i think too much... i really do.. i try to figure out the meaning of life and more often than not, its not very pretty... life really is sucky and i really do not understand how people can be sooo optimistic about it... i really don't there isn't much to be optimistic about...
i mean not everything about life is bad but i guess we can't be happy all the time...
i guess the Buddhist teachings that the world is full of suffering is true... the world is really full of suffering and pain... people just don't want to face the true fact of it... instead choosing to live in the World of Maya, the world of illusion, and pretend to be happy wen more pften than not, they are not really happy...
The first thing i realised today is....
if u want to know how much u are worth to ur frens, just wait till ur birthday. i mean its true. if nobody bothers or remembers about it then u hav a problem.... coz if people take the extra time and effort to organize a birthday bash or go out of their way to get u something special den u know u are loved and cared for... if not den u know ur worth... i should know.... yeah it hurts...
Second thing i realised today....
how much u are liked very much depends on how u look. it doesn't matter if u are super kind and caring or freaking genius.... if u don't look good ppl won't really remember you or just remember you as being nice or funny... oh yeah some of you might disagree and this point might not really be 100% true but this is how i see it... thru my eyes.... freaks or popular ones? i'm sure most of u habour the secret desire of being the popular ones....
yes yes... i'm still bitter about my 22nd birthday... i mean the people who i tot were close to me didn't even remember my birthday... ur amazed at where you stand wen u get experience such things..
oh wells.... people hurt others without even knowing it... i'm guilty of that too... karma i guess...too much rain bogging my head.... and slowly my heart turns to stone.....
onto happier things....
Kool book... LOVES LOVES!!!!!
Eaten By Bugs... How fitting Of a Botany Text...Went to second hand bookstore at Bras Basah... i loves that shop.. so many treasures taht you can find there if ur willing to look.... and see wat i found!!! an old Botany text.... and the reason i loves it so is that it was eaten by bugs! So kool la! w00t w00t! i loved it so wen i first saw it had to buy it... cost me 6 bucks wor! steal hor!
Anyways Monday was spent walking in the rain and getting toes wet... didn't really enjoy it for some reasons that shall not be mentioned here but oh wells...
Another gloomy wet tuesday awaits....
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