Monday, December 31, 2007

Crossing Over

This is a special post as it spans 2 years..... 2007 to 2008.....

well i dunno wat the hype about new years is about... i feel the significance but i do not get the urge to party and usher the new year wit a bang.... is it another excuse for us to escape our pathetic lives and pretend for that one glorious moment taht we are carefree and oh so glamorous?

maybe....

to me the crossing of a new year is always bittersweet. memories of people and experiences of the year gone past. never to be re-lived again. but also the curiosity that is inherent in all of us of wat is to come for the new year. ah 2008 wat will u hav in store for me? love? perhaps? that i wish more than anything else. but i fear if i wished for something to hard and too much. i might not get it. well another year of wishful thinking it seems.

Resolutions

i thought hard and well about my resolutions for the new year. i hav a few in mind but i fear i might not be able to fulfil them, as with the resolutions of many years gone past. still i shall write them down. its tradition after all. as i was explaining to B.Bunee..... It is tradition for us to write New Years Resolutions and then we keep them for a year and never fulfil them. isn't that the fun and point of it all?

So this New Years Resolution for Year 2008 goes as follows.

  • To have all those superficial and shallow people fall for me and grovel at my feet. well how i do it? well that shall be a suprise.....
  • To get a degree. i must work on this. if my melancholia persists than i fear i might not be able too.
  • To return back to Singapore a new and improved person. World weary and hopefully wiser.
  • Seek Love. Haiz.......

Well that is enuff i guess. to keep me occupied for the next year. hopefully i'll survive and hopefully i'll be the same person although i highly doubt it. oh well we all grow and change.

Happy Fucking New Year 2008!!

To A Worse Year Yet!!!

Sunday, December 30, 2007

RetroSpect 2007

Well my frens it is time for my RetroSpect 2007... time to reflect wat i hav done for the past freaking year... as i sit here listening to my Arab Pop Songs.... i shall think back on 2007...

oh btw i have not achieved any of my new years resolution that i set for myself for this year.. hahaha. well i think i haven't but i can't judge my self can i?

So anyway to summarize 2007 has been a year of change and new experiences but then again which year isn't?

January to March: Lets see. can't remember much actually about the beginning part of the year except that it was in preperation for Taiwan coz we had ATEC. my life is still very much immersed in army at this point of time.

April To June: CAme back from Taiwan which was an experience.. althugh couldn't give a damn coz i was gonna ORD soon in June. So came back and bum here and there did this and that... Made new CLOSE frens. And den i ORD-ed!!! W00ts!! i made the decision to join MAAD

July to September: SERIOUS BUMMING TIME. for me that is.... went on holidays.... and bummed for like 3 moths. WTF rite? i finally started back work at good old Kumon in August and also my first time @ MAAD.. which begins my love affair wit MAAD. also the start of my melancholia on my birthday.

October to December: Somewhere here i feel in love or at least i wished it to be.. but then it wasn't mutual. ah thats life eh? so we move on wit the heartache. and no i won't kill myself and i'm fine. the last 3 months hav been like blah. besides working and doing MAAD nothing much has been happening. things stagnating and preparing for my move to AUSTRALIA.

So it brings me here to the end of 2007... the time wen the world gets MORE FUCKED UP. people PRETENDING TO BE ENVIRONMENTAL AND GREEN juz coz its THE IN THING. oh well to me 2007 is full of melancholia nd sadness... to the world and to my life in general... hopefully 2008 will be better... although i don't think it will....

Lost Love... Changes.... We All Must Grin and Bear It....



Britney Spears - YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY

Everytime I look at you
My heart is jumpin, what can I do?....
.....You drive me crazy
I just can't sleep.....

Ah don't we just love Miss Britney Spears.....

Sidenote: if u haven't caught on by now..... all the songs i post on my blog are connected to my life. the lyrics often sings the song of my life.... hee hee.... mysterious eh? blah...

Next post new years Resolutions!!!!!

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Gift Exchange!!!!

