Well skool has started… oh I should say Uni has started. Some course are tough and some are not. Oh my especially Plant Molecular Biology… its terrible really… I dunno wats going on and vaguely understand wat the professor is talking about…. I should be able to catch up after some intense reading… hahahha…. Other than that nothing exciting…. Made new acquaintances, not really frens (coz apparently I don’t have any.. hahha) I just met them once or twice in class and made general chit chat…. Maybe as the week go by it will get better…
Oh my god… I cooked the most delicious meal today for myself, since my housemate is gallivanting dunno where… so I’m left to my own devices… so I made myself rosemary lemon chicken. Woots! It look really nice and taste not bad. I sautéed some tomatoes and mushrooms and capsicums and baked some wedges… I kinda liked it… look too pretty to eat but then I was really hungry so I munched it all up…it was delicious…
Life here is pretty boring especially since I don’t have internet and I don’t have cable tv so its kinda boring. Yes I know I’m supposed to be study but I don’t really have the mood. It is only the first week but there is a lot of reading to be done and I’m sure that people hav already borrowed all the books that I need. Its really freaky wen u got to the library and see people furiously studying and making notes. And I don’t even know where to begin. Its really scary actually. Its only the first week ley…
I should get into full swing by next week and be reall geeky and all that...I have this really big lab session next week and I need to do a great deal of reading or I should say research since I’m all Uni student and everything.
In another exciting bit of news. I joined a pilates class. I’m really excited about that. I was contemplating between yoga and pilates. And since I did yoga before I chose pilates. Coz I’ve never done it before. That quite logical isn’t it? Yeah it is hahaha. But the thing is, it only starts like in 2 weeks time so it’s a matter of waiting.
Life in uni is pretty much the same as in poly except that people take their studies really and I mean really seriously.Like I said before its scary.
So I’ve often wonder wats been happening in Singapore while I’m here. Like how my frens are and how my family is. All I know is some strange person is leaving silly comments on my blog. Which is interesting I guess coz it generates buzz around my blog and I know someone reads my blog. Even though he hates my very being at least he reads it so he can cringe and leave rude comments on my blog. Ah such is the price of fame. Hahaha.
I really don’t know who he is and it amuses me so that I have someone who hates me to the core for reasons I do not know. Jealousy? I don’t think so. Who wouldbe jealous of me? Crazy. Just coz I’m a loser? Apparently that’s the reason he hates me coz I’m a loser. And he has too much free time on his hands to leave comments on my blog. Maybe he himself has no fren? Oh so many questions. I should just let him be. If it makes him happy to leave comments on my blog, I shall just let him be. This is his chance to say all these things about me coz I’m not in Singapore to hunt him down so I will let him be.
Well other than that. Umm I dunno nothing much is going on. Everyday is waking and going to classes and walking. Boy there is a lot of walking but other than that it’s the little things like going grocer shopping and getting emails from my frens. Yes frens. Well ok time to sleep coz I have a 8 o clock class.
So I went to Brisbane and now I’m here. It was kind of a blur really from the airport and now I’m here unpacking my stuff. Strange really.
As expected there was drama at the airport but I kept it to a minimum. Thank u all those who came. Especially you. You know who u are. I got to see u for one last time before I left. Ok maybe I’m going thru aphase. Haha. But still that’s how I feel.
i cannot believe that I’m here sitting at my lappytop typing this. It still hasn’t settled in yet, the fact that I’m here for my degree. I’m sure after I get a good rest and it will sort of settle in. but even now I feel time dragging on very very slowly. Maybe its because I have nothing to do except laze around and unpack my things and trying to make my room feel like home. And I really wonder to myself how am I to survive 10 months of this solitude.
But I must have positive thinking rite? If not I would just die here. So I thought to myselfthat wen skool starts, its gonna go by in an instant. It would pass by so fast I wouldn’t realize it. I would make new frens blah blah and be immersed in my studies and well it will pas by in A blink of an eye so to speak.
