How Stupid Of Me....

how stupid and naive can i be to think that everything has turned out for the better... i am an idiot... i shouldn't have said anything at all... i should have just keep my trap shut.. thats how the universe works u see.. once u say something the opposite will happen.. especially to bad/unlucky things... stupid stupid.... i need guidance...

the person i need is Nanny McPhee.... no seriously.. i need such a person... i am actually kinda lost right now... i dunno wat to do... and i dunno who to turn to.... sadz... nothing too serious i'm not suicidal or anyything... i'm just lost...

PS: i've removed the tagboard coz its of no use... lets face the facts, no one ever uses it... most of the time its me thats using the tagboard how silly is that..? thats just goes to show how much of a sociopath/loner i am..... u can keep ur comments to urself...

I Can't Live... Living Is Without You...!!!!!!

no i'm not going thru a break up silly...its just that i'm listening to that song right now... hahaha...

glad to say that things are getting better... the new guys are taking some of the workload and lotsa shit has been cleared.. so abit less stressed.... but i still need to have a moral boosting talk with them.. they are/seem quite stressed themselves (i guess they hav not snapped back to reality, trust me it takes a few months)... . that is once i get them all in one place... how hard is it to get 3 people together in one place at one time.... quite hard i must say, seeing that they keep going for off.... but hey they deserve the off..... noq i need to get mine.. speaking of that if ur wondering why i am here typing this on a thurs afternoon... well i myself is on off... wahahaha...


k k gotta go and watch as much tv as i can....

Oh How life iS....

Sometimes i think that life is sorta unfair to me.. ok more like really unfair.. for example ATP range and duties... and all the arrows... i've been tired lately... yes i noe i have been complaining of myself being tired alot lately but really i am... i have not have proper rest for the past 3 week or so... i need to sleep till 10 at least... goodness.. i need to shut up.. and sleep.. but people would not let me sleep! arrgghh!!!!!! and pls stop asking me if i am in charge of the new medics.. i am just looking out for them since i see nobody giving them much thought... am i being too nice? really am i? is it wrong to show them around make them feel accepted? i feel out of place... now i'm bring alienated... so sue me for being concerned and worried.. i am the type who would worry alot but then again also the type that believes in fairies and unicorns and ultimately everything will turn out fine.... i am such a big freaking contradiction... so i can safely declare myself to be suffering frm a Quarter Life Crisis.. i have not seen most of my frens in over a month especially my best fren whom i have not contacted for all this while.. i think she moved on... i have not gone out jalan jalan for over 3 weeks... and even if i do i would most probably go alone.. i am turning out to be such a loner.... an anti social freak... cannot lah... i wear a porcelain mask with a permanent smile painted on.. it could crack and then people would see how ugly i can be.... my right hand hurts frm doing gardening, which i have been neglecting for the few weeks... all my plants are in such bad shape.... i have been neglecting them as i have been neglecting my frens... i just have not much time... no time to practice sitar... how can u be good at music if u don't practice? life in general is fucked up... i used to get angry but now its sort of a gradual acceptance of how fucked up my life is... they say army either makes u or breaks u... i guess its breaking me slowly...............

Oh For Goodness Sake...

Oh For Goodness Sake (twice for the effect).... i saw a chinese lady wit hairy legs and she was wearing a mini skirt... oh most probably she didn't have any pants to wear or ran out of Veet or sumthing....

in other news...

shit has been happeneing and its a continuing process... much like diahorrea... continous shit... it has erupted.. ppl have started noticing that i'm not my usual perky self.. well folks that true... shit happens....

but lets be optimistic for once.... let see it this way..

Baya Don't Worry.

In Life, People Learn New Things Everyday

as told by a indian salesperson at mustafa (words of wisdom i must say)

also:

We Learn From Our Mistakes

lets hope for the best......

hi there... life is mundane and boring wif nothing to look forward to.. thus there is nothing to blog about.. so whoever who happens to stumble on this blog, sorry there is nothing to read but do feel free to read about the fun and quirky person that i used to be...