Today i met up wit my poly mates and we had a christmas gift exchange! and i got chocolates.....
that is a good thing coz CHOCOLATES ARE BETTER THAN SEX!!!!!.... ok fine that remains to be proven but its freaking chocolates and not any ordinary chocolates.... its Ferrero Roche (is that how u spell it?) and Belgium Seashell Chocolates... Gosh I HEARTS HEARTS Seashell Chocs!!

So Happy.... as of this point of time i already finished the box of seashell chocs... whoops!

also i have been listening to alot of Britney Spears.... Oh my who does not like Britney? if u Don't like her u must be crazy.... She is an icon! and heer songs rocks.... so wat if she has gone all bonkers .... she still rocks! big time! Britney, KookyPlum Hearts You... Wahahahahahaha.... So Here is her song OVERPROTECTED.... I loves this song... i decided not to post a sappy song coz my fren says its bad karma... hah so here is an empowerment song! BooYaaa....

btw its the DarkChild Remix!!



What am I to do with my life(You will find it out don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right(You just got to do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Christmas

well christmas means nothing me coz i don't celebrate it. hah. nuff said.

been feeling my old fren melancholia alot lately.... maybe its the festive season and that why the reason for depression...maybe its the cheer in the air or happiness that is festering around... and people hav been asking me wat they can do to make me feel better....sigh if only it were that simple...

for wat i want is something u cannot give me.

and we all know wat that is...don't we? and if u dunno don't ask so much...

and also since i'm in the mood for italic/thoughts type of writing....

I got tired of waiting.
i give up.
i also read the little subtle signs.
and now i know wat i must do.
i must break my heart into a million pieces.
and from those pieces rebuild a heart of stone and ice.
but somehow my heart wishes not to be broken.
which makes it even more painful to bear.
i cling on to a thing called hope.
wishing it to be true.
yet knowing it is not.
sighs.

So DRAMA rite....

anyways today is christmas and in a week or so...2007 will end... ahhh i must write my retrospect! shall think of it now...in the meantime enjoy ur holidays...

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Fair As the Moon

Today as i was sitting in the lrt, i noticed something when i happened to glance down at my hands. i noticed that my hands were soooo freaking fair. they were glowingly fair like luminescsent, like the moon. i was like wow!

yes i know i am very fair most ppl mistake me as chinese. hah! i didn't realise that i was that fair until i looked at my hands today. maybe it was a trick of light but it did glow like Nicole Kidman's skin. i was mightly amused.

also more happenings in the lrt....

i was randomly scrolling my mp3 player and found a song that i haven't listened to in a long long time... its Siti Nurhaliza and M Nasir with their song Bagaikan Sakti... i love this song... its just beautiful..



HAVE A LISTEN!
and for those of you who do not know any malay here is a translation of the chorus part... i am really to lazy to translate for you everything but it gives you the gist of the song... so beautiful la the song....

Jika ini hakikatnya / If This The Reality
Aku serahkan jiwa dan ragaku / I Will Surrender My Body and Soul
Menantimu walau sengsara / Even If I Suffer Waiting For You
Jika ini ketentuannya / If This Is the Certainty
Jika ini hakikatnya / If This Is The Reality
Aku serahkan jiwa dan raga / I Surrender My Body And Soul
Jika ini ketentuannya / If This is The Result
Kaukan jadi milikku jua / U Will Be Mine Forever

ok my malay is not that perfect but u get the idea of the song... farking sad romantic song of waiting and waiting endlessly for the one u love....

this of course is from the movie PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG.... i could like explain the whole damn legend about it but its very very long and i should just give you a link for you to read on ur own if you so wish...

Legend Of Puteri Gunung Ledang----> Click La

the movie changes the story abit but wat movies doesn't? hahahha ok enjoy the song...might blog to night if i so incline to do so.. or if feel really bored.. either or...



Friday, December 21, 2007

Can't Think Of Any......

can't think of any title to put for this Friday... Its Friday again... another day, another day closer to my departure from this sunny island called Singapore.... 12th Feb people...12th Feb....

