Changes

All Things Change, sister. Its sad but Heaven, Hell and the World move on. Its fate.

The Lady of the Lake to her sister Queen Mab

(i posted the video in august go see!)

My course has finished. i miss it greatly. i miss all the people there i miss you guys if you read this! i think the very fact that we didn't have any entertainment like tv or things like that meant that we spent alot of time talking to each other. which was good. i miss it so bad. the colourful people and all that studying. darn.

CAmp.... back to camp this week, to find tha many things have changed. fot the better or for the worse i do not know. i do not wish it to change. i wish it could have the way it was before i left. things were much happier then and much simpler. the responsibilities that i have still remain but the expectations that people have of me has been greatly increased.

i feel way more lonely now than i ever was. maybe it's because i was away for 2 months and need to reconnect back or maybe i have now officially stepped out of the ranks of men nad have crossed over to the commanders? my heart is still with the men but the 3 stripes will force me to change to something i do not. because of my work and my duties i have to change into something that i would not want to. i dunno and kinda confused and lost at the moment. i need to give myself to absorb all this fully.

anyways this week people have said the strangest things to me. so i'm gonna share it with you guys. for the sake of.... oh just for the sake of it.... and it shall be in list form for i love making lists (colour me virgo)

• Somebody told me that i changed since i came back from course. he said i was more quiet, less the noisy person that i used to be. my reply to him was. well... i didn't coz i was being quiet you see. but in my mind i was thinking: "its not me who is quiet, it is you who is making much more noise." and also i was quite stressed at that time.
• another one told me i was handsome and i had the face that girls would like. in the middle of a conversation about ghosts. it was a guy. i said thank you and moved on to other topics.
• this conversation happened a few week ago but its worth mentioning. someone (it seems that someone seems to be the operative word to use to protect someones oops! indentity but hat besides the point. back topic please) told me taht truly intelligent people do not fall in love. coz they would see the illogical things that being in love makes you do and not fall for it. and yes love makes you do silly things, i'm sure any of you can vouch for that. the doing silly things part. but it struck a cord with me. that his reasoning that really clever people do not fall in love. interesting innit?

on the emotional non existent love life front (which i do not know why i keep blogging about), okay lets just say this, the less you know the btter you feel. ignorance is bliss i guess. thats all for now folks. it gonna be raya soon and happie deepavali to all hindus out there...!

Sorry if this post seem squished. i dunno, blogger's acting weird.