Change

its tuesday again my frens. i'm still slightly sick. i might even have pneumonia! yes sadly taht thought flashed across my mind as i was having stabbing chest pains while walking back home from skool in the morning. and speaking of walking and skool. on my way to skool yesterday evening i met no less my frens, no less than 7 people. 7 people!! luckily i left early for class. anyho and ha. pretty picture time.

pretty rainbow that visits me every morning on my wall. so purty.

anyways watching Sex and the City always gets me in the mood to blog and to blog ala Carrie. which is to say lets jsut blog about things that ppl don't really talk about. u know singaporeans are such an uptight wound up bunch. so lets throw caution to the wind and my fingers and my heart do the talking.

i've been thinking about when our frens, our close frens get attached, do they change? or it is us, the single ppl that change?

i've been thru this alot. when ur frens get attached to someone some how i feel, personally that i've been kicked aside. the person whom u spent a considerable amount of time wit hanging out talking or wateva suddenly has no time for you anymore. thats all fair. i understand it completely. its love, who am i to get in the way. well just coz i understand it doesn't mean i can't feel abit hurt and dumped. it is safe to say that for one relationship to start, another has to somehow end or change?

its nice that people get together and i wish all of you well. but its human nature to get jealous and defensive. we might not want to admit it but to some extent, deep down inside the recesses of our hearts, we do. especially when ur a single 20 sumthing relationship virgin. ah yes it sad. now stop giving me that look. so we start to dislike (i wun use the word hate) the bf/gf, we give fake smiles when we hear about the awesome time u had at sumwhere sumwhere and how funny he/she is. not that i don't wanna hear about it but not too much. one can only take so much love talk.

maybe its all entirely me. feeling resentful to not be in a relationship but instead watching countless others unfold and end, right before my every eyes. its like looking into a garden but i'm being locked out. i need to find my key. and everybody keeps saying u'll find someone soon. i'm so over that phrase lol.

but back to my point or question or watever. which was do the ones getting attached change? well they most definitely do. u become ur partner, taking up their habits and nuances. u behave and talk like them and dress similiar to them. sometimes annoyingly so. and us the single people change as well. we change to accomodate the new dynamics of the relationship we once had wit you because if we don't change and adapt, we get left behind (thats from Greys i think).

its interesting once u think about it. most people don't. most people have a life. and i'm not most people. lol. but yeah part and parcel of life i guess. well since i dun have anyone to share my life with, i choose instead to share my life with shopping!

this week i didn't go to Paddington. thank god. if i did i would have spent alot of money again. but instead i went to the WestEnd Markets and still manage to pick up some vintage finds. so *drumrolls* introducing my collection of stuff to add to my already bulging collection of stuff.

a cute hand mirror, apparently from an old lady estate sale. which means she's dead. which is kool. most vintage stuff are from dead ppl. i don't think its weird. its like inheriting ur great grandmas diamond ring or sumthing. just that in this case. i dun know the person lol. and a feather brooch which i assume came from another lil old lady. i think it great that i have in my posession the mirror. its so sweet and pretty. at least another generation will cherish it as much she had i would imagine.

on a side note: some chick said that my man satchel (the big folder bag thing, see pastpost) looked hot. so by default i look hot? lol :)

so that sums up my weekly tuesday post. really wanna oppt shop shopping. maybe Annerly or somewhere? any takers? lol till next time. see ya.

Tell me why....

it all started last night and it hit me like a ton of bricks or rather more like being hit by a train. i suddenly came down with the flu. its jsut came all snot and mucus and stuff. it was terrible. dripping dripping dripping down my face. and the sneezing. and the general feeling of crap. i took a pill but to no avail. i dunno how i manage to go to sleep but i guess it was the piriton pill lol.