Anyways guess wat this is? the picture of this strange reddish gold liquid? Looks like honey eh? It taste like honey but not really..... its.....
CHILLI SYRUP...... oh yeah chilli syrup... made from sugar and water boiled together wit chillies... it was meant to be eaten with ice cream.. vanilla ice cream... i did this today coz iwas watching Nigella on Discovery Travel and Living.... and i was reminded of this recipe of hers.... so i decided to chop some chillies and boil them wit sugar and water and voila....

Nigella Lawson.... Domestic Goddess... I bow down to you... she makes cooking fun for me... i love her and her orgasmic eating ways... she does moan and groan quite alot wen she eats no?

Anyways this is wat its supposed to look like wen u serve it. it looks soooo pretty and sooochristmas-ish doesn't it? and some of you might think... ok heck all of you might think that chillies? and ice cream? wat a weird combo... but i tell you the contrast is AMAZING! its like smooth creamy sweet icecream and then u get a hit of heat from the chillies... its not like searing spicy hot u know.. its sort of a gentle warm sensation at the back of ur throat.. nice and strange sensation... positively lovely! gotta try it.... trust me it will grow on you....

i realise that i'm blogging about food alot... which is weird... but oh wells nvm mind... enjoy

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Miracles


As you can see the above pic is a pic of an egg. a fried egg. but its not any normal egg. its a freaking DEEP FRIED EGG!!!!!
POSSIBLY THE MOST FREAKING DELICIOUS THING IN THE WHOLE FRIGGING UNIVERSE.
ok here comes the miracles part. i have been gorging myself on deep fried eggs like for a few days and coupled wit today's Hari Raya Haji spread of Lamb Briyani and Ayam Masak Merah (literally translated as Red Cooked Chicken) but...... but......
i went to weigh myself and i like lost a kilo! LOST A KILO! how can rite? so i weighed myself again. and yes indeed by some miracle i did lose a kilo even after all that eating.
i consider it a Christmas Miracle.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Breathless - Corinne Bailey Rae

i didn't post yesterday for the simple reason of i didn't feel like it... hey its not as if your world would end if i didn't post hahaha....

ok so a quick post before i go to work. or rather here's a song... by the gorgeous... Corinne Bailey Rae... Don't u just love her...She sooo sweet and her songs are not bad also...

Its her song BREATHLESS.... she doesn't hav a vid of it so this is just the song... let it load give it a listen... it will touch you heart i'm sure..coz i'm sure everybody felt this way before.. i sure am...



Tell Me Do You Know?..... I Get So Breathless Wen U Call My Name.... I've Often Wondered Do You Feel The Same....

Monday, December 17, 2007

Tired

Monday is here again... i spent most of it sleeping :)

u know afternoon naps are such a luxury... i realised that as i feel asleep in the afternoon amid the not very soft pitter patter of the rain against the window. how wonderful. the weather was perfect and i was tired. Glorious combination. i guess its one of the perks of being a bumm.

oh well.

basically thats it. nothing special to blog about. i dunno 1001 things are whizzing in my head at the moment. some things i really don't want to think about but i can't help it. i think too much. kinda stressed actually. from thinking too much. hah.

other than that the usual depressive moods.

Time. Something i don't have much of. Blah!
OH MY GOD! HADY MIRZA IS THE ASIAN IDOL!!!
CAN U FREAKING BELIEVE IT!!!????
I'M SO PROUD.
YES YES YES.
SINGAPORE ROCKS!!

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Sunday

well i finally reached sunday.. wat a week eh? so many exciting things happening thru out the week!.....NOT.... Super Fucking Boring week i tell you.... but den again.. wat week isn't....

well anyways today is sunday... well... as usual woke up late....ya everyday wake up late...every freaking day.. i'm getting tired of it... oh wells....

den Parental Units came back JB and brought food back... Mutton Soup... i loves mutton...

aiyah i shall keep this sunday post really really short coz i'm having a slight mood moment so i don't really have the mood to blog....

i'm anticipating a really boring week ahead coz well i'm working for most of the week... for one... and u know everyone's not free and stuff... which makes me wonder how it will be like on 12th feb? it breaks my heart to think about it but i sorta know. maybe i could be wrong. maybe.

i'm really itching to go out and i could... but alone? where's the fun in that. ok la ok la.

good night.

i'm really wondering how many, if any, of you are actually enjoying my day to day happenings.... just wondering....

