Today

Today is an off day thats why i can sit here and type at a leisurely pleasure. i hope. but anyways was supposed to be on off tomolo also but it was utterly wasted. thus wat else is new (u guys know wat i mean).. anyways here i am typing listening to music. wasting my life away (that is also my frens is not new) sigh...

anyways, i found a magical word, this word will shut most people yakkking... the magic word is OKAY. really try it... if someone is talking incessantly about something taht you don't want to hear or ur just tired of listening to it. just say okay and nod ur head. usually they stop talking. give taht "yeah i agree with you face". works for me. thats said now people will thinki nvr listen to them wen i say okay. yes i do but i disagree with you or think wat ur saying is silly. but i don't want to get in a quarrel with so i say okay to shut u up. i sound so mean. but then i am a bitch. so there. haha. Magic Word :Okay or Ok whichever you prefer.

This magic word came about from the conclusions that People are selfish creatures and there is nobody to help you but urself. let me explain.

People are selfish creatures
tihs a general observation of the human population. but i think this is true of all of us. we have our agenda and things to do. its all about us. we work is for us to spend money on us. or if you spend money on ur gf/bf its is to get them to show you their affection. we have sex for our own pleasure, to release our own sexual needs. we eat so we can live. we do things for other so that they may one day return the favour to help us. we dress up to get a nice mate so taht we are happy. i can go on and on about this and also i maybe wrong about this too.. its a gray area. i know not all of you are this way and also not all of you want to admit it but hey think about it. its stangely true that most things we do in life are for our own selfish needs. or i might be talking crap.

No one to help you expect yourself
except maybe NAtasha Bedingfield. her songs move me. at least she's kind enuff to lend her songs. and christina. ppl find help in the weirdest places.

you know ppl go one with life pretending. life is all about pretending. we pretend to be happy. we pretend to like our work. we pretend to like ourselves. we pretend when we know we would be happier with other things. we pretend because the truth hurts alot and takes too much time to set right. thus we go one with our lives pretending taht everything is alright. pretend pretend pretend.

with taht in mind i shall go on with my life pretending is happie yappie. really its much better taht way. don't have to stres yourself about things just pretend that all will be well and have blind optimism.

it seems i have just related the Buddhist teaching to my life. of the ego, the I, and how it rules our life. where everything is I I I, me, me,me. how we do not live in the real world but the world of illusion, of Maya. sad really taht nobody sees the truth. coz we are all busy pretending.