BEING SICK SUCKS.

especially when ur all alone in a foreign land. and by urself with nobody to take care of you. oh the perils of my life :P and i woke up this morning feelign shittier than i did last night. great!!! and a looked like i was run over by a train. it was worse than having a hangover. how can rite? one of the tubes in my throat was bone dry and no amount of water drinking could reach it. and my head felt so full of fucking mucus that i sure it would explode in a gooey mess. after a few more pills and copious amounts of water later, we've reached this point. blasting Kylie's can't Get You Out Of My Head. the mucus that is. still stuffed but feeling slightly better.

but the qn i wanted to ask is.. does being sick make u eat more?

i've went thru, in no particular order:

1. a slice of carrot cake wit icing
2. a steak with grilled mushrooms and tomatoes
3. 5 rice crispies
4. a cup of yogurt
5. a slice of banana & pineapple cake with cream
6. beef soup wit frozen veges and noodles
7. a plum
8. a springroll
9. coffee
10. 2 cups of green tea
11. a cup of chamomile tea
12. a couple of squares of chocolate.
13. lots of water

all within a span of 8 hours. that alot for me actually. i dunno why i ate so much. is it coz my body was fighting the flu? and it needed energy to fight fight fight? its amazing. i fear for my waistline. i haven't been doing any excercise coz i hurt my shoulder and the rain jsut fucks everything up and now the flu. dammit.

its like life is soooo opposed to me excercising. it always happens. when i want to run or do some workout. i will get sick or injure myself or be suddenly finding myself really busy. is it really life thats against me trying to keep fit? or is it just my mind that subconciously against it and manifesting in terms of sickness but i'm not acually sick. ahah. but this time i am really sick. and the rain is really beyond my control. so i guess this time i would have to go wit the universe that is against me doing anything that would keep me fit.

oh the throat is hurting again.

but i hunger. i hunger godammit. i am not full!!!!!!! this is a very strange blog post. truly it is. its the flu talking i guess and the medication. ok i shall be off. and go find soem food.

*food monsters stomps off*

La Petit Mort

well its monday today. and tuesdays weekly blog post has moved to...well... monday... coz today is Easter Monday and i have no class and its a public holiday. whooppppeeee!! as if that mattered to me :P

oh guess wat my dear reader, its raining again in brissy. NO SHITTE. i woke up today to the gentle pitter patter of raindrops on my face. yes the window was open and yes it was raining that heavily. its been raining ever since with the same intensity for 2 hours now. i wonder if somewhere in the suburbs some man named Noah is building an ark. dammit. i can't get on the ark. u have to go 2 by 2 u know. blah. singledom.

oh gosh i need chocolate. its Easter!

strange purple building in the gabba + papa alden

ok so i'm back from a chocolate break. the rain is making like i said before many kinds of hungry and its also making me sleep like Sleeping Beauty. srsrly i could go on sleeping for 12hr straight coz its so nice just to cuddle in bed in the cool cool night and morning under the doona. although it would be better if there was someone there to cuddle with but i have to make do wit wat i have. lol. terrible this rain. can't get any work done.

i really should stop shopping, i should. but i can't help it. its just too good a bargain to pass up. especially when it comes to shopping at Paddy. i'm terrible. but in defense of myself and to validate my shopping, i have one thing to say. i didn't spend that much money. yeah i bought alot of things but it didn't exactly burned a great big hole in my wallet. so i shall have to restrain myself. just have too. but anyways this weeks buys from paddy!!

a man satchel for skool & another pair of vintage shorts zomg!

a leather belt & a faux fur scarf just coz i think its fun.lol.


and best buy!!! a leather wallet for 5 bucks!!! looks brand new and in good condition.

see so cheap rite? i love Paddington. love love love to death. i guess i should go to Paddy more and enjoy it while it lasts, since i only have around 3 months left an most prolly not coming back here for long time. yeah excuses excuses. but its Paddington!! oh my god. i'm in love.

so anyways i'm sure some of you are wondering wat does the title of my blog post means. well. go google it. but i know some of you are such lazy buggers so i'll give u a wiki link. i won't ruin the suprise for you. CLICK HERE. i love it how the french come out with such expressions. like menage a trois or c'est la vie. or even carpe diem. oh wait. thats latin. but ah the french so romantic & poetic.

as much as the rain is good for sleeping and stuff like that. my nose gets runny everytime the weather gets cold. ok not just the normal cold. its the rainy wet kinda cold. that terrible isn't it. there isn't anything pressing to blog or anything interesting to say. its been laa dee daa so far and lazy coz of the rain. i need me some action. lol

till next time. see ya!