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Fuck.. i'm eating bloody oily mutton burger in the middle of the night.... with fried onions and egg... yum yum.. ok its not burger coz well i have no burger bun so its a mutton sandwich... soooo sinful....
i feel so fat now.... but who the fark cares!!!!!! EAT EAT yum yum....

Saturday is Gloomy and Windy Thus....

i get the sniffles... bloody nose is dripping like a leaky faucet... seriously.. its like dripping mucus.... drop after drop.. i had to roll up some tissue and plug my nose man.... sheesh....

anyways today went to Grans house after like weeks and did the usual usual... eat alot, drink bandung, watch tv.... den went home.... umm... yeah....

came back and was bored silly sia...Farking BORED...

So... i went to sew abit... den i was bored of that.... i tell u today is a seriously boring day... so i went to watch abit of tv.... bah!

was lurking around the kitchen and i spied wit my little eyes a bag of nuts that i bought a few weeks back! yes nuts... wat u might ask am i to do wit Nuts?


Oh yeah... These nuts need to be BASHED.....
So i went about bashing my nuts... no not MY nuts, thats just crazy.... the nuts above la....

Weapon of choice.....

The meagre bowl of bashed nuts....

ok i guess the reason for the small amount of nuts is well... i bashed some of them to dust... its good therapy u know.... BASH! BASH! BASH!..... i feels much better....WHACK WHACK WHACK!!! i love nuts...Hazelnuts are the best... when u whack them the crack wit an explosive and satisfying pop!... sometimes they fly...Brazilnuts are so hard to BASH... and Almonds are soft...
ah ok.. tired of blogging maybe coz i'm too distracted by ASIAN IDOL!!!! its a matter of National Pride ok.. even if Hady cannot hold a candle to the others i still must support my Singapore Idol.... Go HAdy.....


Friday....

WEll i got home after midnight so i guess its not Friday anymore but i have to post about Friday... why? just coz i got nothing better to do....

Fri i went to work! Weeeeeee..... Kids!! i love them kids.... it seems funny that i am soo happy just to go to work... even though i earn peanuts compared to all my frens.... i'm still happy to go to work....

i sat in the train jsut now thinking... thinking about wether i went about my life the wrong way. i see all my frens earning 1000+ dollars and here i am earning less than a sweatshop worker... its not that i don't want to work... it just there is no point for me to work becoz i'm going to study really soon... and another thing, by not working full time i am able to indulge in my artistic side, to set up a stall at MAAD and do want i really wanna do, in this short span of time that i have.

i dunno. i have no regrets with the choices i made. but really having no spending power kinda sucks. if only people knew how much i've poured into my lil stall..... sighs....

so anyways after work i rushed to meet up wit my BMT mates... yes my BMT mates! i haven't seen them in ages... but i finished work late and by the time i got there they finished eating dinner and well were kinda in the mood to go off.... oh well i least i got a short updates on their lives... these guys with whom i began my NS life with... it was nice to see them again...

ok thats it for Friday... ok its Sat now... sheesh....

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Thursday's Child Has Far To Go.....

Or.... Thursday's child works hard for a living..... oh come on... its mocking me!!! can't u see!!!! yes i'm not working again today... coz i'm being replaced.. so today i don't get to see my fav twins at work..... sadz....

Anyways ya so i'm not working thus i bum to the MAX... i woke up at 2pm... can u beleive it 2 FREAKING pm... i didn't intend to wake up soo late... i just didn't set my alarm coz i was doing nothing and had no need to wake up at anytime... but i was suprised that i woke up soooooo late... like i didn't do anything strenous the day before.. only sewing and reading.... and eating and shitting...

So out of sheer boredom i'm re-reading one of fav books.....Mistress Of Spices.... i love that book... makes me want to be a Mistress Of Spice.. the book is very poetic and magically in the way the author seamlessly weaves words together to form magical images and stirring the senses..... loves....

i could re-read another fav book.... Practical Magic .... but then i already read that one like 5 times.. u know certain books have that magical allure that just keeps u coming back for more... the magic of books.. i hearts books... i double hearts books....

another thing... i've been dreaming alot... like for the past few days i've been dreaming alot and wen i wake up i feel much more refreshed... i feel much better for the past 2 days that i felt the last week.. last week was horrid with me feeling so lethargic.... bleargh!

