummy suck it in. Walk like u own the road and walk with dinity and pride. Pretend ur the Queen. Regal is the word.
  5. EXERCISE. I mean really. Half of being hot is actually having a decent body. I'm not saying u become those Gymfreaks. ewww no. just jog twice a week taht kind of exercise. Keep HEALTHY not obsess about ur bodies. but i'm sure taht some in fact most of you are already comparing the size of ur arms or wether u can count ur abs. oh well. As long as the goods show.

Does anybody realise that if u actually did wat i told you to do, u would actually look like a dragonboater? And everybody know Dragonboaters are HOT!!! Everybody wants one and every guy wants to be one. Water Polo and Swimmers are out. Dragonboaters are in. SO boys. GO join a team today!!!!

I can't believe i just asked ppl to go join a dragon boat team.... Shudders.....

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Sunday Is Gloomy.....

Wat a day today is eh? It was raining all day... at least here in the North East... Rain rain rain.. i like rain... Means u can stay home and realx and cuddle... except i have nobody to cuddle with.. Blargh...

Instead i made jewelry!!! Yayness!!!

I made a 3 strand floating necklace with Amethyst Chip beads and Nylon..... and... a Green mixed bead princess length necklace. and i also made a double loop amethyst bracelet... den i stopped coz i ran out of crimping beads... haha...

i also made a card using Ginko Leaves.. its Gorgeous....

Den i fell asleep in the afternoonand woke up for dinner... i feel happy now.... that i did alot of things today... pics of my necklaces coming soon....

Wat Irony.....

Ok i went to the Signapore River Markets at the ArtHouse (which was the old Parliment House) today...BY MYSELF....

and later on i was saved by Ehrman who i met for dinner and kai kai for awhile after that. Even though he was aching all over due the fact that he had a killer gym session the day before. Thanks Ehrman!

Anyways i shall busy myself coz i hate to feel left out from this "Busy-ness Wave" that is washing over everybody. So I have started new projects! Mainly for MaaD!! Coz i have to prepare mah.

So i shall be very busy over the next 2 weeks. But not that busy. Haha. Laters.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Things i Wanna Do!

Lets see i have a list of things i wanna do:

  1. Go to Singapore Art Museum. Got the Singapore Art Show i wanna go see.
  2. Go to Singapore River Markets. which is this weekend.
  3. Go cut my hair. its getting abit einstein.
  4. Go Botanic Gardens. Just coz i have not been there in awhile.
  5. Go watch a movie. I just feel like watching a movie.

Ahah 5 things i feel like doing this week. with the exception of cutting hair. all the rest needs people. well i could do it alone but then thats no fun. haiz. most probably not doing these things anyways. everyone is soooo busy.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Time For mAaD Yet Again!


Ok since no one is there to entertain me i have to entertain myself. haha. so i have to get off my ass to do stuff for MAAD. Yes half of August has passed and left 2 more weeks. So i have concocted new stuff for MAAD.

My Work Space. Ya Its Messy.

People have said that why do MaAd wen u it was kinda of a flop the last time. Well to me MaaD is about having fun and meeting new people. Not really about making money although it would be nice to actually make money .. haha.. anyways work has gotten underway! i shall try REALLY hard to make myself busy. hee hee.

Off i shall go to prepare for MAaD September!!!

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Busy Busy Little Bees

Busy Busy Little Bees! Buzzing Around Here and There. Busy Working. Buzz Buzz.

Its seems my dears that EVERYONE and i mean EVERYONE is sooo fucking busy now. Oooohh... i'm talking about my frens lah.... but they will be too busy to read this anyways.

First are the skooling people. WEll u know Uni has started and well everyone who is anyone studying is busy with skool. New projects and assignments. New frens to make. New boys/girls to chase. New people to f*ck. Oh old lecture mates to catch up with. So on and so forth u catch my drift. Thus skool in effect makes u a very busy person indeed.

Second are the working people. Oh working people are busy indeed. Most of them work normal office hours, some do not. but still all are working their ass off. For money if nothing else. People rarely work for passion or interest. but anyway bottom line is that people are working and working hard.

Third are the Army People. God knows if they are busy or not. but the point is that they are stuck in camp. With no internet access thus no msn.

All these people compared to me. A dude who has all the free time in the world. i'm not skooling at the moment and i work but part time. and i'm not in the army. i am FUCKING free. except that i have not much money to spend but other than that Fucking free! But wats the use of being Farking free if u got nobody to spend that FARKING FREE time wit?

Thus the usual suspects who i talk to on msn are not online coz they are busy or in camp or working. and nobody to go out with. thus my life has become a boring mundane mess.