Good Friday

so today is Good Friday. which in Australia means nothing is open and nobody works. period. so everybody is forced to be stuck at home and basically do nothing. thank god today was a rainy day. i woke up after a massive night which ended early. so i dunno it is considered massive or not since it ended early. but anyways..... woke up at 2pm in the afternoon and spent the whole day till now, watching Sex and the City. how exciting.

which made me realise a few things. such as how much i like the sound of my fingers on a keyboard. the click clack of the keys as i type sumthing out. and to that extent the written word, or in this case the typed word. its just very calming and peaceful to write and make sentences in my head. in the sumwhat silence of my own room.

its wonderful. i'm feelign very Carrie bradshaw now. sorry i tend to be carried away in the shows that i watch. at one time i was feeling all Gilmore Girls, all giggly and witty and talkign really fast. but that didn't appeal to the masses. boo!

actually i dun know why i'm blogging, just for the fact that i wanted to hear the click clack of the keys as i type them out. but i had soem fantabulous ideas taht i wanted to type out lol. well maybe after i toy wit them after a few days. its like wine and men. its get better with age ;)

so anyways this blog post has no purpose watsoever besides the fact that! i just had to write sumthing. and sumthing i did write. lol. ok fien lets make it have a purpose. lets see. let throw caution to the wind.

ok actually the inspirration has left me lol. till next time then hhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Rain toooo Much Rain....

its been rainy here in Brissy.... its been raining for a week or so, i think maybe more... everyday.... like its just raining... too much way too much... i mean rain is good dun get me wrong...

good kind of Rain =P

but its just waaaay too much rain... its just damp and bogged down... and muddy...and wet... and rain makes me all kinds of hungry! not good... although its really good for sleeping. but.BUT i've been taking so many naps and sleep for so many hours that its screwing up my body clock. ok i lie. its not but i've been sleeping to much. waaaay to much. i can't even do that much laundry coz everything is gonna smell kinda damp. bleargh. is this how living in London is like?

anyways
the rainy weather is conducive for thinking. and i've been thinking alot as i often am prone to do. and had many an ahah! moment. you know the moments where u go ahah! and a little lightbulb lights up in ur head. well yeah i had a few of those.

but i guess what i've been thinking about most is the way i react to certain topics taht are sorta sensitive to me. yeah that. i know whenever it/they come up i totally get myself into a corner and shoot myself with a shotgun. its not good and always makes it weird and there is sort of always an awkward silence. and i get slightly upset about it. gotta change that. i have to be more concious about it. i know i'm worth it and i'm fine and all that but maybe i need support? encouragement? hah even maybe pity? maybe i just need some love =(

see what i'm doing? lol aaaaarrrrggghhhh.... need to change, need to change... slowly but surely. haiz. have to change! nobody wants a low self esteem, self depreciating whiner. even if i'm not thats what people see and its not good not good.

GOOD VIBES KOOKY, GOOD VIBES.

in the spirit of good vibes, i did some retail therapy. at my favourite shopping place as of now lol. Paddington! whoop dee doo. actually i just like a few of the shops there coz they have a good range of vintage and 2nd hand shops there. all conviniently place along one street. and i only have 3 months left here!! lol. so recent purchases!

top row: blue/grey vintage shorts and i mean shorts. lol. the pocket detail that i really liked.
bottom row: plain red checkered shirt (smells musty, needs to be washed). and the best one of all, mint condition vinyl mens zori for only $5!!!! yeah bebe.

anyways i'm loving Paddington and vintage/thrift store shopping. u spend very little and u get alot of stuff. like feels very good. lol. and its nice stuff. unlike singapore which always wants new new new. sometimes old can be good too. thus the lack of affordable vintage shops in SG. its just too way over priced sometimes.

anyways that ends my week tuesday blog post. its beggining to sound like a week column. oh how Carrie Bradshaw of me lol. i should blog more. till next time! sees ya.