Dreaming is ur minds way of subconciously sorting out ur problems thru dreams......so i guess my mind is helping sort out my mind.... which is good i guess.... now all that needs sorting is my heart....

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Wednesday's Child is Loving and Giving

Or.... Wednesdays Child Is Full Of Woe.... again depends on which version u happen to stumble upon.... ok i will try to be loving and giving.... i said i will try... coincidentally Wednesday the child from Addams Family is named after the aforementioned line... she is full of woe....

So today is Wednesday i WAS working on Wednesday... but den i'm being replaced coz i'm going off to study so i'm semi fired... so today i will laze at home... sighs.... and i cooked (or rather fried) French Toast today... yumyum.... other than that nothing... people are working so i don't really wanna bother them...

Had this song stuck in my head for the past hour or so... and so i decided to share it with you...
Its from the movie 54... back in 1998! Damn disco retro la... and besides u get to see Ryan Phillippe (is that how u spell it?) dance around shirtless... oh yeah ladies ... and some guys....haha... Perfect DragQueen song i tells you....



and its still raining.. damned monsoon.... its supposed to end next week.. on Dec 15th but seeing how fucked up the world is now i think we are gonna see a few more weeks of rainy weather... and soggy shoes and damp hair....

was just randomly reading blogs and watching and reading the news and i was just wondering how much of a Carbon FootPrint did ZoukOut 2007 leave? like come one 23000 drunk party revellers and so much lighting and sound equipment couldn't have been Environmentally frendly can it? and somemore i saw a pic in the papers taht they had a huge troop of cleaners come onto the beach to clean up the aftermath of ZoukOut... I find it silly that Zouk organised a Green Themed party named "I Smell Green Spirit" and den a week or so after that had ZoukOut. Contradicting much? Come on la. Just coz its the IN THING now to be green. sheesh. If u are not then please don't pretend to be. My 2cents.

Hah ok now i'm sitting here thinking of wat to blog coz i'll try to make this the longest blog post ever in the history of the universe! yeah rite. Oh i know.

Yesterday night i really had nothing to to do. So i took out my Piggybank and counted my coins. i'm not gonna tell how much there is but.......

Have u ever realised the longer u look or stare and some thing the stranger it becomes. i was counting coins and looking at them i realised that they looked kinda weird. like seriously its like they were not really coins. but they were. u know they are coins but somehow it doesn' register in ur head (or in this case, my head)

Same goes for words.... if u keep reading and saying and having the word in ur head it seems strange after awhile. TRY IT!!!! pick a random word and keep repeating it over and over again. i'm sure they is some scientific explanation that includes detachments from the neurons governing the psychosis of the left brain that in turn affect the language center in the frontal lobe that makes the hypothalamus glands secrete some X hormone that makes u involuntarily jerk your knee and cluck like a chicken. i'm sure but i'm lazy to research. or may be i would since i'm bumming today. hahahha.

So anyways i ran out of happy things to blog this afternoon. So i dedicate this YouTube video to all those employed people out there. HAPPY WORKING SONG! from the movie Enchanted. i hearts the movie Enchanted... sighs. makes me believe in love.... laaa deee daaaa...

So for those people who are working. Enjoy the HAPPY WORKING SONG!!!! and HAPPY WORKING!



Till laterz.....

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Tuesday's Child Is Full Of Woe.

Or full of Grace.... depends on which version u happen to chance upon. me, i rather prefer the woe-full Tuesday child. blah.

Yesterday was Melancholia Monday. So yesterday's post was super uber melancholy and dark. so this being tuesday....... is no different! hah! ok fine i will try to be more cheerful....

hmmm let see nothing much today.... still mulling over yesterday....

other than taht nothing la... i apologize if wat u read kinda hurt you in anyway.. but tahts just how i feel.. ok.. thats all for tuesday....
ok fine. i blame myself i'm a lousy fren.

