PILGRIMS! PILGRIMS! PILGRIMS! a.k.a Sydney 2008 part one

ok fine my internet quota has finished and i have been throttled... I MISS UNLIMITED BROADBAND!!! oh well loooong overdue post about my trippy to SeeDoONee... so here goes...

well so i'm back dear frens from sydney.. i decided to go on a short holiday to the first state Sydney.... that was from 11 to 17 july.... boy was it a wrong time to go.. coz of the world youth day and the pope coming down and all there were ALOT of pilgrims... the Catholicism in the air was so thick u could cut it wit a knife... but anyho how more on that later...

so that my frens is the XPT train that will bring me and my fellow travellers to sydney from brisbane... we were crazy enuff to take it coz it takes 14 FREAKING HOURS... me and my frens were thinking wat the ho hay... when are u gonna take the train cross country? well i can proudly say survived it and NEVER AGAIN shall i do it again. like i was all excited in the beginning but taht lasted all but a few hours. we weren't prepared like the other commuters who brought books and pillows and even dvd players.. so we spent most of the 14 hours eatign and sleeping which my frens is not a good way to spend 14 hours on a train...

Nice view no? so we reached sydney like at night and we arrived at the hotel to the greetings of rowdy drunk men in front of the hotel for u see there was a pub below the hotel... how nice....

The Grand Hotel.. sure looks grand and like a haunted house honestly.. but it was clean and comfy enuff... and had a heater which was good in the chilly winters of sydney.. so thats my journey to sydney...

wat i did there, well tahts another post for another day no?

Post Without Reason

ok so i over estimated myself... i woke up abit early and now i have nothing to do... thus i decided to post a blog post while the inspiration is still here...

look at the pretty flowers aren't they pretty.. and i think they are becoming my favourite flower.. its called the Blushing Bride Protea.. its just very delicate looking and so so pretty...

AnyHo Hay... i was facebook surfing (as i am prone to do these days and i'm not facebook stalking okay!!) and came across an album from some random person.. its was his photo album for his sending of to where else.... Aussie!!! (bleargh)... but anyways as i was happily surfing through the album and looking for eye candy (ok i'm bored okay) and came across a few pics of him at the gate... and of course there are a few pics of him shedding a few tears.. aahh brings back memories...

it was oh about 4 months or so that i was in that position.... packing up and leaving everything in search for an education in a foreign land... its traumatic.. at least in that very moment in time wen u have to leave... it really did feel painful to leave... i know how u feel random dude!!! its okay to cry... its means u have great love inside and it shows... (that my fren is a post for another day..about crying i mean...)

but we as humans are built to adapt and sooner or later we settle into the new environment.. just the other day i had a deja vu moment.. i was clearing my notes from the first semester to make way for the new semester and was tidying up a few drawers that i hadn't opened since i first landed..

it was a nostalgic moment... i remember the feeling of wanting to go back so badly.. i still do now but now i have learnt patience.. i was thinking to myself that i will open this drawer again in 3 months and then i'll open it again to pack my stuff back into my luggage...

its funny how as students in a foreign land, blogs become such a necessity... ok most students.. there are a few who don't feel the need to blog... to each his own... but isn't it funny how blogs become such an access point for ur frens and sometimes family to get news and updates....

haiz i dunno wat i'm talking about la... i'm just blogging while i cultivate my shit....and i feel it has cultivated enough.... so see ya soons y'all....

HAPPINESS HAPPINESS

well frens the agonizing wait for the exam results is over...

HAPPINESS HAPPINESS

i can officially say that i survived Semester One of 2008....and not too shabby i must say...

LuLuLuLu

halfway to my Degree yay!!!

