Its a Lum Dee Dum Day

Its a Lum Dee Dum Day.... why? coz its all you do today... u sit around at home and go LumDeeDum... Hoo Hoo...

So nothing much happened this week... just went out to shop with Silly Sleepy Ape Loving Man.... at Daiso of all places.... den went o Daiso to drink some Choc Frap.... and Subsequently got drunk.. on chocolate lah... please... Did you know chocolate makes you happy? ya so i was drunk on chocolate....

haiz... boring sia....

Next week... alot of ippt and soc... whooo!!!!

A State of Limbo

she's gone... its werid.. i'm in a state of limbo... now i have no life all of a sudden... who will go out with me? and shop and people watch? who will i bitch too? just now i really wanted to msg her but then i realised she's in australia... its weird and kinda sad... i miss her already...

bestest fren u are miles away....

Nawal Al Zoghbi

Nawal... Great Singer... Once again i dunno wat the freak this song is about but i like it! blog later....

A Little About Me....

First of all Happie Neu Year of the Oinky Oink...

i watched Grey's Anatomy today i was quite struck by wat this old lady said on the show... i tend to pick up alot about life from tv, i watch too much anyways... but the thing she said was "Life's too Short.. You have to fight for wat urs" but the first part made me think... with all the things i've been doing and stuff that been happening to me and the people i've met and gotten to know, it seem that life is indeed too short and i have soo amny things to do and so many things to say to people that are meant to said.. haiz.. but can't say it all at once can i?

but let me say this... it seem that people cannot figure who or what i am... like they think i'm such a mystery and that i am... i like to keep it that way... but i'll share a little bit of my personality with all of you (or at least those who bother to read this humble blog of mine)...

people always tend to say i'm stuck up and proud wen they first meet me.. i get that all the time... they don't know wat they're missing... wen i first meet you i don't really make the first move. i tend to let you decide if you wanna get to know me... i have this thing about people, my history and my past experience has shown me that people can be nasty towards me.. or rather towards people of my nature and position... so that s why i tend to ignore the newcomers or tend to be very loud and silly thats coz i tend to be very silly wen i first meet people... i'm shy lah... o say hi to me i'm a really nice person and i don't bite... much anyways....

and people always think i'm such a fey fairy wen they first meet me.. umm ... ok thats kinda true... lets leave it as that okay....

i guess my biggest flaw would be that i would numb myself from things that aree happening around me.. i build walls and shield myself from alot of things.. and i don't get involved with people or things for fear that it would hurt me in one way or another... i made that mistake many a times and i've regretted it (there is one very big regret.. sigh...) i dunno once again how you experience life in the past will shape the way you behave in the future.. well that was the psat and the nasty things said and done were well in the past... and i look better than them anytime now anyways.. bitches... anyways sorry, off track there abit... but ya i'm working on it.. i try to get to know more people and do more things (thus the last few posts down) ... trying to be more open you could say...

in the spirit of being open (well darlings not that open.. sheesh..) there are 2 people i really care about in my life.. besides my family... family is/are people you care about no matter wat... i mean people outside my family... the first person is my bestest fren... i care about her.. ya i know i'm bring all mushy but u know this is wat i feel... i so so so so miss her wen she goes to Aust for a year and not coming back! ok only at the end of the year... i'll be so sad...

the other person i really care about is well... can't really say... its been a confusing road for me about this person... and i guess its better not to disclose the identity of thus said person... i care about you but i can't show you that i do.. weird rite? always i feel u want to tell me something but ur just holding urself back.. maybe its just me... was i too harsh? am i too bitchy? or ur just tired of me... i don't want to feel the way i feel but den again who can? i can't say i love you coz wat do i know about love... its like having a worm in ur heart, slowly eating it day by day... i'm very confused about wat to do and yet i know wat i must do... sigh....

sad lah my life eh? that me being open... and if you happen to read this then its a very fucked up way of you to find out about it... but then again i'm shy...

haiz blogging this has made me depressed.... and i have to go eat... hungry leh...