Monday, December 10, 2007

Monday Blues

Today is Monday... or rather if by the time this post is done it would be tuesday.... i didn't really like this monday coz i realised a few things about life taht is....well.... not so pretty....

i think too much... i really do.. i try to figure out the meaning of life and more often than not, its not very pretty... life really is sucky and i really do not understand how people can be sooo optimistic about it... i really don't there isn't much to be optimistic about...

i mean not everything about life is bad but i guess we can't be happy all the time...

i guess the Buddhist teachings that the world is full of suffering is true... the world is really full of suffering and pain... people just don't want to face the true fact of it... instead choosing to live in the World of Maya, the world of illusion, and pretend to be happy wen more pften than not, they are not really happy...

The first thing i realised today is....

if u want to know how much u are worth to ur frens, just wait till ur birthday. i mean its true. if nobody bothers or remembers about it then u hav a problem.... coz if people take the extra time and effort to organize a birthday bash or go out of their way to get u something special den u know u are loved and cared for... if not den u know ur worth... i should know.... yeah it hurts...

Second thing i realised today....

how much u are liked very much depends on how u look. it doesn't matter if u are super kind and caring or freaking genius.... if u don't look good ppl won't really remember you or just remember you as being nice or funny... oh yeah some of you might disagree and this point might not really be 100% true but this is how i see it... thru my eyes.... freaks or popular ones? i'm sure most of u habour the secret desire of being the popular ones....

yes yes... i'm still bitter about my 22nd birthday... i mean the people who i tot were close to me didn't even remember my birthday... ur amazed at where you stand wen u get experience such things..

oh wells.... people hurt others without even knowing it... i'm guilty of that too... karma i guess...too much rain bogging my head.... and slowly my heart turns to stone.....

onto happier things....


Kool book... LOVES LOVES!!!!!



Eaten By Bugs... How fitting Of a Botany Text...

Went to second hand bookstore at Bras Basah... i loves that shop.. so many treasures taht you can find there if ur willing to look.... and see wat i found!!! an old Botany text.... and the reason i loves it so is that it was eaten by bugs! So kool la! w00t w00t! i loved it so wen i first saw it had to buy it... cost me 6 bucks wor! steal hor!

Anyways Monday was spent walking in the rain and getting toes wet... didn't really enjoy it for some reasons that shall not be mentioned here but oh wells...

Another gloomy wet tuesday awaits....

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Lazy Sunday

Well i achieved my 2 goals i set out for myself this sunday. which was to wake up really late and to clean my room. ok maybe achieved one goal and half of the other ;P

I really did wake up late today like 1pm. oh how i love to wake up late. only downside is that there was noone to wake up to. sadz. and i somehow had a really really sad drem that i couldn't remember wat it was but it was really sad. and i woke up crying. silly innit? and i woke up with my right eye closed shut. like coz of eye gunk. and wen i managed to pry it open my right eye was like BLOODSHOT and SWOLLEN. how sad.

i ate a gigantic bowl of spaghetti (more on that later) and proceeded to carry out my next goal. which was to clean my room. my room is UBER dusty. no matter many times it is swept, there will always be a fine layer of dust. so anyhoo.... i cleaned up half of the mess. and i got bored and stared at the ceiling for abit then i decided to come online. w00t! so maybe after dinner i shall continue on my quest.

The mess! Considering how small my room is. This mess has taken over my floor space.

Sorry for the blurness, me hands shaky.


Virgin Fashion Show.

Oh my oh me! Yesterday i went to my very first ever posh fashion show. oh yeah. My very first. I'm no longer a virgin (to fashions shows that is. sheesh).

it was the Autumn/Winter collection for Studio Prive. And my old classmate is one of the designers! w00t! and i got dragged to go. but it was such an eye opener and i felt very underdressed. Pics! ok lousy pics coz i didn't bring a camera but aiyah i just felt like putting them.


The Design Collective that put it together.


My fren's label iamwhoiam. and the glowstick bracelet which i got.


umm it was fun la this fashion thing. oh exciting. and such eye candy. hahahaha. ok more blogging later. Gilmore Girls is starting.