Cold Cold Night

This post is brought to u as i freeze in the middle of an australian winters night...

ok seriously i have been on a yarn buying rampage the past few days.. like how much yarn can a person have? apparently like shoes u can never have enough yarn... i got many many colour and textures and it didn't help that Lincraft and Spotlight were having their year end sale... terrible.. and i tot that my maniacal spending spree would end.. but...

on sat i went to the markets and lo and behold!!

read the label!!! its possum!!! possum yarn!!! can u believe it??? apparently its from new zealand where possums have been declared a pest and they trap and cull the possums to well why not use the fur for sumthing instead of letting it go to waste... and also apparently it only comes by once every 5 years coz the possum fur only can be accumulated in such numbers only after 5 or so years... amazing i had to get some... i got 2 skeins... hahaha

so with this sudden influx of yarn there have been a few problems.. okay maybe just one... my floos has become a trap.. like there are so many random yarn balls, spilling their threads and not helping is my laptop wires and my handphone charger wire... my floor in front of my bed has become a veritable trip trap... if ever there is such a thing.. quite irritating wen wires and yarn get tangled around ur foot... guess i need a clean up!!!

so wats a boy to do with so much yarn?

aiyah very cute or not!!!!???? there are called the U.S.A.M.I.S.A.U. it means...... U Stare At Me, I Stare At You.... and yes they look oddly phallic but it wasn't intentional okay!! but anyways i modified the shape to make it less phallic... pics of the new things soon... anyways thats about it i guess....toodles

I Decided I Should Blog Ah

i woke up today and decided i should blog... yes... and it was thought and so it shall be...

i've been reading blogs and its seems that post are few and far between, well for those blogs taht are on my blog roll at least... maybe they have skool or maybe they have other preoccupations that they have to attend to.. not everyone is xiaxue...

so in the spirit of keeping the blogosphere alive and kicking i shall contribute this post to the overall karmic goodness of the blogosphere... ah yes.. it is a pointless post but nonetheless it should not be treated any different from a meaningful post...

that crappy pic u see is a picture of the tools of my trade.... no not chopsticks u silly... crochet needles..although i dunno wat the resemblence to needles is but thats what they are called and lets not argue with that! those are hand carved crochet needles from red gum (some sort of eucalyptus) from a fellow crafter who sells crochet stuff at the weekend markets i frequent... good stuff... that my readers was the catalyst taht brought into the spiralling madness of yarn buying and crochetting...

yes that is my stash of yarn... amazing isn't it... bootiful and soft yarn..magical colors...oh i love yarn... actually come to think of it... its not too bad aye? considering that this is the amount of yarn gathered over 3 months.. all thats yarn is not going to collect dust!! i can actually make things okay...

yeah man i made myself a beanie.... this was the first of my creations.. and i haven't gotten round to take pictures of the rest but it includes a pursey thing, another beanie, a scarf, a coaster... and various other incomplete projects...

you see wat boredom does to you... haiz.. haha... the winter break holidays officially started like last saturday 21st... and so far it was off to a good start.. i think can survive this holiday... well till then...

Life Is A Stuuuuupid Waiting Game...

Don't u think so? even if we set out to seize the day! or to get opportunities, we would still have to wait it things to come our way and grabbing before it passes. its jsut more waiting and waiting and waiting till we die.... even so we would still have to wait, i'm sure.. to see wether there is Q at heavens gate or the brimstone pools of hell... ah well... suck it up...

well exams are finally coming to an end... which would be quite a relief if it wasn't for the fact that exams comes with grades. So now begins the agonizing wait for the exam results. its a terrible vicious cycle i tell you. see its waiting again.

anyho. i lvoe the way my hair curls in that picture hahaha. i loved it so i'm putting it on!! w00ts!

So the holidays or rather winter break is here. 4-ish weeks of no skool.. so wat is a boy to do? most of the singaporean peeps are heading back to Singapore (duh where else??) so there are only a few of us left here to hold the fort so to speak. well someone has to keep the asian quota in Brisbane, no? hahaha. i figure that i'll be spending most of my tiem at home. going out cost money and i don't really feel like working. so heres a list (oh i haven't done a list in ages!)