It just one day and the things I miss most are:
·My family, my mom especially… haha yes mama’s boy.
·My frens. I miss “people” watching man at Paragon la. Although there is much more eye candy here, I need my frens to bitch wit. Haiz. Miss you loads.
·The frigging Internet. Oh my god how much this show that I’m addicted to the net. I want my MSN la. But then this being Aussie it take a long time to do anything so I will be without internet for a week. (by the time of this posting I would already hav internet)
·Singapore in general. Seriously having issue aren’t i? it just one freaking day hahaha.
Well keep telling myself that wen skool starts it will be better for now I’ll just bum around and get fat hopefully my internet would be up and running by next week. Which is by the way orientation week.
CAN’T WAIT FOR SKOOL TO START AND ASSIGNMENTS TO KEEP ME BUSY!!!
Trying to have positive thinking!!!
February 14th 2008 Thursday
Basically today was a day of bumming. I woke up quite late and watch dvds and show on the laptop of my housemate. How fun. I took a nap in the afternoon and did a little bit of cleaning up and packing. It seems that I’m abit blur still about thing coz I really don’t remember where I put certain things. Still I guess haven’t quite gotten used to my room. Which take time I guess.
We all went out to dinner to this little Italian pizzeria and boy it was good. Also insane coz 4 of us ate like 2 large pizzas which had to use 2 tables instead of one coz it couldn’t fit. But the thing was we almost finished it and only left a few bits here and there. I’m so proud of myself.
Oh and I still haven’t gotten my internet yet but I went to my frens house which had internet and I got to relieve some of my addiction. YAY! I managed to talk to the Psychic Fig. I miss u guys man. We had a really good chat and I didn’t wanna go to sleep and I only slept at around 5am Aussie time. Hahaha. It was really nice talking to him again.
Happy Valentines Day I guess.
February 15th 2008 Friday
Today had so many things done. But I only had like 4 hours of sleep. Bloody tired as I type this post.
Anyways like I said. I got a lot of things done. Well at least wat I could possibly do at that moment in time. Coz there isn’t much thing I could do. I opened my bank account and managed to enroll in a few course which I think I would drop coz I just did that so I can get my student card. Which….
I couldn’t et today coz it takes 24 to process and well tomolo is Saturday and they don’t work on Saturday. Means that I hav to join the throngs of International Students on Monday to get it done. Silly. Exactly the thing I wanted to avoid and well I put myself rite smack into it. At least I don’t have to queue for the bank on Monday coz that’s just crazy.
I’m excited that I enrolled for this Religios Languages. Wat u might say? Me doing religious languages? Well it not exactly religion but rather it about the languages that are used in religions. Mainly Arabic and Sanskrit and all that jazz. Which I think is quite interesting. Well just hav to survive the weekend and everything will be moving along smoothly. Coolest beans!
I really hope to get my internet done quickly. Gosh. Seriously.
February 16th 2008 Saturday
Today I have to say is the SERIOUSLY MOST BORING Day. I could die seriously. Very dry post really.
Basically today I had to wake up uber early coz the painter was coming to paint the doors. So I had to be around to like open the door and I had to leave it open for him to paint it and also to leave it to dry. So I woke up at 7 and waited for him till 9. After he painted the doors I couldn’t close them for 2 hours. Thus I had to sit and watch tv for the whole morning and u could say I was watching paint dry. How sad is that.
Den I cooked my first meal in Australia, fried some eggs and sausages and had a simple salad and some bread. It was alright aye. I cleaned my bathroom sink!! Haha yes! Now I have a really white sink! Watched tv for a few more hours and wanted to take a nap but my fren came over and we watched tv. At this point of time I still don’t hav internet. I was so freaking tired that I feel asleep at the sofa while my fren was watching TV. Soon after he left. I guess coz I wasn’t much entertainment coz I was sleeping I guess.
