Sunday, October 30, 2005


i have been deep in thought for the past few days.... i have come to the realisation that you can't cry over things that u don't have... also it is best to let go but u can't help urself sometimes to cling on to the hope that it might just work. can you? ah well such is life and the things that it throw at you... puzzled at what i'm talking bout.. well read between that lines dearies.... its such sadness.....

a wise monk on tv told me this.....

We Cannot Concern Ourselves With What Was,
We Must Concentrate With What Is....
on a brighter note..
i got my hair cut and the barber lady said my hair was funny... apparently my hair has moulded itself into a permanent mohawk ala Mr Beckham's fin... its like permanent... not that i'm complaining... it just that its a very weird thing to have ur hair in a permanent position... but still not complaining...
oh well Hari Raya is coming ! Whoop Dee Doo!... ermmm... i think thats all for this blog post... silly isn't it? toodles then taa taa cheerio!

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Gloomy Sunday Madness...!!

oh i think i have gone crazy... as of this moment i have 4 different versions of Gloomy Sunday by 4 different ppl... its a bit obsessive dontcha think? but its such a pretty pretty song... worry not i won't be attempting any thing for now... so far i find the diamanda galas version more catchy-popish.... abit more upbeat... lets see if i can find more versions of Gloomy Soonday.......

Friday, October 21, 2005

Its So Depressing.......

One of my dear frens (oh u noe who u are) introduced this song to me... Gloomy Sunday... oh how true it is... its very gloomy in a beautiful way... so sad and depressing... confirm to make u depressed, chop with gurantee.... or at least make u feel abit sad... its abeautiful song... just don't kill urself over it... warning! not for ppl wit suicidal tendencies....

the sarah mclachaln version has a nicer melody and tune but u noe how Ms Mclachlan sings.. u can't really hear the words... so do try to hear the sarah brightman version... she has better diction...

and so alas after hearing Gloomy Sunday for a few times.. now i shall burn some candles and sit in the dark and think depressive thoughts.. maybe i'll paint my nails black... so depressing....

Saturday, October 15, 2005

I'm Mourning....

My T.exserta just died.... and i fear for my T. festucoides & My T. ionantha... My T. streptophylla isn't looking too good either... if u already haven't guessed yet.. i'm talking bout my airplants.. it feels fucked up that one of my plants died and i hate it.. espcially those i had for along time... just last week, one of my jewel orchids has rotted away into oblivion... my Alocasia is looking abit pale and my Bodhi tree is saggy... how? how? how?... why oh why am i thrown into this botanical dilemma?!!? is it coz i am not home for the most part of the week to really look at my plants..? Do they miss me? sure my mom takes care of my plants but i don't think she really goes and scrutinize each and every plant like i would.... its very saddening... or maybe its coz of all the natural disasters that are going on and its screwing up the balance of nature? oh sadness.....

i shall paint my nails black and wear a veil.... and weep....

Quizzes!!! QUizzes!! Quizzez!!!!!

Girl Name: Czarina Batty

Guy Name:Father Vlad

*You have a heart
of solid coal*

You wish that you could
change your ways, even though you have done
nearly everything right. You try to hard to be
accepted by others.

What Is Your Goth Name?
brought to you by The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was arrogant, acting like the dictator of your life.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You're beautiful in so many different ways, but
your problem is that you don't realize it.
You're constantly putting yourself down and
don't really even listen to others when they
insistenly point out your good characteristics
to you. Listen to them next time, learn
something about yourself!

What Makes You Beautiful?
brought to you by How You Are In Love
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish.
You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
How Are You In Love?

Saturday, October 08, 2005


The Gayatri mantra is one of the oldest mantras knwon to man... and its simply meaningful and hauntingly hypnotic.... especially the Deva Premal version... i like to listen to it just to wind down at night....

Om Bhur Bhuvah Svah
Tat Savitur Varenyam
Bhargo Devasya Di Mahi
Dhi Yona Prachodayat
Throughout all of existence
"That" essential nature
illuminating existence is the
Adorable One.
May all beings perceive with subtle intellect
the magnificent brilliance of enlightened awareness.
Taken From: Shanti Mayi which i feel has the nicest translation of it...

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Perfect Imperfection....

everything in this world, in this universe is connected.... it is held in perfect balance... the right amount of stars and planets. to the right amount water and soil.. everything is in perfect equilibrium... itsn't in wonderful? life itself is a perfect balance, a perfect union of two souls to create another being.. i dunno i had this enlightening moment while i was on the bus today... but its really true that everything is balanced... light and dark, good and evil.. blah blah the list goes on and on....