Crossing Over

This is a special post as it spans 2 years..... 2007 to 2008.....

well i dunno wat the hype about new years is about... i feel the significance but i do not get the urge to party and usher the new year wit a bang.... is it another excuse for us to escape our pathetic lives and pretend for that one glorious moment taht we are carefree and oh so glamorous?

maybe....

to me the crossing of a new year is always bittersweet. memories of people and experiences of the year gone past. never to be re-lived again. but also the curiosity that is inherent in all of us of wat is to come for the new year. ah 2008 wat will u hav in store for me? love? perhaps? that i wish more than anything else. but i fear if i wished for something to hard and too much. i might not get it. well another year of wishful thinking it seems.

Resolutions

i thought hard and well about my resolutions for the new year. i hav a few in mind but i fear i might not be able to fulfil them, as with the resolutions of many years gone past. still i shall write them down. its tradition after all. as i was explaining to B.Bunee..... It is tradition for us to write New Years Resolutions and then we keep them for a year and never fulfil them. isn't that the fun and point of it all?

So this New Years Resolution for Year 2008 goes as follows.

• To have all those superficial and shallow people fall for me and grovel at my feet. well how i do it? well that shall be a suprise.....
• To get a degree. i must work on this. if my melancholia persists than i fear i might not be able too.
• To return back to Singapore a new and improved person. World weary and hopefully wiser.
• Seek Love. Haiz.......

Well that is enuff i guess. to keep me occupied for the next year. hopefully i'll survive and hopefully i'll be the same person although i highly doubt it. oh well we all grow and change.

Happy Fucking New Year 2008!!

To A Worse Year Yet!!!

RetroSpect 2007

Well my frens it is time for my RetroSpect 2007... time to reflect wat i hav done for the past freaking year... as i sit here listening to my Arab Pop Songs.... i shall think back on 2007...

oh btw i have not achieved any of my new years resolution that i set for myself for this year.. hahaha. well i think i haven't but i can't judge my self can i?

So anyway to summarize 2007 has been a year of change and new experiences but then again which year isn't?

January to March: Lets see. can't remember much actually about the beginning part of the year except that it was in preperation for Taiwan coz we had ATEC. my life is still very much immersed in army at this point of time.

April To June: CAme back from Taiwan which was an experience.. althugh couldn't give a damn coz i was gonna ORD soon in June. So came back and bum here and there did this and that... Made new CLOSE frens. And den i ORD-ed!!! W00ts!! i made the decision to join MAAD

July to September: SERIOUS BUMMING TIME. for me that is.... went on holidays.... and bummed for like 3 moths. WTF rite? i finally started back work at good old Kumon in August and also my first time @ MAAD.. which begins my love affair wit MAAD. also the start of my melancholia on my birthday.

October to December: Somewhere here i feel in love or at least i wished it to be.. but then it wasn't mutual. ah thats life eh? so we move on wit the heartache. and no i won't kill myself and i'm fine. the last 3 months hav been like blah. besides working and doing MAAD nothing much has been happening. things stagnating and preparing for my move to AUSTRALIA.

So it brings me here to the end of 2007... the time wen the world gets MORE FUCKED UP. people PRETENDING TO BE ENVIRONMENTAL AND GREEN juz coz its THE IN THING. oh well to me 2007 is full of melancholia nd sadness... to the world and to my life in general... hopefully 2008 will be better... although i don't think it will....

Lost Love... Changes.... We All Must Grin and Bear It....



Britney Spears - YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY

Everytime I look at you
My heart is jumpin, what can I do?....
.....You drive me crazy
I just can't sleep.....

Ah don't we just love Miss Britney Spears.....

Sidenote: if u haven't caught on by now..... all the songs i post on my blog are connected to my life. the lyrics often sings the song of my life.... hee hee.... mysterious eh? blah...

Next post new years Resolutions!!!!!

Gift Exchange!!!!

Today i met up wit my poly mates and we had a christmas gift exchange! and i got chocolates.....
that is a good thing coz CHOCOLATES ARE BETTER THAN SEX!!!!!.... ok fine that remains to be proven but its freaking chocolates and not any ordinary chocolates.... its Ferrero Roche (is that how u spell it?) and Belgium Seashell Chocolates... Gosh I HEARTS HEARTS Seashell Chocs!!

So Happy.... as of this point of time i already finished the box of seashell chocs... whoops!

also i have been listening to alot of Britney Spears.... Oh my who does not like Britney? if u Don't like her u must be crazy.... She is an icon! and heer songs rocks.... so wat if she has gone all bonkers .... she still rocks! big time! Britney, KookyPlum Hearts You... Wahahahahahaha.... So Here is her song OVERPROTECTED.... I loves this song... i decided not to post a sappy song coz my fren says its bad karma... hah so here is an empowerment song! BooYaaa....

btw its the DarkChild Remix!!



What am I to do with my life(You will find it out don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right(You just got to do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

Christmas

well christmas means nothing me coz i don't celebrate it. hah. nuff said.

been feeling my old fren melancholia alot lately.... maybe its the festive season and that why the reason for depression...maybe its the cheer in the air or happiness that is festering around... and people hav been asking me wat they can do to make me feel better....sigh if only it were that simple...

for wat i want is something u cannot give me.

and we all know wat that is...don't we? and if u dunno don't ask so much...

and also since i'm in the mood for italic/thoughts type of writing....

I got tired of waiting.
i give up.
i also read the little subtle signs.
and now i know wat i must do.
i must break my heart into a million pieces.
and from those pieces rebuild a heart of stone and ice.
but somehow my heart wishes not to be broken.
which makes it even more painful to bear.
i cling on to a thing called hope.
wishing it to be true.
yet knowing it is not.
sighs.