Butterscotch & Sprite

There is so much i wanna type but i feel freaking tired. Okay let me relate to you wat happened this week. i tend to do these weekly update coz well.... i'm not there for most of the week so i have to blog during the weekends so ya. you get wat i mean.

finally the last outfield exercise is over... at least for Singapore that is... i have 2 more in Taiwan... blargh! but its okay after the Taiwan ones i'll be on my way to be civillian. Whoopee Doo... If that wasn't enuff right after the outfield thing i went clubbing! For the first time...

Oh my god! me go clubbing? unglamourous me... ok lah it was Samantha's farewell thing coz she was going away to study. so i went to her house to have a farewell dinner. after that we went to St James. ok it was my first time and it was kinda weird having to dance on the dancefloor. but if i were doing it alone it would be stupid but there were at least 100++ ppl doing the same. so it didn't feel so stupid. but i really feel u need to get drunk to go clubbing. to really let urself go and hang loose. that said i like Butterscotch&Sprite. go order it. its nice. and no i didn't get drunk yesterday. was dancing and dancing till 4 am. tiring you know. its not my thing though. but i don't mind if the company is good.

anyways got home at 5 and slept till 12 or 1 in the afternoon. i think. anyways ppl ask me out again today! to go to MoMo... am i that happening? nope i don't think so..... i'm just popular by proxy... its sad but true...

but i like Butterscotch&Sprite....Thanks to Melissa...

Time to Move on....

Haifa Wehbe

I like Haifa she's so pretty.... i changed my format coz i usually give you a vid after my rants but i feel its time fora change. thus i shall post a vid first. and besides i like Haifa and not forgetting Sabah but i posted her last week. so anyways time to blog proper.

i feel its time for a change. i know i said it would be my new years resolutions. but now i feel it is really changing. the people around and the things i do. its changing. i feel it in the wind and in the ground. Something happened last night that made me realise that i have to move on and dwell on the past. ok last night i went to watch movie with Sumo and my army collegues/frenz. but thats not it. something else happened, i shall not elaborate but i felt quite hurt by it.

anyway change change change is good right?

Like a Virgin, Drunk For The Very First Time

My oh my, wat a most eventful week i had. well you know me. i like to list things down. here wat i did for the week.

Monday: Had run. and went to get ATEC results. which was good. Redcon 1! yay! nothing much on monday except Encik ask me to run with him Every freaking day!

Tuesday: Didn't run coz most of my medic were on MC or duties. so i had to cover them or rather do covers for them. Good to coz i needed the break. Also kena 3 extra.

Wednesday: I can't remember much of Wednesday except i was thrown alot and ran. oh and there was a route march! at night! hah!

Thursday: Went for a run to the Zoo with encik. then had a cohesion wit the Coy Commanders cohesion. ate alot and played abit of Jenga. and sat along time on the stairs listening to ppl talk about other ppl. as usual got nothing to do with me much. but hey commander wat.

Friday: well this is wehre the fun begins. met Samantha to go the medics cohesion at East Coast Park. all was well and i had a great time. well thats wen the alchohol started to come. at first i didn't want to drink but wat the hey. so for my first time drinking i had maybe 5-6 shots of Martell, Red wine, Chivas and beer. all mixed in different amounts with some random drinks. also 1 or 2 cans of beer unmixed. okay got drunk. weird feeling to be drunk. and don't you think i drunk i can't remember anything. there were some actions that weren't supposed to be done but did. umm okay i know but no. talked alot of rubbish to my Dr and peed alot. i didn't puke though. and didn't wake up wit a hangover. hah! not bad for a first time eh?

Saturday: crashed at Samantha's house. before you get any thoughts. i crashed at her house coz we had a Bake-a-thon on sat! but i woke up at 12 but we still managed to make choco mousse, choco cloud cake, peanut butter cookies and orange and almond cake! not bad ah. i like spending time with my best fren. too bad she's going away soon. sadness. anyways my close fren in secondary skool got married on Sat night. well wish her all the best with her husband! makes me wanna get married, but i won't at least not for a very long time. fyi: if ur reading this Xlippy ur fren is getting married to my fren. haha.

