Things on my Mind now

For the past 3 freaking weeks i have been living my life as a civilian. thats is i wake up at 12 in the afternoon. i eat wenever i wanna eat. and i wear wateva i wanna wear. i can't say i haven't been running just not as frequently. anyways being at home most of the time also has meant that i have been doing alot of thinking. i mean wat else can you do after u have done wat u wanted u have done. its gets boring after awhile. even the internet has become sorta boring.

alot of things have been buzzing around in my cluttered mind for the past few weeks. and it has taken alot of my time in bed. thus the waking up at 12 in the afternoon.

i'm gonna ord in june which is like 1 month away. it has gone by so fast. the part of a singaporean man's life that will always stick in his mind. i'll ord in june. which means i'll be jobless. which means no money. i need a job ppl. i need a job that will alst me 6 month till i go to Aust.

I'm gonna ord in june. which means i'll be leaving my appointment and thus i need a succesor. who shall it be eh? u know ppl have been bugging about it for a long time. ppl have been speculating who it is for a long time. each of you (and i said you coz i know some of u read this) have ur own strengths and weaknesses. but can u be a company medic? its not about the rank, i was a coy medic for a long time before i got my stripes. its about handling ur superiors (this is top priority). its about getting ur stores. it about handling ur appointments and MCs. It about handling ppl's qns about medical stuff and health. Its about alot of things. Ya ya i know u all in lull period now. no more outfield wat. no more important stuff to do. maybe. but ifeel its important to leave it in good hands or rather the right pair of hands. i dunno we'll see how it goes. and btw u still got alot activities to do for example: Thailand is coming, NDP ok only 2 but still day to day work (there is ok) needs to be done?

have been thinking about my non existant life as of this moment. i have a sad sad sad life. i know some ppl in Aceh and certain parts of Africa have shittier lives than me but wat i mean is that i'm feeling unfulfilled. a certain part of me is empty. and i sorta know wat that void is. i'm a nice person aren't i? just that i'm the best fren type or the one to confide type or the sidekick type. i'm nvr the bf type or the leasing man type or the one i wanna get into bed type. aiyah once again i get all sad and poo poo. i shall internalise that for awhile and not bother you with my sorrows.

another thing thats on my mind now is that ppl don't update their blog enuff. i mean i ran out of reading material! out of desperation i even read Bryan Boy's blog. out of desperation!!!

hmmm... thinking too much am i? well that wat i do i think too much.