BORING BORING MESS. Wake up. Eat Breakfast.Read Paper.Watch TV.Go to Work. Come Back.Eat.Go Online HOPING people come online to talk to. Sleep.

And the cycle continues. Goddamn it. Its seriously killing me slowly.

Monday, August 13, 2007

Neglect

Oh dear blog... i have been neglecting you...

there is nothing to blog about these days.. lifes been stagnating abit... after Maad i've been thinking about life alot... and i realised that well my life is not as wat i hoped it to be...

yeah yeah i know, some of you might say that life is wat u make of it and u are responsible for ur own life but sometimes it just seems hopeless.... constanntly in this cycle or mundane life with nobody to share it wif. all the happy bits and all the sad bits. always alone. yes of course i have frens but they can only take so much of my whining. i don't want to bother them so much with it. they get tired of it coz its always the same story. hahaha... i'll promise to be happier wen we meet up.

oh well life's been pretty mundane and boring. with work and all. so nothing to blog about so yeah.

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

My Daemon

Monday, August 06, 2007

Of Birthdays

Many moons have passed since the beginning of the year... and now its august... which means my birthday is coming... well this is not a post about my birthday wishlist.... i've never made a big hoohah about my birthday anyways.... didn't even have a 21st party... pathetic rite? anyways.....

your birthday is the day u were born on.. it is ur special day. and u want it to be special rite? i find it weird that wen the birthday person in question will organise their own birthday celebration... its not wrong... jsut that for me its weird... its ur special day... u would wanna be pampered wouldn't you?

maybe its just me and my delusional thoughts of having people pamper me and suprise me on my birthday.. i might be watching too much tv... that and i need to be in a relationship for that to happen...

well maybe this is a birthday wishlist post...

my wish for my birthday is for people to actually care... thats a simple wish isn't it?

but nah... my birthday shall pass without any incident and the world shall move on...

Maar Dala

Maar dala is hindi for It Killed Me/i will die.... It being the happiness she gets from being in love.... ok i need to give u a little intro first....


This song is from the movie Devdas.... it tell of a love triangle between this man who si called Devdas. Devdas likes this girl, his childhood sweetheart, called Paro... but due to some unforseen family problems Paro cannot marry Devdas... so sad.. but anyways this song is concerned about the other lady... Chandramukhi...


Chandramukhi is a courtesan who fall madly in love with Devdas.. but due to his love for Paro he does not even look or care about her... but still Chandramukhi stays true to him and helps him and cares about him even though he does NOT care about her at all...

so she is really happy wen he comes to see her at her "brothel" to watch er dance... she's so happy she could die... sometimes even the slightest bit of attention from the ones u like can get u really happy....






it kinda reflects my life.... which i am cought in this endless cycle of liking ppl who do not care a shits ass about me.... but i still care about them and show my concern towards them.. but they don't care...

ah a vicious cycle eh.... anyways enjoy the song eh.... it has english translations so don't worry....

Sunday, August 05, 2007

MaAd is Done!!!!! For now!

MaaD is done
and i had fun
wat a time to play


i fell sick
didn't sell my sticks
hey there's still another day


new frens made
and that was great
see u next month perhaps!


wah i finished August mAaD.... quite tiring.. which is alost due to the fact that i was sick.... it was fun lah... thanks for those who thought my drawings were kool and my anecdotes on life were funny.. and thanks for those who laughed at my stories!

i have to admit compared to the other ppl in maad i seem very low tech. and well... i am low tech.. i'm a low tech artist! wakakaka....but yeah thanks for those who came to show support! see ya'll next month!

and those of u who missed me at maad... oh well try to come next month k?

Saturday, August 04, 2007

I'm Abit Lost

i fell sick on the first day of MAAD... how can rite? is it the stress? or maybe i just got the bug from my mom...

anyways i did MAAD... yay!!! i must say it is fun... but iwas abit bummed that people don't like my work... isn't it frustrating to put in soo much effort in ur work and people just glance over it... hmm maybe i must be thankful that they did not give bad remarks or anything.. at least those i didn't hear...

I LOVE MAAD.... the atmosphere and the people is all lovely... but this experience has lead me to wonder wat really is my purpose in life... i like being an artist and exploring my artistic side... but somehow i feel that this is not my calling and this is not wat i was meant to do....

something was amiss.. somehow missing... i did not feel complete and entirely happy... maybe one of the reasons being that i'm bummed that people did not see my effort... oh well wat can i say... art is subjective....

i see doors open for people in their field of interest and their passion... somehow i don't see that happening for me... am i doing the wrong thing? i am passionate about plants and the environment... i love plants... i love design and fashion aswell... but nothing's come up for me... not yet anyways so here i am in limbo....

maybe i should go with the flow?
i need an entire serious rethinking of my life....
seriously....
i feel so lost....

