oh noes.

i fear i might be going thru a quarter life crisis. urgh.

Things that Inspire me now.

 My Revamped Cardi... lahv lahv lahv...

 I WANT THESE SHOES. 

 Mangosteens.... so yummy....

You have to click on this picture of Chris Fine Pine to get the full effect. How amazing is his grey cardi/jacket? Damn amazing i tell you. Its just wow.

Julie and Julia and Kooky?

Yes i must finally admit that i finally watched Julie and Julia... i found it an utterly enchanting movie and Meryl Streep is a legend. 

i find the whole movie quite inspirational... i dunno it moved me and also made me very hungry... they portrayed eating very well in the movie. The actors and actresses looked as though they were thoroughly enjoying eating all the yummy food. maybe they truly were really enjoying the food. although one thing bothered me. it was that whenever she pulled anything out of the oven i notice that the food was hot. As in there were no bubbling juices to be found as often is when u pull a hot tray of baked goodness from the searing oven. i dunno i notice things like that. other than that it was quite an inspirational movie.

Little Mr DayMoth visited the 18th floor today

It inspires me to do thing that give u joy. For Julie and Julia that would be cooking. for me. i dunno yet. there are many things that give me joy but i haven't found the definitive one that give me "Joy". you know. or maybe its a combination of things. i dunno... i guess i haven't found it yet. 

i hope i will soon. anyways. cheers.

Things that Inspire me now.

Top to bottom: Moss, Vintage/Retro Cloth, Catfish, Charles Devoe.

new Beginnings

Well i must say that it is quite late for new beginnings. it is April after all... but i say better late than never. so this is a new beginning for this blog.

i do wish i had a life to blog about. i am still a statistic. a number on the unemployment tab. yes life is harsh.

Pretty flowers by the roadside

oh well. might as well use the time i have to do productive things such as baking.

That's the Lime Meltaway Cookies i tried to make. Except they weren't very lime-ish and they weren't very meltaway-ish. seems this recipe needs some tweaking. MORE LIME JUICE I SAY.

ok so anyways i'll try to update this space more often. with exciting things? and happening happenings? yes yes? lol ok till next time.

Museum Studies

so basically what happen to me for so long? why did i disappear? well nothing really... nothing happened nothing to say.... so on to the topic at hand....

after doing some online research i realised to my suprise there are not many asian universities... or dare i say it no, with one exception, asian universities offer Museum Studies in their courses. HOW TRAGIC!!

well that explains the dismal state of many asian museums. sad to say. for a region of the world so rich in culture, heritage and natural wonders, we dun offer museum studies to our people to equip them with knowledge to manage our museums.

i find it quite perplexing. especially in Singapore. with the whole " I <3 Museums" campaign. seems like a marketing ploy to me. but like if we extol our museums to the public so much wouldn't make sense to offer a course of study that deals with museology and curatorial issues in the local universities? maybe even in the regional universities. but no. sadly no. this is just like how Singapore is a Garden City but we dun offer Horticulture or Botany degrees in our universities. Even a horti or botany major does not exist. but back to Museum Studies. So without local or regional Museum Studies program we have to travel across mountains and oceans to learn from western universities. i don't think this is wrong. in fact its good that we learn from other universities. but i dunno seems weird to me that after so many years of ppl going overseas nobody thought of creating a Museum Studies program? ok i could be wrong in all of this maybe there is an Asian University with an obscure Museum Studies program but to my knowledge now at this moment there are none. sure there are internship programs at museums but no established Museum Studies program in any well established asian university. hhhmmm yeah... well that my rant for tonight.... till next time! ps: YES I GOT HUGS OKAY. LOTSA LOTSA HUGZ. this is for you! you know who u are *bleah* hee hee..THANKS!

Thoughts at 3am

• Homo sapiens are a social species. indeed we are. we need ppl around us. to interact and to live our daily lives. those individuals that can live without the human interactions that the rest of the species so deep craves are truly commendable. namely the monks, nuns and hermit that shun human interactions to pursue their spiritual peace. one wonders how they do it.
• we need to be in a pack. like wolves. to be different or to be an individual would be social suicide. we all want to be the same. we feel safety in numbers of like minded ppl.
• Are you allowing ur self to be ostracized by putting ur foot down or believing in ur own beliefs or having an opinion? sure feels that way.
• life's not fair i get it.
  
• just coz i understand it does mean i can feel the way i feel.
• am i pushing ppl away?
• must i always have a smile all the time? do i need to be funny all the time?
• its nvr about me. its always about someone else. and when it is about me. nobody gives a shit. why can't i be selfish?
  
• ppl sometimes avoid me like the plague when i'm feeling all emo. and the ppl i expect to give a shit... well they dun. refer to point above.
  
• yeah this is my selfish moment. yes it is. although some ppl would think that i jsut want some attention. most probably i do. but i need a place to vent. an outlet if u please.
  
• i need to stop having conversations with myself. but hey i only have myself.
• although it does work out some of my anxieties and worries by having a conversation with myself. bizzare.
• my neck hurts.
• feeling peckish.
  