• First i might go exploring the city by myself. i dunno i'll wander around the place although i dunno wats so great about it. Brisbane prove me wrong.
• i wanna go visit the museums around the city. i'm a sucker for museums.
• Crochet more stuff!! i've fallen in with crochet!! and after last weekends yarn binge buying yeah i need to finish up my yarn and crochet things!
• Do random artsy stuff. like draw stuff and make soft toys! i so need to make soft toys. there are so many ideas running in my head about wat things i wanna craft and make. i did this pondering during one of my papers. haha
• i'm seeking to volunteer my services to the skool's insect collection. i dunno jsut to keep me busy i suppose. the curator hasn't got back to me yet though.

list done! tahts a short list isn't it? well then again it is just a short break anyways. soon i'll be zipping back and forth from skool. trying understand once again wat is going on in the lecture. i guess time passes faster that way.

and soon before u know it!

i'll be leaving on a jet plane back to singapore. yeah i think about that alot. things and people i left behind. i dunno why people say that living overseas is much better than living in Singapore. usually these people are the ones that only visit for holidays and of course holidays are meant to make u feel better. but lemme tell you, after living here... I THINK SINGAPORE IS A MUCH BETTER PLACE TO LIVE IN. in terms of public services and ease to transportation and all that. trust me living in singapore is much better.

eurgh.. i should stop ranting and continue revising for my korean exam. dammit.

Silent Night

No its not christmas sillies.... its just that the night is very quiet plus the odd baby crying/giggling or is it one of those odd australian birds? oh well i dunno who or wat makes sounds in the silence of the night...anywho this post is brought to you after almost 2 hours.. yes u read it right 2 hours of facebook surfing. oh my gawd.... i officially can be declared bored shitless out of my mind. do i get a certificate? well at least i got to see lots of pretty pictures... gosh my quota is gonna go

its officially 4 am in the morning australian time.. eastern.. i jsut had to pen down a few thoughts down coz tis been bugging me for quite some time. and i woke up tonight to see wether my usual msn kaki was around, he was not so that lead me to the facebook binge. but thats another whinge for another day...

ok i would like to say that i've seen many things in my 20 odd years that i've been around.. i observe things and people...i study them in my own way.. i understand the world in my own special way...and there are a few things i have observed... mainly 2 things about people...

most (ok 99.9999%) people only want to talk about themselves. to that extent they want you to listen to their problems. yes me included. but recently i decided that even if i whinge/complain about my problems, people somehow don't really care/listen. so now i've lessen my complaining. there is really no point. yes i still do complain but to a certain extent about trivial things like the weather or exams. but issues concerning my inner being are only reserved for those who truly listen. u know who u are. and i in turn listen to your problems back. thanks you!

second thing about people is...people can make up their own mind. humans usually know wat they want already. they just ask for ur advice for reassurance and confirm their choice and garner support for that said choice because its scary to be alone, even in a decision. once again i do this too. usually if they ask for your opinion, tell them wat u think. if they keep asking you jsut politely repeat ur opinion. but soemtimes it gets to the point that u know they want it, so at that point of time just say "do it" or " yes its very nice". i'm sure people do it to me all the time.

that said. i do not like to give advice all that often nowadays. i feel its no point. also because people don't really take my advice or actually u know process it in their heads. somehow i come off as not knowing anything much about life. "pfft... wat does kooky know" i get that alot. its alright. people learn on their own. i can't impose myself on everyone thats just too tiring. we all make mistakes and learn. i'm not saying that i',m always right. often i am wrong. and there are many people out there who are already "self righteous" so i don't have to be one.

u know. i've been described as neutral. i always try to see the thru the other side of the mirror. i mean its only fair. one single person is not the center of the universe, there are other people u know. they have their own motives and reasons. i try, keyword is try, to understand why something is done in such a way or why. i never really hate anybody to the core (that happens very rarely). i don't find a small piece of a person character that is irritating and condemn them forever. a person is so much more than that. yes he/she might have some less than perfect behaviour but thats just who they are. no one is perfect. hallo! u might just very well be irritating to some people. i know i am hahaha. i guess thats why most people jus stick to one mindset. its so much easier and simpler to just see the world thru your own eyes, in your own way. its very tiring to do otherwise trust me. and ur always against so many other people that impose ur their "ego" on you. so most of the time i keep quiet and secretly keep to myself.

but i'm not saying that i know and understand everything in this freaking universe. although wat i've written so far seems to imply it. thats not the case. i know very little. but the little i do know i value above all else. yeah sounds contradictory, u can what i wrote anyway u want. hey free will!

u know sometimes i i feel that i'm a silent observer of life. constantly looking and learning about humans and their strange ways. i never meddle in people's lives unless they really want me to or are in desperate need of help. other than that i am just my silly self, spouting nonsensical musings and random facts to whoever cares to listen.