Friday, August 03, 2007

Its hard to find someone ur comfortable enuff to talk to
Its harder to find someone who would truly really listens to you
Its close to impossible to find someone who understands

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Things i Love and This That Irritate ME!!!!!!!

ho ho... i guess i'm back eh darlings? i feel the sudden urge to blog after reading a certain actor's blog, which shall be elaborated on later on in the post.. so anyways i shall list down, as i always do, the things that are taking my fancy nowadays.... so here goes....
  • since me and family have gotten back from Australia. we have a sudden surge of lovely delicious Chocaltey goodness... the things is we buy and buy all these chocs and nobody eats it except me. so it struck one rainy day to pile up a few blocks of chocolates and put in the microwave and Voila!! u get gooey and mushy and warm chocolatey goodness... seriously addictive melted chocolate is... cannot tahan.... but i'm doing my family a great cause coz i am finishing up the chocolate!!! wakakaka!!!
  • MaAd!!!!!! i sooo excited!!! and fearful of going for MAaD.... wat have i gotten myself into.. of course i've been to MaaD but as a consumer and visitor not actually taking part in MAaD it self.... now i worry that i don't have enuff stuff to sell and my stuff is crappy... haiz.... unknown territory eh? we shall see next month....

ok only 2 things taht i dare post in public.. the rest shall be my guilty pleasure.. tee hee hee.. but lets move on the fuck things taht irritate me...

  • pretty boyS... note the use of the plural instead of the singular. i can stand one pretty boy but i cannot for the love of god! stand a whole bunch of them. especially wen they get together and pose for pics in blogs (yeah the current sentiment is coz i read this actors blogs wit all his pretty boi frens) i HAVE NOTHING AGAINST U PEOPLE BUT ur pretty boi-ness makes me feel insecure and un hot about myself... haiz.. the perils of genetics... i'm sure ur are all nice people...
  • oh my god... this really irritates me... good looking and cute guys who say they are not cute... so irritating.... if ur cute just say so.. don't have to pretend ur not and invade my territory of uncuteness.. sheesh...
  • the Taleban and all those islamic "freedom" fighters... like please come on get a real job... wat they are doing is only destroying innocent lives and creating more trouble.. aren't we supposed to be humans and are more evolved but all we do is fight fight fight.. cannot reason out like proper people? wat happened to basic human decency? and basic compassion for other living beings? u think ur life is ruined wat about those people who have no food to eat? have no homes and have no families because of the fight for Islam? i'm ashamed to be associated wif such people. enuff is enuff.

ok i went a little political on the lsat point but people wake up! lives are lost and families are broken... we have to realise that...

ok thus ends my blog post for today... hope i gave you something to think about...

You Are Storm
Exotic and powerful, Storm descended from a line of African priestesses.Emotions can effect your powers, but you are generally serene.
Powers: controlling weather, creating winds that lift you into flight, generating lightning
Which of the X-Men Are You?
Your Power Color Is Lime Green
At Your Highest:
You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary.
At Your Lowest:
You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in.
In Love:
You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated.
How You're Attractive:
Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room.
Your Eternal Question:
"What else do I need in my life?"

Hi People!

Ok this is the longest i have gone without blogging. more than a week can u believe it?!? Apparently most of u can coz well nobody reads this... ok fine very little read this...

Anyways, have been real busy of late. And for a Bum like me thats saying alot. Lets see wat have been going with me....
  • Last Thurs went out to watch Asian Boys Vol 3: Happy Endings wit Juns and Ehrman (Emphasis on the E and roll the R). Loved it! My first play. Play Virgin no more... imagine to have been deflowered by Asian Boys... Not just a boy but boys!! wakakaka... The play made me laugh and almost cry (almost coz just wen i wanted to cry, the scene will move on.. sheesh)... and it made me oooooohhh and ahah! alot too.
  • Den i got accepted into mAaD! Market For Artist And Designers!!! Yay! Thats the mai reason i have been busy. coz now that i have been accepted, i have to actually get off my butt and do my stuff. so i have been busy weaving and drawing.... spraying and shopping... so exciting rite? any ways do come and visit me on 4th and 5th August @ Red Dot Design Museum. i'll be there all day.. ok not all day but untill 8pm. http://www.maad.sg/ its near Tanjong PAgar MRT... Come to MaAd and be mAaD!!!!

another reason that i have not been blogging much the fact taht there is nothing much to blog about. of course there are things that i would love th blog about but then the respective parties might not want it to be published on the WWW. so yeah. i have to tell you the life of a Bum can be very boring. but anyways i shall get my creative juices flowing and give you a post tonight ok? till den... toodles....