Those Who Are Truly The Best In What They Do

Do Not Seek Recognition

Be Humble

And

Accept Your Fate

Whatever It May Be

HAiyoh....

tis been a long time since i blogged... i guess i have no mood and time to blog.. and also the fact that i haven't gotten the fact that i have been posted to one of the most xiong units... i'm still in shock and think i am still going to be for quite some time in the future.... why is heaven so unfair? i must have done something in my past life... thats why i get to go to the most xiong unit...

like i studied alot for fuck? its like maybe they never take into consideration ur results.. me thinks they only take into the consideration your ability to "angkat buah"... suck up lah basically... which is true actually.... sucks man... i think i'm heading for a nervous breakdown....

i won't be around much coz i have to stay in... sucks.... so this blog won't be updated very often because for one i'm not at home blog and secondly i will have no fucking life... even if i have things to say, i can't coz wateva it is, it would be classified info... sucks....

i'm very sad and depressed.......

and no one will read this.... even more sad and depressing....

The land awash in endless sorrow

Brought by the pouring rain

I'll never know if i'll see tommorow

For you have brought me so much pain

There is so much i want to tell you

So much you need to know

But if these words leave my mouth

The answer would be no

BENCI!!!!!!!!!

ok i have issues... terrrible.... terrible things.. and they have to resurface now... i hate it....

I'm Back....

I have eaten and i watched more tv... hee hee... den began to make ketupats while watching tv... which is quite frustrating coz the coconut leaves are not the same width and they are short so i can't do it properly (i'm just a novice u see)... i shall leave it to dearest mother who has done it for many many more years than me...

ok nuff bout festive related occurances....
i have to mope... about stuff.... mopey mopey.... me....

HAPPIE DEEPAVALI!!!!!!!!!

yay! its deepavali... but didn't do much in the celebrating deepavali department... coz i woke up at 2 in the afternoon... and then vacuum my room... rearranged my plants and spruced them up.. help my mom change the cushion covers and did somemore random vacuuming... watched abit of tv and read the paper.. and phew.... i end up here.... loo dee doo...

actually i ha d nothing in particular to blog about cept the fact that i really had the urge to blog but i had nothing to blog about so here i am blogging about the urge to blog but having nothing to blog about... u get me?

ok time to get ready to break fast.. hehe....

Meditations.....

i have been deep in thought for the past few days.... i have come to the realisation that you can't cry over things that u don't have... also it is best to let go but u can't help urself sometimes to cling on to the hope that it might just work. can you? ah well such is life and the things that it throw at you... puzzled at what i'm talking bout.. well read between that lines dearies.... its such sadness.....

a wise monk on tv told me this.....

We Cannot Concern Ourselves With What Was,

We Must Concentrate With What Is....

on a brighter note..

i got my hair cut and the barber lady said my hair was funny... apparently my hair has moulded itself into a permanent mohawk ala Mr Beckham's fin... its like permanent... not that i'm complaining... it just that its a very weird thing to have ur hair in a permanent position... but still not complaining...

oh well Hari Raya is coming ! Whoop Dee Doo!... ermmm... i think thats all for this blog post... silly isn't it? toodles then taa taa cheerio!

Gloomy Sunday Madness...!!

oh i think i have gone crazy... as of this moment i have 4 different versions of Gloomy Sunday by 4 different ppl... its a bit obsessive dontcha think? but its such a pretty pretty song... worry not i won't be attempting any thing for now... so far i find the diamanda galas version more catchy-popish.... abit more upbeat... lets see if i can find more versions of Gloomy Soonday.......

Its So Depressing.......

One of my dear frens (oh u noe who u are) introduced this song to me... Gloomy Sunday... oh how true it is... its very gloomy in a beautiful way... so sad and depressing... confirm to make u depressed, chop with gurantee.... or at least make u feel abit sad... its abeautiful song... just don't kill urself over it... warning! not for ppl wit suicidal tendencies....

the sarah mclachaln version has a nicer melody and tune but u noe how Ms Mclachlan sings.. u can't really hear the words... so do try to hear the sarah brightman version... she has better diction...

and so alas after hearing Gloomy Sunday for a few times.. now i shall burn some candles and sit in the dark and think depressive thoughts.. maybe i'll paint my nails black... so depressing....

I'm Mourning....

My T.exserta just died.... and i fear for my T. festucoides & My T. ionantha... My T. streptophylla isn't looking too good either... if u already haven't guessed yet.. i'm talking bout my airplants.. it feels fucked up that one of my plants died and i hate it.. espcially those i had for along time... just last week, one of my jewel orchids has rotted away into oblivion... my Alocasia is looking abit pale and my Bodhi tree is saggy... how? how? how?... why oh why am i thrown into this botanical dilemma?!!? is it coz i am not home for the most part of the week to really look at my plants..? Do they miss me? sure my mom takes care of my plants but i don't think she really goes and scrutinize each and every plant like i would.... its very saddening... or maybe its coz of all the natural disasters that are going on and its screwing up the balance of nature? oh sadness.....

i shall paint my nails black and wear a veil.... and weep....

Quizzes!!! QUizzes!! Quizzez!!!!!

Girl Name: Czarina Batty

Guy Name:Father Vlad

*You have a heart
of solid coal*

You wish that you could
change your ways, even though you have done
nearly everything right. You try to hard to be
accepted by others.

What Is Your Goth Name?
brought to you by The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was arrogant, acting like the dictator of your life.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?



You're beautiful in so many different ways, but
your problem is that you don't realize it.
You're constantly putting yourself down and
don't really even listen to others when they
insistenly point out your good characteristics
to you. Listen to them next time, learn
something about yourself!




What Makes You Beautiful?
brought to you by How You Are In Love You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish.
You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?