KookY... That Is Who i Am...

Procrastinating Much

well i take a break from my studying to bring you an update...

ok fine i have nothing to update .... just taht i'm tired of studying... :P

i'm sure everyone that has a blog or reads blogs or surfs the internet has a blog roll... a blog roll is a list of blogs that you regularly read. it might consist of ur frens blog or just some random interesting blog that u might have stumbled upon or even a blog belonging someone u think is cute and ur bordering on beign a stalker...

well i have a blog roll and mine consists of all of the above types of blogs. can't say them out can i? its my own private pleasure of reading those blogs hee hee...

so anyways it always suprised me what i can deduced from reading blogs. especially the pictures that people post. first of all i notice things... i would notice where a hand is palced or how close people are in pictures and that coupled with what they write in their blogs i can often tell or suspect that he likes her or she likes him or he likes him or she likes her..... i can't confirm such thigns coz i don't know these people or rahter these people do not know me... but it could be true... its just something i like to do...

so be careful wat u write in ur blog...

that being said i'm sure people are deducing thigns about me from wat i write on my blog... its a vicious cycle i tells you VICIOUS!!! ok i'm starting to ramble and be all delusional... damn exams... if i were to decide if i hated exams more than writign reports.... i would say i hate exams more...

GAHHHHH!!!

Stuck In My Head

Ok i woke up today and had this song stuck in my head... like it jsut popped into my head... its THE FABULOUS CHER - STRONG ENOUGH..
its such an empowerment song... so anyways enjoy...EMPOWERMENT! give them what for!!!




I don't need your sympathy
There's nothing you can say or do for me
And I don't want a miracle
You'll never change for no one
I hear your reasons why
Where did you sleep last night?
And was she worth it, was she worth it?'

Cos I'm strong enough
To live without you
Strong enough
and I quit crying
Long enough
now I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go
There's no more to say
So save your breath
And then walk away
No matter what I hear you say
I'm strong enough to know you gotta go

So you feel misunderstood
Baby, have I got news for you
On being used, I could write a book
You don't wanna hear about it

I've been losing sleep
You've been going cheap
She ain't worth half of me
it's trueI'm telling you

Now I'm strong enough to live without you
Strong enough
and I quit crying
Long enough now I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go

Come hell or waters high
You'll never see me cry
This is our last goodbye,
it's trueI'm telling you

That I'm strong enough to live without you
Stron enough
and I quit crying
Long enough now I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go
There's no more to say
So save your breath
And you walk away
No matter what I hear you say
I'm strong enough to know you gotta go

The Storm

Its been raining alot today... The whole day infact and i'm sitting through a storm right now.. well at least tahts wat i would call it... its nothing like the thunderstorms back home with all the lightning and thunder and howling winds... here its more like heavy rain... no lighting no thunder no howling winds.... just alot of rain... this is the first time i've experienced this much rain in australia.

Somehow i like this gloomy weather. its nice and cool... and gloomy.... such a nice day to sleep and indeed it was... i had a pleasant nap for like 3 hours in the afternoon.... how could i afford such a luxury of an afternoon nap???

well frens its the last week of semester... yes u heard me right, its the last week of semester... how time flies eh? it seemed like only yesterday that i was unpacking my luggage and trying to get my life here on track... and now its semester end. before i now it i'll be on a plane back home. exams are around the corner and for the first time in my whole tertiary education i fear that i might fail. most probably its just silly me worrying again... but oh i dunno...

oh well take a look at my socks.. aren't they kool.... i would let u view my kool underwear kollection but i would think that it would be quite inappropriate... so take a look at my socks. hah.

well it seems this rain is not gonna end anytime soon.... and its expected to rain for the next few days aswell...seems i'll be sleeping more...