Interesting clip from The West Wing....

i found this clip interesting...
the bible says that homosexuality is wrong...
but it also says that u can sell people into slavery and be put to death for working on the Sabbath...
and i'm not makign this up it is really written in the bible...

so ponder this interesting clip will ya...

I think my soul is Damaged

in the previous post i said that SG depresses me... but now i think its actually damaging my soul... lemme explain....

well before i left for my studies i was often sad and melancholy..well heck i might have been very well having bouts of depression.... having depressing thoughts about small things..insecure about myself and my abilities... oh yes i'm admiting it right here and now... i have problems and issues...

but when i left for aussie i sort of healed my soul... i became more confident and i think the word would be content with myself... i was smart and confident.. i didn't fret about what i wore... i wore what i wanted... i didn't worry that much about my weight... i was cool and i liked it...

i was happy....

but within days of coming back to my homeland the vibe of the country began to wear down the pillars of happiness and confidence that i built when i was in Aust. i began to worry about how i looked, was i too fat? look at everybody having nice leaned toned bodies.... smooth flawless skin... look at the couples enjoying their love. when is it my turn? whats wrong wif me? why can't i be in a relationship... thoughts like these flooded my mind for the past few days...

cumulating into a battle with my thoughts last night... boy did it last a long time... it seemed like hours... trying to hold back those negative thoughts from taking over my mind.. they are still there in the back of my head gnawing away at the walls of my soul....

The society in Sg is a shallow one..especially the one that i have catergorized myself into... in SG i'm not cool and interesting... no matter if i'm smart or can hold a conversation or make u laugh... if i don't go the gym, have nice arms, a good tan, short hair, V-shaped bod.... i am nothing... in people's eyes i'm jsut a strange person... nothing....

sad isn't it? this is how i see it... nothing has presented to me otherwise to change my mind...

i dare not go clubbing in Sg... i fear that it will destroy the last bits of my self esteem... all the bronzed gods strutting their stuff in their size 29 jeans... i can't take it...

is taht what it takes to get noticed? to trugde down to the Temple of Vanity a.k.a the Gym and work my ass off to get a somewhat nice body and get noticed? like seriously... is it? your body and ur youth can only take u so far....

oh so many thoughts to think over and i need to do alot of soulsearching.... maybe instead of building walls to shiled myself and should just embrace it and be destroyed utterly and completly... but rising again stronger and better equipped?

in the still of the night i face myself in battle... for the survival of my soul....

Singapore Depresses Me

well my dears i am back... although taht in itself is not much reason for celebration.

i came back well knowing that my boredom in Brisbane would acoompany me here to Singapore...and yes my worst fear has come true.. now on hindsight maybe i shouldn't have come back.. maybe i should have jsut stayed in Brisbane in the heat.

well the thing is.. the frens u hung out wif before u left for ur studies have replaced the time that they spent wit you wit sumthing else in ur absence... geddit? like u used to hang out wit them on fri night. but when ur gone there is a missing chunk so they replaced it with sumthing else... like oh work or studies or just other frens... so when u come back its hard for them to make time for you. geddit?

oh and after living abroad for a good part o the year and experiencing the Aussie No Worries lifestyle the general vibe of Singapore depresses me...its so doom and gloom. everybody is soo moody and tired looking and haggard. the general mood of Singapore is WORK WORK WORK.. and that goes hand in hand with MONEY MONEY MONEY...

its depressing i tell you. people try to be happy but they look so tired from work. so so tired. its makes me depressed.

i understand now why people wanna live overseas. Singapore has everything but it lacks life and after tasting wat life really is... Singapore doesn't seem like the best option to live in. ah well...

thats life....

The Real Hakim Has Returned

Well if ur wondering who is Hakim...well thats me... lol... and i'm coming back...

anyways the moment that i hav been waiting for has arrived....

I'M FINALLY RETURNING HOME FROM AUSSIELAND.... BROKE BUT I'M COMING HOME!!!
WHHOOOOOOPPPEEEEEE!!!!!!

remember there is only one me and i'm coming back... so make way and clear the streets!!!

coz Kooky Plum is coming to Town!

So...

so the aforementioned moment of complete boredom has dawned on me and i bring you this post as a result of that...


so what has been happening to me of late... lets see i have graduated.. thus i am now a graduate whooppee dee doo... and also the parental units and my brother came down for it and had a little holiday.. in which we drove up and down the coast both sunny and gold coast... coz u know there is nothing much to do in the immediate area of brisbane anyways..


the highlight of the trip would have to be the trip down to see the Glow worms down at Springbrook National Park... which is way down south of brisbane near the border to NSW.. anyways i tell you i t was magical.. truly magical.... its like wow... if u are ever in the queensland go and see the gloworms.... or if ur in New Zealand or NSW or anywhere that has Gloworms go see them... Glow Worms Rock! and the dude even passed me some glowing fungi.... which at this point of time is not glowing anymore. but who cares!! there was glowing fungi!!! or mushrooms!! but technically there were no mushrooms just fungi but lets not get into the technicalities.... jsut note that the leaf litter was glowing... UBER KOOL CAN....

so after my parents left.... have been bumming wit J and JX.... and doing stuff getting fat and watch movie like Twilight...

which btw is an alright movie not fantastic but alright... the only reason to watch Twilight is Edward Cullens and Jasper Hale... u listen to the skools of giggly girl laughing every 10 secs at things which are not even funny... just coz they are so cute...

but i wanna have sparkly shimmering skin like the vampires although i don't want to be one.. like wahlao cannot eat man.. only blood... thats crazy... i love food too much and never sleeping... thats crazy too.. i love sleeping alone or otherwise.... so taht my 2 cents on Twilight...

so big news is.... i went to DIAC and i got my visa B which means i ca leave the country which means i'm officially coming home!! woo hooo.... yeah la all u kids who came home before me all stale already rite... but its my turn to be excited wheeeeeeeeee....

so i'm coming home finally after like days!!! more than 200 days!!!!thats crazy!!!! yes very excited although i think i will be bored in singapore just as how i'm bored here.... like ppl will be busy to hang out wit me... so i'll be bored la...

but who cares i'm coming home... whoopeee....

Hullo

if anyone cares there will be a mega post coming soon...

just have to wait until i'm bored enuff to type out a post... which i think will happen very soon lol..

so anyways... umm nothing la... lol