Sunday, January 29, 2006

Soldier = Geisha?

First of all..... Heres to All My Frens....

HappiE ChiNese NeU YeAr!!!
Of tHe DoG!!
WooF WooF!!
now onto my blog proper... i have watched Memoirs of a Geisha... it was a visual feast although not a very intellectual one... it was just beautiful... i can't help but realise that Geishas and Soldiers lead very similiar live... there are parallels in both our worlds that are very eerily the same...below is a list of the commonalities in no particular order.
  1. First of all Mameha said this to Sayuri: We do not become Geisha to fulfill our own destinies. We become geisha because we have no choice. Does that ring a bell to all u guys out there.. we become wat we are because we have no choice.
  2. Next, geisha paint their faces white and red. Soldiers paint their faces green and black.
  3. Each geisha belongs to an okiya (geisha house) which is part of a hanamachi (geisha district), which in turn part of many hanamachis in a city. each soldier is part of a company which is turn part of a battalion, which in turn part of a brigade and so on.
  4. In an okiya there is a okasan (mother) which takes care of the geisha. in a company there is a CSM which basically does the same thing.
  5. Geishas have to wear their kimonos when they work. soldiers have to wear their uniforms when they work.
  6. Geishas have their tools of the trade like thier fans and their umbrella. We have our rifles and helmets.
  7. Geisha train to be the best in their arts of dance and music. Soldiers train to be the best in what they do.
  8. Geisha have their mizu-age (coming of age). We have BMT.
  9. Most become full fledge geisha at the age of 18 - 20. We become soldiers around the same age.
  10. A geisha is free from her bond once she has paid back her okiya of the expenses to train her. We do that to to a certain extent also.
  11. A geisha is the illusion of the perfect woman. Soldiers are expected to be the perfect man.
  12. A life of a geisha is tough, it requires discipline and dedication. A soldiers life runs a similiar course.
  13. A geisha has a set of rule to follow on how to behave. A soldier has drill and SOP.

ok thats all i can think of... but there is one thing that a geisha has but not a soldier... wat is it? Some geisha have a danna or patron.... do we have one of those?

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Because Of You
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

How i Wish

we all wish at one time or another... we wished that the bus would come earlier or that nasty bug would stop buzzing around you... we all wish for many things.. but there is one wish that we all wish for.. that is to have the perfect life...

that is the universal wish of all the people in the known worlds... but the reality is that life will never ever be perfect.. there will always be bumps and humps along the way... expectations that can never be meet...

but hey we can only wish and hope for the best right?

Sunday, January 01, 2006

First Post of The New Year

Urrrgghhh... another new year. the hype is gone and now we have to trudge along all the way to another year.. wat a daunting task it will be... but hey i will survive, hey! hey! (cue Gloria Gaynor)

so i was planning list down my new years resolution but then again... iwill never keep to them so why would i put it down? goodness..... there is one resolution that i must try to keep (cue Ms Gaynor again).. that is to survive 2006.. i am foreseeing that it will be a terrible year ahead with all the nasty players in my life and all the obstacles that stand before me... ok its getting quite dramatic isn't it... k lets tone it down...

neways, u noe i have been blogging for like almost 2 1/2 years... it so weird and entertaining to read ur thoughts at that particular moment in time.. its so strange to read wat i have written and to think i have actually written such things... i those 2 previous sentence i wrote the exact same thing but in different words... sometimes i even amaze myself... haha... but ok, its so weird to read thru some of my post... i was angry crazy, gloomy and happy... its like i'm so happy to ahv a blog to keep a record of my thought and all of u read it.. ok maybe not so much the latter but hey i'm happy to share my thought with all of you.... so happy reading my blog and hope i survive this new year ( hey hey)....