Sunday: woke up really late. went online. rotted for few hours and went to cut my hair. and here we are. booking in soon. sianz.

anyways retrospect for the week was, i didn't expect to do so many things that i never done before. namely, letting myself loose and getting drunk and sleeping over at Samanthas house. also i ran quite alot for the past week. i guess i'm beginning to fulfill my new yeasr resolution quite fast eh?

i'll leave you this week with my all time favourite Lebanese singer Sabah. this video was taken in 2004 which makes her around 88? she a diva and so freaking kool. so old still performing. god bless her!

Some Things

Ok it seems that peoples' blogs (maybe not Xiaxue's) have started to stagnate and mine is beggining to do just that... it seems that there isn't much to blog about.. all my regular blogs that i frequent are not updating as much as they should... haiz.. so today's post will be just a random smuttering of thoughts of the past...umm week....

ok so i had my ATEC stage 1 evaluation at Tekong. How very stressful.... coz i the beginning it was not me who was to be evaluated. long story. but anyways got a Redcon ! status. which is good. and a quite good timing for IV. 4 minutes is not bad eh? from priming to securing the drip. anyways that was work related.

personally, i've been light headed and giddy for the past 2 days. and always at the same time which is 5 ish. can't be tht i didn't eat. i've been eating and quite alot of that. low BP? maybe. i need to go back and check. it couldn't be that not enuff O2. my breathing seems ok. no nausea just giddy. pregnant? can't possibly be that right? i'm getting quite worried about this.

anyways, watched Pan's Labyrinth. i loved it. very sad endin though. there was Jesus at the end, well it looked like Jesus. the monster were kool. it was magical. go watch it. go watch it if you were supposed to watch it but didn't coz you were too tired or shy to meet my fren. ya go watch it.

ALERT! please please. i've said it so many times. pls do not wear running shoes with ur jeans. i don't mind if the jeans don't fit or not the right length (ok i have a problem with folding jeans) but please New Balance only goes well with running shorts. okay? and also short guys pls do not tuck in ur shirts. it chops ur body up and makes us look short. but that just me. is it just me but do tanned guys really look good in green? really they do. oh am talking bout myself? hah maybe.. haha... and fair guys look good in pastels? and blue? just an observation.

oh and jsut a note. if you fat legs. for gods sake do not wear boots. especially those winter boot things with those fur insides. please do not hurt my eyes.

whoop! these observations were made on a shopping trip. of which i bought shoes! Puma shoes. Green and brown shoes! haha. i like. and also frog fabric! printed frog fabric! really cute. i'm gonna make cushion covers. i'm happy but alot poorer. hah! am still giddy. not giddy from the shopping but giddy from the unknown disease i'm having.urgh. another week of camp! whoop pee doo!

a bonus for those who actually read my blog. the number of which is non existant. its like i'm talking to myself. which is like my real life.always talking to myself. creepy. but anyways here a nice video. Bring ya back to the 60s ish.

Pan's Labyrinth

ok i watched Pan's Labyrinth last friday. ok it was a really super good movie. go watch it. went shopping on sat and bought alot of nonsense things. i'll blog more tomolo. but here's a treat. the theme to Pans Labyrinth. its stuck in my head. don't mind the weird doll thing.

I'm Worried

the past week has been super stressful and super tiring. i've never been so tired in recent memory. both mentally and physically tired. mon i had duty where there was cock up and i had to extend my work to around 8.30 instead of stopping at 6. tues i had to teach the Scouts fractures.

first of all, i did not teach them fracture management before. i taught them or rather i did IV with them. den dumped it on me. den i read wat the Scouts were going to be tested and got the shock of my life. for fracture management there is alot of freaking things to learn. and i was given 20 minutes per detail. like WTF. so me and my guys taught them all we could. and i spent the whole night photocopying and cutting and gluing diagrams for them. thinking it would be of some use to them since their test would be next week.

weds continued with Buddy aid for the guys and with the diagrams thing. also had to help out with the sudden conjunct outbreak spreading around.

thurs had the mock test for the Scouts. and fri had to go for ward duty. and i worry constantly about the Scouts and wether we taught them enuff and worry a great deal about me and my medics coz all this while we were helping to teach others we neglected to practice ourselves. i'm very very worried for next week wen we are evaluated.

i'm very tired. i've never felt this tired before.given my current mental state i'm suprised i'm still sane. someone said to me that i'm a very care free person with no worries. i told him everybody has problems just that i nvr show thats all.