He Pulled me In i Was Disgusted With Myself.....

Damn that Katy perry song.... i guess it strikes a chord with everyone wether or not u've been in a relationship or not. u must have liked someone and sort of keeps thinking and regretting taht u let them go or didn't tell them that u liked them sorta thing. nice song.

anyways i realised that for the pst few posts or so its been very dull coz got no peektures. so i will give u some pictures! lalalalala here goes!

so this my frens is a shot of old books. yes old journals to be exact and the Uni of Qld library has tons of these just lying about on the shelves.the oldest i found was dated 1852. like super old rite? and they are just lying around and nobody reads them anymore just crumbling away. and they are not even conserved or anything. these are very old things! and nobody really cares! lol

and i was walkign to skool as i often do. and this girl caught my attention. look at her "backpack". its actually a slingbag that she has cleverly strung up wit the strap and made it into a back pack. clever innit? so kool.

ok so i could tell you whats been going but the same thing has been going on so i see no point in blogging about it. but i can tell u about this magical place called Paddington.its a suburb just beside Milton in Brisbane and its magical. truly it is magical. it has so many kool shops. has Retro Metro which is zomg so magical. i wasn't a big fan of vintage wear but now i'm converted. CONVERTED i tell you. oh and there was Endos this thrift store which has 5 rooms of magic vintage clothes, homewear, old books and accesories. went wit JX and Bryan on sat afternoon. not much time coz Paddington needs to be explored for one whole day!! i tell you one whole day!!!

didn't take much pictures coz we were too busy criss crossing the road and trying not to get hit by the cars and exploring the shops. too kool la that place. burned alot of cash but considering i got 3 items of clothing for around 50 bucks i would consider taht a bargain. and its vintage!! look look.

Left: some long sleeve shirt thing which i assume is from the 70s. it has that old smell. needs to wash it. Right: purple vest from the 70s aswell. gorgeousness.

Left: checkered? blue/green/purple vest from 80s with gold buttons. tree brooch blogger's own. Right: not from Paddos but from WestEnd. i figured its vintage too, so why not include it in here.

so theres my shopping trip to Paddington. not to be confused wtih Paddington in London or Paddington in Sydney. or even Paddington the bear. Paddington, Brisbane is the SHITZ. wow. amazing. on after thought the vest should look better with a body in them aye. well not my body lol. but nvm.

well my frens thats about it. i think i should excercise more before winter comes and it will be too cold to run or sumthing. but i'm just a lazy asshole. lol ok we'll see. taa...

No, No, No....

Currently listening to Amy Winehouse's Rehab. that song is so catchy.

so tues again. well i guess taht tues is the only day i really decided for myself that i will not do anything. lol. yes a day of rest and doing nothing productive. coz the rest of the week i'll be trying to do my work or going out or stuff like that. and yes i pondered this last post but i was thinking about it again jsut now.

so in riveting news. i realised that my keyboard is oily. and sticky. i guess its time for me to clean it. and no don't think naughty things. its just coz i like to eat and use my computer at the same time. and my grubby fingers although as much as i use a tissue to wipe my hands, still touch the keyboard. lol. so i'll clean it later. after this post. riveting isn't.

well i've been really out of touch for the past week. i dunno why. its like i've been feeling blah the whole week. i need to focus and i need a reason to go on? i'm not suicidal but u get what i mean. i need that drive to do work and live. haiz i dunno. it seems gone. i was so pysched about it then somehow its gone. poof jsut like that.

i think not having internet didn't help. like the modem died and we didn't have internet for like 3 to 4 days. it was terrible. felt terribly cut off from the rest of the world. well thats fixed now lol.

oh i went for my tarot card reading the other day wit the old lady at West End. and voila lo and behold she said i need to focus in my life to attain my goals. which is represented by the Star card. there was some things about rebirth and new beginnings which is true coz its the new semester which was in the fool and death cards. and there was a moon card which represents someone hiding the truth from me. which i think i know who that is. interesting this reading coz it reflected wat i was feeling at the moment. i like this old tarot lady wit her purple and maroon curtains, her crystals and her old deck of cards. compared to the other tarot card readers which talk about angels and light and white curtains. pish posh. the future is unknown and mysterious. not all fluffy white angels.

well life so far in good ole brissy is fine i guess. its simple. but i dunno. seems different. i wasn't meant to come back. maybe i'm testing fate? who knew. or knows.