So I proceeded into my room to read a magazine and took a short nap. Till 5-ish. And woke up and watched tv and feel asleep while the TV was still on. Goodness gracious. Made dinner which was some instant noodle thing. And watched even more tv.Terrible man.
My housemate came home and we watched even more TV!!!!! Till like midnight and here I am typing this now.
SUPER UBER BORING DAY. Basically rotting like nobody’s business. I had a few phone conversations in between which by the way is seriously eating up my credits I may need to recharge my credits like next week maybe. Terrible.
At least I hope I can sleep well tonight and wake up abit later. And I’m going to Chinatown to be feel Asian. Hahaha. Not really. We’re going there to go to the market but we’re lazy to wake up early and apparently Chinatown market is
Open till quite late. Anyways school is starting real soon. Which I am very excited about. And its only a day away. HOORAY.
Need Internet NOW!
17th February 2008 Sunday
Well today I went o ChinaTown down at FortitudeValley or Brunswick St. I dunno maybe it could be the same thing. I’m confused. Anyways we went to the market there. Nothing special la. Just some small things here and there.
OhOh. I bought myself a VENUS FLYTRAP! How kool right. Yay I always wanted one and no w I can have one. At least for the next 10 months or so. Hahha. Long enuff. I loves it. Apparently wen I bought it it already has like 4 or 5 traps closed wit flies! Can u believe it. Power la my plant.
And I bought some more random pieces of junk. Which I love. I love junk. And we went to eat at this Indian place which has got some of the best thosai in Brizzie. I mean its really good. The best it could get to the Singapore ones. Yummy I like.
Anyways we got back and bummed and realized that our fridge died on us. How can rite? The house has issues so fast. Seriously whacked man. So in the middle of the night we had to go a frens house and put our perishables in her fridge. Terrible. Tomolo Mantha is going to call the agent woman. We need our fridge!!!
Anyways I hav to wake up early to go to ORIENTATION. Yay! Can’t wait. Ok off to sleep now.
Its finally D-Day... Not B-Day, which would kooler coz den there would be Beyonce singing... but anyways, its D-Day....
oh well it will be my last entry for now until i get settled down in the land down under. nothing much to say anymore well just a few songs to keep you entertained.
Taylor Swift _ TearDrops On My Guitar my fren referred this song to me. in the beginning i didn't want to listen to it coz well...nvm.. but then i listened to it and well how true its is... its ok i'm good at waiting...
.......He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right.....I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night..... .....He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar.....The Only one who's got enough of me to break my heart.....
-SIGHS-
John Denver - Leaving On A Jet Plane Well wat travelling blog post would be complete without the mandatory song from John Denver... the Original singer mind you... not Chantal Kre (can't recall her name).... So listen to a classic song... w00ts!!!
Well I'm off..... and to the anonymous commentor: I'm off Bitch.... i really would like to know who u are actually..... but oh well... not daring enuff i guess... dare to say but dare not tell me who u really are.. i'm the loser ur the pussy then....
Oh No No... I'm not leaving this blog.... Its time for me to leave for Australia for my STUDIES.... Yes my dear frens the time has finally come for me to leave on a jet plane....
I'll be back though hopefully by the end of this year... So yeah goodbye Singapore i guess... Idunno if i have done wat i wanted to do before i leave.... i dunno its really doesn't matter anymore... I have no time left....
U know i think i really really expected abit too much from people... i really thought that people were going to be spending time with me and all that before i left but then who am i kidding? spend time wit me? u must be joking.... haiz... oh well thats life i guess....
Umm i guess i'll just post songs to say how i feel.... not much into typing nowadays....