Coz I'm A Sucker of These Quizzes

Your Birthdate: August 27

You are a spiritual soul - a person who tries to find meaning in everything.
You spend a good amount of time meditating, trying to figure out life.
Helping others is also important to you. You enjoy social activities with that goal.
You are very generous and giving. Yet you expect very little in return.

Your strength: Getting along with anyone and everyone

Your weakness: Needing a good amount of downtime to recharge

Your power color: Cobalt blue

Your power symbol: Dove

Your power month: September


Oh really? Or rather O Rly? Ya maybe.. i do think alot....

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Epiphany

I just realised that... i can't win.. i can't compete...
if being myself doesn't cut it den well....i dunno wat to do...
i have no time left... maybe this is driving me to desperation... i dunno...

oh gosh... i really am trying to go wit the flow but its frustrating... very...
but den i realised i cannot compete wit others who are better than me... i am who i am...
and thats the way it is....
its always a 2 way thing, nvr one way....

No chance at happiness or least feel wat its like....
sighs....

i can't be who you or anybody expect me to be... i just can't...
so i guess i'm destined to be by myself....
Never knowing wat its like, Always expecting and wish....

Friday, December 07, 2007

I Shall Blog Of Many Things....

Of Cabbages and Kings....

Phew! its been awhile eh since i posted eh... well i have been very busy.... with MAAD and random baking....

MAAD was a blast as usual... Loves It... I sold 2 plushies yay! and some other random stuff.... which is good aye?

Other than that i made Cuppy Cakes again... A whole batch of them... Chocolate Chip CuppyCakes and Apple wit CreamCheese Frosting....Yum Yum...

Ok i realised that this post about MAAD and baking was abit overdue but hey dee hoo....

So anyways the baking was done mainly for Appletoe's Birthday... Ur old now... and so made a batch means u have lotsa left over soooooo... i brought them to MAAD and fed all the people there....I love baking but then i don't bake that often... so if you received my baked goodies means ur one of the important people in my life.. and there hav been a few....

Other than that the week has been crazy coz i had to sew 2 more plush toys for PageOne... which i shall talk about later... but anyways i had to go shop for cloth on monday... and sew one that night and then i had to work and weds i was a crazy sewing MAAD person... i spent the whole day sewing. like seriously sewing the whole day... and i couldn't finish it and i had to give it to MAAD mamasan on thurs... and was even sewing on thurs morning...

So anyways Thurs morning was spend crazily sewing... and its not machine stitching mind you... it was all hand stitched... so i had a very sore middle finger coz of the poking of needles... but anyways i managed to finish it and pass it to MAAD mamasan so that they could be exhibited at.......

PageOne Bookstore!!!! Yes my plush toys will be at VivoCity... at PageOne bookstore!!! yay! In conjunction with MAAD Are You Soft Ver2 Exhibition... I'm So Excited!!!! the exhibition will be on going till the end of december.... so u guys have chance to see them... although highly unlikely but anyways if ur in Vivo u can POP down to see them...

So anyways Thurs was spent wit Person whose Toes Resemble Apples.... We went to watch Enchanted... Which was an alright movie... but it was SUPER UBER ROMANTIC... made me wanna sing to the birds and be all cheerful and sweet... but alas life is not a fairy tale.. but i'm still waiting for My True Love's Kiss... Sighs....



Anyways the above vid is my favourite scene from the movie... The ballroom scene... where the song is So Close......

So Close... And Still So Far.... Sighs.... Uber Sighs...

So anyways another announcement to make... everything is settled and i'm going to leave for Australia on...

12th Feb.... My flight is @ 9.05pm.... so countdown starts already.... i hope people come to send me off...

So anyways enjoy the song... and hope you find ur True Love's Kiss soon....

Monday, December 03, 2007

The Color OF Your Eyes

i love this song by arab singer Nancy Ajram....
And i recently found one wit english subtitles... so please enjoy this uber romantic song....
but they got the trnslation to the later part of the song wrong leh... ho ho... nvm here's the full translation here....