I realised sumthing

i realised for the past few weeks i have been blogging on a tues. how interesting. maybe coz i dun blog on a monday coz i'm in skool on monday. and i dun blog on the weekends coz i'm out and about and rushing reports and presentations that are due on monday. and the rest of the days of the week i can't be bothered about. coz i'm just lying in bed and watching Gilmore Girls. yes that my week for ya.

i need to do sumthing about it.

well anyho. i spent 12hours in skool yesterday. how crazy. yes very crazy. didn't get much sleep in sunday night coz iwas preparing for a presenation on monday but in the end didn't get to present it after all coz FREAKING PPL TALK TO MUCH AND GO OVER THE 15MINS ALLOCATED FOR THEM. so freakign annoying. so yes i prepared for a presentation that i didn't get to do. but later on in the day had to do a presentation that i wasn't prepared for at all. it was terrrible. WTF. srsly WTF.

so i decided to walk home in the rain. well it wasn't planned and it was already raining and i didn't wanna stay in skool to wait for it to stop. so i walked home in the rain. it was kool. there were tons of toads hopping all over the paths. and it felt good. the pitter patter of raindrops on ur head. thank god it wasn't winter though lol.

umm thats about it. my life is pretty uninteresting. its shit actually but i make do. there are people out there with shittier lives than me. so i guess i can't complain. ah well.

Hallowed Halls

its really quiet in UQ at night. really quiet and peaceful. except for the odd security dudes taht walk around. but it makes u feel safer that there are security ppl around. but yeah quiet and peaceful. especially last night, when the wind was blowing and the night was cool. the rain had just stopped and the ground was damp and the air was moist. its just one of those nights.



one of those nights that good for thinking about stuff. u know...stuff.

i'm gonna start whinging now. about skool. the pressure is mounting and the workload increasing. but i'm not complaining...much. i think i'm finally getting the hang of things in the arts faculty. i guess arts handles words and ideas in comparison to science which handles facts and things or stuff. but its all good. getting better. just have to be more focus-ed. likes siriously. i just need to be more disciplined. unlike now. ok i'll do my readings after i blog okay!!! i nvr did so much reading in my undergrad lol.

so far wat has been going on.... besides school....

well had a night out at the quintessential brisbane asian uni student party.... .Reiji.... lol. if ur an asian student studying in brisbane, u need to go there at least once. its where all the asians are.word. lol. but yeah had a blast. it was good to see familiar faces. and new faces as well....

and i set up my volunteering work at the Insect Collection. yay pinning bugs!! all the pretty pretty bugs.....

so yeah i'm updating u on all the boring stuff lol. wat about the scandals and gossip!! umm dun have lor. if have also i cannot tell you. hee hee hee.

thats all folks for now.

So Far

So far i have had classes and seminars for my new course. and well i've nvr felt more dumb. lol i'm serious. its like i go into class and go "wat the fuck" is going on. i mean i was expecting this. like i'm moving from a science background to a totally different arts program.

but hey use such big words like didatic and provenance and such. i dun even know if i spelt them correctly. gah!

i guess i have to change my way of thinking and get into the flow of the course. like wateva happened to "there is only talent and hard work" ? so yeah i better get my ass off and start working. hard.

other than feling in adequate in skool lol. life's pretty ok. its just hot. very hot. and sweaty. which is good kinda if u had a partner but just annoying if ur alone lol. oh yeah kinky thoughts please.

i'm just rambling. i better get my ass out of the house to go to skool tomorrow and get some work done coz even though i dun have that many classes. i sure as hell have alot of things to do. lol