Carrie Underwood - Don't Forget To Remember Me
Eighteen years had come and gone For momma they flew by But for me they drag on and on We were loading up that Chevy Both tryin' not to cry Momma kept on talking Putting off good-bye Then she took my hand and said Baby don't forget
Before you hit the highway You better stop for gas There's a 50 in the ashtray In case you run short on cash Here's a map and here's a bible If you ever lose your way
Just one more thing before you leave Don't forget to remember me
This downtown apartment sure makes me miss home And those bills there on the counter Keep tellin' me I'm on my own And just like every Sunday I called momma up last night And even when it's not, I tell her everything's alright Before we hung up I said Hey momma, don't forget To tell my baby sister I'll see her in the fall And tell mee-maw that I miss her Yeah, I should give her a call And make sure you tell Daddy that I'm still his little girl Yeah I still feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be Don't forget to remember me
Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray I haven't done this in a while So I don't know what to say but Lord I feel so small some times in this big ol' place Yeah I know there are more important things, but Don't forget to remember me Don't forget to remember me
Dreamgirls - One Night Only
You want all my love and my devotion You want my loving soul right on the line I have no doubt that I could love you forever The only trouble is, you really don't have the time You've got one night only, one night only That's all you have to spare One night only, let's not pretend to care One night only, one night only Come on big baby come on One night only, we only have 'til dawn In the morning this feeling will be gone It has no chance going on Something so right has got no chance to live So let's forget about chances, this one night I will give One night only one night only ull be the only one One night only then ull have to run One night only one night only theres nothing more to say One night only words get in the way One night only One night only One night only
Nawal Al Zoghbi - Akher Marra (The Last Time)
My lover, It's the last time I meet you...آخر مرة ح أقابلك فيها and you'll never see me after thatو لا ح تشوفني خلاص بعديها I promise you that I'll leave you forever... أوعدك إني ح أسيبك خالص and I'll leave everything about you and go onورا ظهري حكايتك أرميها
My lover, I can't handle it anymore...يا حبيبي أنا فاض بيا كفايا It's very hard for me to go on with youالسكة معاك صعب أمشيها And if I'm calling you "my lover" now, it's the last time I call youthis way...My loverإن كنت بقولك يا حبيبي آخر مرة أندهلك بيها
It's very hard for me to leave at this point...صعبان عليّا يا حبيبي اللي إحنا وصلنالو But this is the one and only solutionده حل أخير و مفيش حل بدالو
If you have any excuses, keep them to yourself...لو عندك أعذار وفرها This is the end, and you made me choose itدي نهاية و خليتني أخترها I can't go on, I can't suffer anymore..لا ح كمّل و لا قادرة أتحمل and I have nothing else to loseمش فاضل حاجة ثانية أخسرها
well there nothing much i can say really but THANKS I GUESS FOR ALL THE WELL WISHES AND GIFTS...
so wat has been happening in my life u ask? well let me tell you....
ok so i had this grand aspirations for this post... i wanted write about many things but then i realise its was not worth it... why go re write it down only to relive the hurt again? as long as i know the details its enuff...
instead i will post a song! yay a song .. it pretty much sums up wat was the major thing that was going on in my life... its an arab song and i posted it before but i didn't really think it would happen to me. hah. the translations pretty much sums it up. although we were nvr lovers but the chorus part pretty much sums it up. listen la its a nice song.
You dont want us to stay lovers And never stay away from each other You want me to be ur freind And lie to my melting heart you are unfair and u know The pain i feel when your're far away from me Tell me my love And i'll accept my fate If you let me know what you wish for
CHORUS Because of you i started to hiding The love i have in my heart Pretending that i'm indifferent Not caring not concerned Acting like a friend to you Constantly asking how you are doing Feeling secure that you are near And not troubling you with my love
Your love had me running after you And made me lose my self It made me follow you everywhere But it did not take me, nor did it let me go
You are so selfish Oh my love try to forget me My heart hardens And it can forget The days we were lovers.
i dunno.. thinking back i think i was insane la.... maybe its was easier to live a lie... at least u don't feel so loserish after the truth comes out... so many "why this" and " why that" and "whats wrong wit me" that needs to be answered.