• this is so frustrating
• is such a thing as caring too much? i dun think so.
  
• someone told me to think about myself more. well if i did that. i won't have anymore frens.
• its all a delicate balance i guess. of being selfish and selfless.
  
• people are capable of great compassion and also great atrocities.
  
• people are also capable of alot of things? should i live in fear?
  
• i guess the only time ppl will appreciate me is when i'm gone.
  
• i can't please everybody.
• this feels like 2007
• ur thinking i'm crazy and depressive and have some issues.
• guess what. everyone has issues. but nobody listens.
• i need a hug. i really do :(
  

Well

So i haven't been updating as i should.... i better get to it... but i'm just really lazy... nothing exciting... even my hater has gone underground. maybe he's too busy... who knows...

aiyah...

till i'm not so lazy...

Its Been Ages

So its been ages since i blogged and since i'm just sitting aroudn at home i tot why not pen my thought down.

so many things have happened when since i last blogged. first of all i completed all my studies and finally said goodbye to my second home, Brisbane. it was bittersweet. ok la. it was just bitter. coming back to Singapore didn't feel good. i left behind a good life. i really did. i was happy. with my life, myself and in general i was happy back in brisbane.

but coming back here. its all so depressing. as much as i love Singapore where my family and frens are, i feel that i dun belong. i'm not comfortable here. i'm happy but not truly happy and content. if u read all my blog posts from when i was in Sg. its all so gloomy and depressing. but when i was in Brissy all my blog post seem abit more cheery and happier.

i guess the hectic and busy conformist lifestyle of singapore is not for me. i've said it countless times that u cannot be an individual in singapore. those taht do are shoved into the counter culture of singapore always potrayed as rebelling against the status quo. i commend these ppl who dare be themselves.

the view up someones nose muahahaha...

i yearn to go back. to finish up my Masters and to be happy i guess. but there are ties that bind me here to this little island. i can't just leave. haiz. dilemma. so i have come up wit a 5 year plan!! yes a five year plan!

• Work for a year and half or so in hopefully a museum. if not whatever i can find.
• go back to Brissy hopefully in 2011 to complete my Masters
• get a job in aussie in a museum or sumthing.

ok i realised that its only 3 points but its in the works... basically my main aim is to get back into uni in 2011. i feel that its abit wasted that i only did a Grad Cert. so masters it is!

i guess the only thing i can do now is to look forward and work on my goals. move forward kooky!! thats the only way u can go! i shall remember the fond memories i had of brisbane and hopefully that would give me the strength to carry on in this city i call home.

Hey Party People..

hey there, its been like what? almost a month since i last blogged. i dunno i seem to have lost the drive. its like the tide it comes and goes. so what has been going on my life since the last post? basically same ole same ole.

interesting fact taht all u see there are carrots, in various shades. originally carrots were white and purple and it was because of the House Of Orange-Nassau carrots became orange. just an interesting fact.

anyho back to me. hmm so far i've finished my studies and now just hanging around for the next couple of weeks before i go back to Singapore :(

i've started to like the love life here and the lifestyle and the freedom you enjoy. an one of the most important things i like about Brisbane (and maybe Australia in general) is the ability to express ur own individuality and just be urself. u could have tattoos and dreadlocks and still be working most jobs here. but not in singapore, where such forms of individual expression is frowned upon. even in dressing, people in singapore just wants to be like everyone else. which is fine but somehow gets abit boring. and i'm sure i've written about this soo many times but in Singapore people judge u more. people stare and makes comments about you secretly and sometimes not so secretly just coz u dare to be different, just coz u have a neck tattoo or just coz u dare to wear mismatched pair of socks. i'm sure it happens here in Brissy too but in Sg i feel it more. haiz. maybe its not such a good place to live after all.

but its where most of my frens are. and of course me family. i'll go back and see where the road leads me. well its back to the same feeling i had 1 and half years ago when i was leaving Sg to come here. the same sad bittersweet feling that i'm feeling now. i know i have to go but part of me doesn't. haiz. thats life i guess. every few years my life takes a complete new direction. it seems to be getting abit tiring. why can't i just stay and be comfortable and be happy for a long period of time? settle down? nice comfortable job that i like to do and that pays well. surrounded by people i love and whose company i enjoy. i'll be contented with that. but well... know how life is.. i'm sure that wouldn't happen or at least wun come so easily.

it will be a big step for me into the unknown. like stepping into the fog. oooh see how i made a pictoral reference!! *giggles* indeed i'll be finally be hopefully working. being an adult. voting. waking up at a set time in the morning everyday!! thats crazy. god, the very thought of joining the daily grid is frightening enough but i guess i need to grow up and be a responsible adult. i'll be honest. i'm scared. of not knowing what lies ahead especially at this point in my life. but hey gotta take the first step.

so far i'm optimistic. and so far things have been slowly falling into place. so yeah its looking good so far. hopefully the plans i have set out for myself will come to fruition. with a little help from me of course.

but for now i'm sayng my goodbyes to brisbane. a place and that i have come to love and where i have made some good frens. see ya in abit.