Mixed Feelings

i dunno.. for some people travelling to another country and seeing the world is exhilarating but for me its mixed feelings....

i love to go to another country and see see and enjoy the weather such and such but it also comes with th feeling of not wanting to leave my home and family and frens... maybe coz i'm travelling alone this time...

i'm excited slash not excited... can u feel that way?

well anyways... i'll not be blogging for a few days taht is until i can find an internet conection...

till then people....

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go....
I'm standin' here outside your door....
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye....
But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn....
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn....
Already I'm so lonesome I could die....



Here's the original version of the song by john Denver...
Wat he says in the beginning of the clip is exactly how i feel....

Leaving On a Jet Plane.... Again...

Ahah! As it is a prerequisite for all ORD personel to go on vacation... i have decided to go on one too... By myself... ok not really by myself but i'll be flying by myself... meeting Samantaht in Ozzie... Wee...

So i won't be updating my blog so regularly... i'll try and enter in a post or 2.... but thats not until weds... i'll still be around for the next 2 days...

i'm telling it now coz i dunno if i'll have the time to in the next few days....

see ya in july....

Soulmate For Everyone.....

Soulmate By Natasha Bedingfield..... I heart heart the song....

But This is how i feel right now....

To Make Myself Clear...

Ok let me try to clarify myself for one last time before I put this behind and continue on with my life.

Ok why am I pissed about the post…

First of all… it painted me in such a way that I’m a pathetic person who has no luck in any relationship whatsoever. By saying that u have it all while others are seeking. AND then putting my name and my blog next to it, makes people AUTOMATICALLY think its me who is searching and comparing me to you “who has it all” makes me look kinda pathetic and sad.

Granted that I write stuff that lamenting the fact that I have no relationship and that I have no life. But that’s how I feel at that particular moment in time. Don’t you get that feeling wen ur lonely? It DOES NOT mean that I really have no life, I do just that some parts are missing which is fine. Nobody can have everything can they?

And those are my words and only I have the authority to comment about my life.

And also I don’t like people telling me how to live my life. i'm a private person and this blog shows you things that i am willing to share.

And even though I am smiley and kooky most of the time… I do take offence to certain things… I don’t smile all the time… I am still human… cue dramatic music…. If you cut me do I not bleed?

Hahaha… wateva lah.. we are all entitled to our own interpretations and opinions… u can’t please everybody can you?... but that doesn't mean i'm ok wit it..

Much Needed Relief

Ok I’ve finally have had the time to blog a response to the blog post about me…. Which in my freaking opinion did not put me in the best light…

I’ve thought about this a lot and really I could go on and on about how I TOO have frens and family who I have fun with and cherish and how i actually LIVE in the real world but I decided not for reason being it would just be a bladdy waste of time and energy. Also I will not engage in petty arguments and debate. But I have to say this.

• By exploring and mingling u mean clubbing. That’s not my thing. Sorry.
• I am not enclosed in my own world. It’s a world of knowledge and understanding and beauty and I like it just fine. I just do not like people sticking their nose into my world. I’m a private person really.
• And that first sentence bladdy pisses me off. And yes I took in the wrong way and I bet many others did too.

Lastly U don't really know me.

One last thing… I realize that he has his blog and I have mine. He can put wateva he wants on his. I respect that… well, So can i….

But really… I’m slowly finding my real true self… it’s a constant process of self discovery. I rather wait for the right one than subject myself to constant disappointment and heartbreak. As I’ve said " Its something that I want but I don’t really need. There’s a BIG difference between WANT and NEED”

Nuff said and that’s the end of that…. I feel soo much better now.

Well if you came here by way of Isaac/Issac Blog… I Thank You For Your Kind Patronage…. Take Ur Time To Wander Around This Blog… And See How I Don’t Have It All…

A Well Thought Of Reply To Isaac/Issac’s Blog Post Will Soon Follow… But For Now I Have Other Better Things To Do…

Have A Pleasant Stay At BoOtiFul SouP…And Have a Nice Day!

To Keep From Dying....

Is Not The Same As Living....

I Want Love.. like that Elton John Song

Ok… I hav come to the conclusion that I’ll never ever fall in love…. EVER! Am I like trying too hard? am I? really… people always say that one day u will find love and be really happy… I’ve waited 22 years.. is that too short a time to wait? Maybe I should wait 22 more…

Maybe that’s what I’d do… next thing u know I’ll see dancing babies and singing theme songs….

Life has been kinda of blah these few weeks…after ord…. Except the one or two instances wen a bright light came and gone, it has been as we call it.. mendak…

I need to feel alive, I need to feel needed.. I need to laugh out loud…

I need to be loved….

Pasta Pasta Mama Mia

ok i have folded my laundry and i have tried out my new pasta recipe! oh my god i'm so happy.. its my own creation... there is something about warm spaghetti, butter, garlic and black pepper thats spells yum yum.... ok so here's the recipe...

1 table spoon of butter (yes one tablespoon)
abit of oil
3 to 4 cloves of garlic
Black pepper to taste (prefably lots)
a Squid
5 medium sized prawns
Of course a Handful of Spaghetti

• first butterfly the prawns to remove the veins and cut the squid into bit sized pieces. drain them they need to be quite dry.
• smash the garlic and smash the black pepper. note black not white.
• start the boiling of ur spaghetti. serious if u dunno how to boil spaghetti den u need to hang urself and den google it.
• So heat up the pan and add the oil and butter. let it get hot hot. make sure butter don't burn.
• add the garlic and let it fry till it get a wee bit brown. in the meantime just inhale the heavenly smells of the garlic butter.
• now add yer seafood and fry fry fyr. till they are cooked and brown around the edges. yum yum. the seafood will sweat quite abit of liquid, u just need to boil it off.
• by now the spaghetti should be done and drain it off but keep a few teaspoons of the boiling water.
• after much of the liquid has boiled off add a wee bit more butter and the crushed black pepper. toss here and there.
• now add the boiling liquid and the pasta. stir stir stir.
• plate and serve. i personally have the spaghetti with parmesan cheese. yum yum.

Just note that this serves one person or two anorexic models. have to have it hot hot. doesn't really taste nice wen its cold. go ahead and try. but i hold no resposibility if u get a stomachache. :)

All Hail the Domestic God(dess)!!!!

today i did a whole new load of laundry.... and i found it strangely satisfying that my clothes came out clean and smelling oho so fresh.... to think i actually sat down infront of the washing machine and watched the laundry spin. mines the front loading type. the whirring and spinning of the clothes in the machine is strangely calming and hynoptic. seriously it is.....

oh and i swept the house today... and i found that too very satisfying. i felt a sense of achivement as i sweep the floor with the kiwi clean floor wipes... all that dust... yucks....

also on other domestic news.....

if you have clothes that are too big for you, there is one thing u can do.... shrink them especially those cotton ones... today i shrank a cardigan, a long sleeve tee and a t-shirt.... how satisfying and they all fit me nicely now.... oh its simple.. u just put them in the washing machine and wash them hot... i mean use the hot water... after that u stick them in the dryer for a ur or so... after that voila!!!! shrunken clothes... its amazing darlings...

later i shall attempt to make a seafood spaghetti with like shrimp and squid... so watch out for the next blog postto see if my new recipe works out jaja? till next time... this is the new Domestic God(dess) KookyPlum.... Toodles Darlings.. don't forget to bring in ur laundry... after a really hot spell there is bound to be rain.... :)