So DRAMA rite....

anyways today is christmas and in a week or so...2007 will end... ahhh i must write my retrospect! shall think of it now...in the meantime enjoy ur holidays...

Fair As the Moon

Today as i was sitting in the lrt, i noticed something when i happened to glance down at my hands. i noticed that my hands were soooo freaking fair. they were glowingly fair like luminescsent, like the moon. i was like wow!

yes i know i am very fair most ppl mistake me as chinese. hah! i didn't realise that i was that fair until i looked at my hands today. maybe it was a trick of light but it did glow like Nicole Kidman's skin. i was mightly amused.

also more happenings in the lrt....

i was randomly scrolling my mp3 player and found a song that i haven't listened to in a long long time... its Siti Nurhaliza and M Nasir with their song Bagaikan Sakti... i love this song... its just beautiful..



HAVE A LISTEN!
and for those of you who do not know any malay here is a translation of the chorus part... i am really to lazy to translate for you everything but it gives you the gist of the song... so beautiful la the song....

Jika ini hakikatnya / If This The Reality
Aku serahkan jiwa dan ragaku / I Will Surrender My Body and Soul
Menantimu walau sengsara / Even If I Suffer Waiting For You
Jika ini ketentuannya / If This Is the Certainty
Jika ini hakikatnya / If This Is The Reality
Aku serahkan jiwa dan raga / I Surrender My Body And Soul
Jika ini ketentuannya / If This is The Result
Kaukan jadi milikku jua / U Will Be Mine Forever

ok my malay is not that perfect but u get the idea of the song... farking sad romantic song of waiting and waiting endlessly for the one u love....

this of course is from the movie PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG.... i could like explain the whole damn legend about it but its very very long and i should just give you a link for you to read on ur own if you so wish...

Legend Of Puteri Gunung Ledang----> Click La

the movie changes the story abit but wat movies doesn't? hahahha ok enjoy the song...might blog to night if i so incline to do so.. or if feel really bored.. either or...

Can't Think Of Any......

can't think of any title to put for this Friday... Its Friday again... another day, another day closer to my departure from this sunny island called Singapore.... 12th Feb people...12th Feb....

Anyways guess wat this is? the picture of this strange reddish gold liquid? Looks like honey eh? It taste like honey but not really..... its.....
CHILLI SYRUP...... oh yeah chilli syrup... made from sugar and water boiled together wit chillies... it was meant to be eaten with ice cream.. vanilla ice cream... i did this today coz iwas watching Nigella on Discovery Travel and Living.... and i was reminded of this recipe of hers.... so i decided to chop some chillies and boil them wit sugar and water and voila....

Nigella Lawson.... Domestic Goddess... I bow down to you... she makes cooking fun for me... i love her and her orgasmic eating ways... she does moan and groan quite alot wen she eats no?

Anyways this is wat its supposed to look like wen u serve it. it looks soooo pretty and sooochristmas-ish doesn't it? and some of you might think... ok heck all of you might think that chillies? and ice cream? wat a weird combo... but i tell you the contrast is AMAZING! its like smooth creamy sweet icecream and then u get a hit of heat from the chillies... its not like searing spicy hot u know.. its sort of a gentle warm sensation at the back of ur throat.. nice and strange sensation... positively lovely! gotta try it.... trust me it will grow on you....

i realise that i'm blogging about food alot... which is weird... but oh wells nvm mind... enjoy

Miracles

As you can see the above pic is a pic of an egg. a fried egg. but its not any normal egg. its a freaking DEEP FRIED EGG!!!!!

POSSIBLY THE MOST FREAKING DELICIOUS THING IN THE WHOLE FRIGGING UNIVERSE.

ok here comes the miracles part. i have been gorging myself on deep fried eggs like for a few days and coupled wit today's Hari Raya Haji spread of Lamb Briyani and Ayam Masak Merah (literally translated as Red Cooked Chicken) but...... but......

i went to weigh myself and i like lost a kilo! LOST A KILO! how can rite? so i weighed myself again. and yes indeed by some miracle i did lose a kilo even after all that eating.

i consider it a Christmas Miracle.

Breathless - Corinne Bailey Rae

i didn't post yesterday for the simple reason of i didn't feel like it... hey its not as if your world would end if i didn't post hahaha....

ok so a quick post before i go to work. or rather here's a song... by the gorgeous... Corinne Bailey Rae... Don't u just love her...She sooo sweet and her songs are not bad also...

Its her song BREATHLESS.... she doesn't hav a vid of it so this is just the song... let it load give it a listen... it will touch you heart i'm sure..coz i'm sure everybody felt this way before.. i sure am...



Tell Me Do You Know?..... I Get So Breathless Wen U Call My Name.... I've Often Wondered Do You Feel The Same....

Tired

Monday is here again... i spent most of it sleeping :)

u know afternoon naps are such a luxury... i realised that as i feel asleep in the afternoon amid the not very soft pitter patter of the rain against the window. how wonderful. the weather was perfect and i was tired. Glorious combination. i guess its one of the perks of being a bumm.

oh well.

basically thats it. nothing special to blog about. i dunno 1001 things are whizzing in my head at the moment. some things i really don't want to think about but i can't help it. i think too much. kinda stressed actually. from thinking too much. hah.

other than that the usual depressive moods.

Time. Something i don't have much of. Blah!

OH MY GOD! HADY MIRZA IS THE ASIAN IDOL!!!

CAN U FREAKING BELIEVE IT!!!????

I'M SO PROUD.

YES YES YES.

SINGAPORE ROCKS!!