but thinking again... we will never learn and grow if we don't experience such things such as hurt and rejection. i guess its a good thing. ok i'm trying to look at the positive here and trying not to fall into a state of rejection induced depression. but its ok i'll survive.. i always do.
anyways i'm not angry at anyone. even if i was, i would be dissappointed and angry at myself... why? well that shall not be posted here... if not i'll look like a loser. oh wait i already am. sighs.
u know i think my curse is that i understand to much. i understand why people do the things they do and react the way they do. I'M TOO FREAKING UNDERSTANDING. sometimes i wish i didn't understand so many things. maybe life would be less painful.
its like u understand why but u still feel the pain. understanding does not make it go away. in fact it makes it worse. sighs.
u know the universe has always some cruel tricks up its galaxy filled sleeves. this week i am very very very very very very very very very very very fucking free. but i have this strange feeling that i'm going to stay home this week. just this strange feeling that i will. people cancelling on me. and not being free.
and pls. if i don't want to go out wit you. please get the hint.
Ok This is my FIRST POST of the new year.... well it took me 20 days to start blogging again. Haven't been in the mood to blog. sorry. but den again i'm sure i wasn't missed much anyways so....
So wat have i been doing in the start of the new year? well same ole same ole.... working like a MAD person and intereacting wit the kids which i s always fun...
other than that i have been doing alot and i mean alot of serious soul searching... coz i watched Oprah, yes i watch Oprah... well anyways this particular episode was about this book.. EAT, PRAY, LOVE by Elizabeth Gilbert...
its about the author's journey of self discovery. From her divorce she starts her journey, spending 4 months in Italy EATING..... 4 Months in India PRAYING... and lastly 4months in Bali LOVING...
I guess it was meant to be that this book came into my life.. i sinply love it. and i gained alot of inspiration to improve my own inner self. and because of the book i did 2 things that i wouldn't do normally to 2 people i care about alot in my life. it 2 good things if u were wondering. and i feel lighter and less choked. it was as though i had been set free and felt light as a feather. of course i cannot divulge wat transpired between me and these 2 people. that my dear readers is for me to know. hee hee.
Her book is amazing. full of simple little lessons. mind you it is not a guide book but instead more of a journal or diary.... basically its simply WONDERFUL AND MAGICAL....
my favourite piece of advice is from the Balinese Medicine Man, Ketut Liyer, who tells us how to meditate and attract happy energies....
SIT AND SMILE.... SMILE EVEN FROM YOUR LIVER.....
wat wonderful advice is that... just sit and smile....
Also this morning i watched this MTV on well... umm MTV.... yes i know its kinda old but i loves loves loves the song BLEEDING LOVE by Leona Lewis....LOVES!
Trying hard not to hear But they talk so loud Their piercing sounds fill my ears Try to fill me with doubt Yet I know that the goal Is to keep me from falling
I find it funny that songs fall into my life and they sing exactly wat i'm going thru... funny how the world works eh? well... till next time....
This is a special post as it spans 2 years..... 2007 to 2008.....
well i dunno wat the hype about new years is about... i feel the significance but i do not get the urge to party and usher the new year wit a bang.... is it another excuse for us to escape our pathetic lives and pretend for that one glorious moment taht we are carefree and oh so glamorous?
maybe....
to me the crossing of a new year is always bittersweet. memories of people and experiences of the year gone past. never to be re-lived again. but also the curiosity that is inherent in all of us of wat is to come for the new year. ah 2008 wat will u hav in store for me? love? perhaps? that i wish more than anything else. but i fear if i wished for something to hard and too much. i might not get it. well another year of wishful thinking it seems.
Resolutions
i thought hard and well about my resolutions for the new year. i hav a few in mind but i fear i might not be able to fulfil them, as with the resolutions of many years gone past. still i shall write them down. its tradition after all. as i was explaining to B.Bunee..... It is tradition for us to write New Years Resolutions and then we keep them for a year and never fulfil them. isn't that the fun and point of it all?
So this New Years Resolution for Year 2008 goes as follows.
To have all those superficial and shallow people fall for me and grovel at my feet. well how i do it? well that shall be a suprise.....
To get a degree. i must work on this. if my melancholia persists than i fear i might not be able too.
To return back to Singapore a new and improved person. World weary and hopefully wiser.
Seek Love. Haiz.......
Well that is enuff i guess. to keep me occupied for the next year. hopefully i'll survive and hopefully i'll be the same person although i highly doubt it. oh well we all grow and change.
Well my frens it is time for my RetroSpect 2007... time to reflect wat i hav done for the past freaking year... as i sit here listening to my Arab Pop Songs.... i shall think back on 2007...
oh btw i have not achieved any of my new years resolution that i set for myself for this year.. hahaha. well i think i haven't but i can't judge my self can i?
So anyway to summarize 2007 has been a year of change and new experiences but then again which year isn't?
January to March: Lets see. can't remember much actually about the beginning part of the year except that it was in preperation for Taiwan coz we had ATEC. my life is still very much immersed in army at this point of time.
April To June: CAme back from Taiwan which was an experience.. althugh couldn't give a damn coz i was gonna ORD soon in June. So came back and bum here and there did this and that... Made new CLOSE frens. And den i ORD-ed!!! W00ts!! i made the decision to join MAAD
July to September: SERIOUS BUMMING TIME. for me that is.... went on holidays.... and bummed for like 3 moths. WTF rite? i finally started back work at good old Kumon in August and also my first time @ MAAD.. which begins my love affair wit MAAD. also the start of my melancholia on my birthday.
October to December: Somewhere here i feel in love or at least i wished it to be.. but then it wasn't mutual. ah thats life eh? so we move on wit the heartache. and no i won't kill myself and i'm fine. the last 3 months hav been like blah. besides working and doing MAAD nothing much has been happening. things stagnating and preparing for my move to AUSTRALIA.
So it brings me here to the end of 2007... the time wen the world gets MORE FUCKED UP. people PRETENDING TO BE ENVIRONMENTAL AND GREEN juz coz its THE IN THING. oh well to me 2007 is full of melancholia nd sadness... to the world and to my life in general... hopefully 2008 will be better... although i don't think it will....
Lost Love... Changes.... We All Must Grin and Bear It....
Britney Spears - YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY
Everytime I look at you My heart is jumpin, what can I do?.... .....You drive me crazy I just can't sleep.....
Ah don't we just love Miss Britney Spears.....
Sidenote: if u haven't caught on by now..... all the songs i post on my blog are connected to my life. the lyrics often sings the song of my life.... hee hee.... mysterious eh? blah...
Today i met up wit my poly mates and we had a christmas gift exchange! and i got chocolates..... that is a good thing coz CHOCOLATES ARE BETTER THAN SEX!!!!!.... ok fine that remains to be proven but its freaking chocolates and not any ordinary chocolates.... its Ferrero Roche (is that how u spell it?) and Belgium Seashell Chocolates... Gosh I HEARTS HEARTS Seashell Chocs!!
So Happy.... as of this point of time i already finished the box of seashell chocs... whoops! also i have been listening to alot of Britney Spears.... Oh my who does not like Britney? if u Don't like her u must be crazy.... She is an icon! and heer songs rocks.... so wat if she has gone all bonkers .... she still rocks! big time! Britney, KookyPlum Hearts You... Wahahahahahaha.... So Here is her song OVERPROTECTED.... I loves this song... i decided not to post a sappy song coz my fren says its bad karma... hah so here is an empowerment song! BooYaaa....
btw its the DarkChild Remix!!
What am I to do with my life(You will find it out don't worry) How am I supposed to know what's right(You just got to do it your way) I can't help the way I feel But my life has been so overprotected
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